Finding My Lost Self [to be edited]

Chapter 14 - The Announcement

"I'll try my best, Alex." I smiled at him weakly.

He smiled back. "And now, let's go see her at that hospital." he said.

I nodded. "alright. I'll give you the address. just give me a minute to text my friends and tell them not to wait to pick me up." I told him

I got my phone out and texted Martina,

'I'll be with Alex. don't bother picking me up. you can go home.' I typed quickly and pressed send then shoved the phone into my pocket. 

I sat there waiting for Alex as he got dressed. when he was done, we went out and got into his red car. I gave him the address and he kept on driving silently. the whole drive was so quiet until we had arrived at the hospital.

we got into the hospital through the big entrance. I felt sick from the white color that had engulfed everything along with the smell of sterilizers and medicines that was all over the place. I had always hated hospitals. Alex asked the lady at the front desk for the number of the room in which my mom was being kept. we walked silently through the corridors after we had gotten out of the elevator. the silence was so awkward and unbearable until we had finally reached the door of the room number 113. I gulped nervously as Alex put his hand on the door knob. he seemed to notice my nervousness and looked at me with a reassuring smile. I smiled back and then he opened the door.

I walked in carefully. the room wasn't all white like the rest of the hospital. only the walls were white. the curtains and the carpets on the floor were navy blue. there was a sky blue sofa and a matching nightstand. there was also a sky blue bed in which my mom had laid silently.

she looked so peaceful. her face was pale and her lips were a faint pink shade. her sight made me want to cry. never in my life had I seen my mom so... weak.

I took a deep breath as I approached her to sit on the foot of the bed. Alex sat on the small chair that was right next to her bed. he cupped her cheek and smiled sadly.

"I-I'm sorry, m-mom. I never meant to hurt you or make you feel bad I just... I'm sorry." he whispered. the last part lower than the rest that it was barely audible. and then, he started sobbing silently.

it pierced my heart to see him like this.

and then, to our surprise, my mom opened her eyes and smiled at him weakly. "how could I ever be mad at my baby?" she said in a faint voice. 

my heart was beating furiously as I smiled broadly. my tears were flooding my eyes already. for a moments, I had forgotten about everything. her sickness, the whole sadness and grief of the situation, just everything. the only thing that mattered right then was that she was awake.

my mom was awake.

you probably would never imagine how I was feeling right then. it was something more like a massive mix of every emotion I had experienced throughout my whole life. and without even knowing how we ended up like this, the three of us were in a bone crushing group hug.

after god knows how much time that had passed, we finally let go. I looked at my mom in concern.

"what the hell, seriously, mom? why did you have to make us so scared?" I frowned at her. she chuckled and Alex glared at me, probably for my language. 

"actually there was something I wanted to tell you too since a while. I-" my mom said but the voice of a nurse that had suddenly entered the room cut her off.

"excuse me, but the visiting hours are over. you shall come tomorrow." she said politely. we said our goodbyes and hugged our mom then got out.

"stay safe, mom!" I yelled at her as I left the room. I could hear her yelling back. "don't worry, honey."