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[9]

I promised myself that I'd only drink one bottle. But even after I was done with the first, I kept thinking about Jimin and how angry he was when I refused to open up to him about my feelings.

I thought that drinking another bottle would help me forget. It worked, but only for the night.

Now, here I am again, and Jimin is the only thing on my mind.

I blindly reach towards the bedside table for my phone, but it isn't there. I probably left it at the kitchen.

Instead, my hand closes around a small square of paper. I bring it in front of my face and unfold it.

It looks like a letter.

I quickly get out of bed and lean against the window for light, ignoring the headache resulting from my sudden movements.

I squint at the words scribbled on the paper.

Dear Taehyung,

Remember that day I transferred to your high school? I can still remember when you sat next to me during lunch on my first day, and I was worried about you. After all, you were the most popular one at school, and I was just an outcast. What would your friends think of you? Would they disown you for hanging out with a loser? Yet you made sure I was comfortable and was always volunteering to help me with homework.

You were my first true friend, Taehyung. I'll be forever grateful for that.

Since you're reading this, you're probably laughing at how weird I am. Why would I write a letter to you now, when it's not your birthday or Christmas or any sort of holiday?

You ask, "why?" Well, I'm writing this to you because I feel like it.

Think of this as a thank you card.

Wait. First of all, I want to apologize for being so rude a while ago. I'm sorry for storming off when you refused to share your feelings with me. I wish I had reacted differently. I wish I had been more understanding.

I'm just worried about you, Taehyung. I'm also worried about our friendship. You used to always tell me everything, good news or bad news. And you know that I'm here to listen, just like how you always listen to me.

I just want to know what's bothering you, so that I can at least try to help you. You know how connected we are. When you're sad, I'm sad.

And if you're not ready to tell me now, that's okay. Just tell me, "I'll tell you soon.", or something like that. It's okay, I'll wait. But it'll be better if you tell me as soon as possible so you can stop being so sad all the time and we can happy again.

You can even write back, if you're not comfortable saying it out loud haha.

It sucks to see you like this, Taehyung. I feel like a part of me is missing when you don't talk to me.

I love you. You're my best friend, and that's something that can never be replaced.

Your best bud,

Jimin :)

I read the letter twice. Then I rub my eyes and read it again, to make sure I'm not just seeing things.

It's been years since Jimin has written me a letter. Gosh, he's so cheesy.

But he must really be worried about me, then. To the point where he writes me a letter.

I wish I could tell him. I wish I could just confess to him, tell him that I want to be more than just friends. But life doesn't work that way. What if he doesn't like me back? Our friendship will be ruined and it'll be too hard to go back to the way we used to be.

I sigh heavily and place the letter in the drawer of my bedside table.

I'll talk to him today, just so that he'll stop asking me what's wrong. I'll just come up with a fake problem.

I'll just say that I'm really sad about Yoongi's decision to leave Bangtan. I mean, it's sort of true. I am sad. But it's not the main thing on my mind right now. Namjoon will take care of it. He always finds a way to make everything okay.

Before I get dressed, I dash to the kitchen, retrieve my phone, and I leave Jimin a text:

Ok, you win. I'll tell you. Meet me at the Flowergarden for lunch.

I just hope he believes me when I say that Yoongi going solo is the only thing bothering me.

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[tbc]

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(A/N): haha sorry this chapter is a little rushed but I just needed to update :p