It's My Mistake ~ PUBLISHED

Chapter 6

Simon's face furrowed into a very confused look as he stared at me, as if he was suddenly shocked that I had yelled and appeared to be angry.

"Well, you stopped talking to me, and then suddenly out of the blue you're talking to me again."

"But you've been seeing other women? Women. Not just one!"

"Alice, I only want you. It's always been you. I don't want anyone else. The others, they're just for sex, I don't care—"

"What?" I croaked a little, I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I had gotten this guy completely wrong. Was that all he thought of? Was this why he kept pressuring me to sleep with him?

I could see it now, thinking back to it, it wasn't that I wasn't ready, it was my subconscious telling me something was off about Simon. He kept pressuring me into having sex with him and I was just pushing him away. I did that; I dig my heels in whenever someone tries to pressure me into doing something I don't want to. Rather than succumbing to their pleas, I do the opposite; I become stubborn.

I also remembered why I hadn't wanted to talk to Simon after leaving his flat. Well, it's not that I had forgotten, I just didn't think it was such a big deal when I decided to unblock his number again. But it was my subconscious warning me again. Before I had run out of Simon's flat, he had muttered his displeasure that he had been let down again. In fact, Simon had even gotten a little angry at me and called me frigid.

"I don't care about them." Simon tried to reach over the table again. His hand grazing mine and I felt a strange disgust creep up my arm and settle in the bottom of my stomach.

"You've been sleeping with other women, Simon!" I replied after placing my hands deliberately under the table, out of his reach.

"Well, yeah, but not while we were dating of course! I wouldn't do that to you. Well, at least not until I knew we were serious. But it was so long since I, you know! And a man has his needs."

I snorted a slight laugh at the irony of where I was. I had phoned Simon because I felt lonely. That strange guy had got to me. I couldn't possibly see how he would be interested in me. My thoughts went to Simon and how I had gotten scared and ran away from it. I realised now, I hadn't gotten scared and ran away. Well, not in the sense that I was scared of commitment and being hurt again, but instead my subconscious was trying to tell me something was wrong about Simon.

I knew what Simon was trying to get at too. He had, not in so many words, admitted to seeing other women when we first got together. It wasn't until he thought it was 'serious' that he had stopped. I felt a shiver as I thought about it. Thinking about how he probably rushed off to some woman to sleep with her after I denied him sex.

"That's sick," I said, raising my eyebrows at him. "So this whole time that we had this break, you've been going off and shagging other women?"

"Well, yeah, we broke up."

I shook my head. "You just admitted to sleeping with other women before we were serious," I said, shaking my head. Before he was able to say anything else I interjected; "If you actually cared that much for me Simon, you wouldn't go off with other women!"

"If it means that much to you, I won't do it. I'll stop seeing them. I'll hold off for you. I just didn't think it was a big—"

"I had you all wrong," I interrupted, my headshake feeling like it was going to become permanent. "I thought you were this sweet guy, misunderstood, and all along you've just been one of those players I despise so much!"

"I'm not a player—" he started to hiss.

"You go around having one-night stands with women!" I yelled.

"It's not really one-night stands, I just have a few female friends who—"

"What the hell? That's worse!" I yelled a little louder.

"Alice, can you keep your voice down!?" he started to yell back.

"Woah, what's going on here?" said someone from behind me, probably a member of staff in the bar. I didn't even look round at who it was. I was too busy concentrating on boring holes into Simon's face to even care.

"It's okay, it's just a misunderstanding, a mistake—" Simon started, looking away from my very pissed off face and at up at the man that was behind me.

"Mistake?" I yelled at Simon, and laughed again.

"Alice Marks?" the voice said from behind me. I turned to yell at him too for interrupting a serious conversation, not realising that this person even said my own name, but I closed my mouth suddenly after I recognised his face.

"Dan?" I said, my voice catching in my throat.

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