Forget The First (On Hold For Major Editing And Rewriting)

9. "I will drop to the floor and throw a full on four year old bitch fit."

"That is fine, take your time." Dr. Rodgers gives me a kind smile.

"Well, I guess I should start from where my life went from good to bad. When I was 15 about a week or so before my 16th birthday my parents got into a huge car crash that killed them. Having my parents die a week before my birthday hit me really hard because instead of celebrating I was at a funeral. I was strong though, I didn't let my feelings affect my everyday life except for the fact that I stopped dancing. Maybe I should have, maybe then what happened two weeks ago wouldn't have pushed me to my breaking point. When my ex-boyfriend leaked a video of us having sex my world crumbled, he didn't even talk to me after we did the deed. Not only was it my first time but I wasn't really comfortable with it, but I did it anyways because I felt bad for thinking about someone else in a not so platonic way" I gulp because despite having City I still think about Joel every day; he occupies a lot of my mind and there is a good chance that I will never even see him again.

"To think I met this someone else while visiting my parents grave. I never thought I would see him again, didn't even know his name. To my surprise, he ended up at the same school as me and we were getting along somewhat well, he's the brooding "I don't do friends" type. I don't know where anything would've gone though because his first day was the day that the video was leaked. I obviously handled everything really poorly but I'm ready to be like the Japanese and start filling my cracks with gold now." I take a deep breath and squeeze City's hand.

"I'm glad you are thinking like that now. I have met with your family and I know that they are more than willing to help be your gold." Dr. Rodgers gives me a sincere smile, the mans grown on me. I'm glad I got everything out, it feels like a weight has been lifted off my chest and I can breathe again.

Three more days pass and they think I am ready to go home and continue filling my cracks with gold.

None of you are ever alone, there is always someone that is willing to listen. You should never feel pressured into doing something you don't want to. Please Fill Your Cracks With Gold.

Help is out there.

Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255

Rape, Abuse and Incest National Hotline: 1-800-656-4673

National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-7233

Youth Crisis Hotline: 1-800-448-4663

United Way Crisis Helpline: 1-800-233-4357

GriefShare: 1-800-395-5755

And there is a bunch more at http://www.pleaselive.org/hotlines

Maia Goes Home Next Chapter.

Who do you ship?

#Citia (City+Maia)

#Joia (Joel+Maia)