My Bully (Yoonmin)

Chapter Sixty

When I woke up my eyes were still a bit puffy but I no longer looked like I had been crying. Maybe today would get better since it was Friday. I got ready for school and left. Maybe Yoongi will tell me what's going on today, maybe he'll tell me it was all a big misunderstanding. When I walk into class, I sit down in my normal seat next to Yoongi. He doesn't talk. When the teacher walks in, he turns to me before the teacher started the lesson.

"My mom isn't going to be at my apartment today, wanna hang out?" He said emotionlessly. Like there wasn't any joy for him in doing this. I nod and give him a weak smile. Hopefully, he will tell me what's going on then.

At lunch, I could tell everyone sensed the tension, but no one acted on it. Even on our walk to Yoongi's was tense and silent. The comfortable silence that could be held between us was gone. Now in that silence thoughts swarmed through my head. Thoughts like Yoongi possibly bringing me to his house to break up with me or tell me he is getting married in a few months. My heart still hurts. The worst part was even after we arrived, there was still silence. Yoongi and I sat on the couch next to each other watching a movie. There was more space between us than there usually would be. As the evening grew later I couldn't take the silence anymore.

"How have you been? Everything good with your mom?" Yoongi paused before answering.

"Yeah. Everything's been fine." The conversation came to an end. Almost an hour passed before I finally snapped.

"I saw you yesterday." I kept my face towards the television screen. I could see Yoongi look towards me.

"Okay?" I shook my head slightly, he really doesn't know what I'm talking about.

"I saw that girl too." I looked at Yoongi. He met my gaze but looked unaffected by my words. "When did you plan on telling me?" Yoongi looked away.

"I didn't think it mattered," He mumbled. I stand up and walk forward a few steps away from the couch before turning towards Yoongi again.

"You didn't think it mattered? You didn't, think it mattered?" My voice started to get louder. "How could it not matter, Yoongi? Did you seriously think it didn't matter or do I not matter enough for you to tell me?" Yoongi rolls his eyes.

"What are you even on about?" His gaze turns towards the television again.

"Huh?! Really?! I've continued to ask you what's wrong and what's going on but you always say that it's nothing. You have changed Yoongi, I don't know if your mom is pushing you around or if she has brainwashed you, but I don't like it. I just want the old Yoongi back." Yoongi rolls his eyes and scoffs.

"Do you know how many people have said that to me? I just can't do anything right for others. Everyone just wants a different version of me." I can feel my eyes start welling up with tears but I force them back.

"You said you were happy. You said you liked the way everything was before your mom came back. Now she is here and you are getting married and you don't even care that it's breaking my heart." Yoongi gets up off the couch.

"What am I supposed to do about it anyway?! She's my mom." By this point, we are both yelling at each other.

"The same thing the old Yoongi would have done! Not listened! You never cared what others wanted you to do, you did what your heart told you. Now you do everything your mom wants you to do regardless of how you feel about it. Every time I ask if you want to hang out or something after school and you never can because she is having you do something." Yoongi shouts back at me.

"She's just trying to look out for me because she cares, unlike everyone else." I feel a tear roll down my face.

"Are you kidding me?! You have so many people who care so much about you. You have an entire friend group who would do anything to save you. You also have me. Or had me should I say? I care so much about you which is why we are having this fucking argument. I can tell that something is wrong here. You are blindly following what your mom says because you think she is looking out for you. Is she though?! She left you and then decided to show up again 'because she cares about you' if she cares so much why did she leave you to fend for yourself? You could have died. Now she is forcing you into an arranged marriage without you getting any say in it. She only cares about herself, why don't you see that? She is just using you for her own benefit. Yoongi, everything I do is with you in mind. I care about your happiness because I am only thinking about you, not myself." Yoongi rolls his eyes again.

"Why even bother?" I step forwards and shove Yoongi onto the couch.

"Because I care so so much about you. I fucking love you. Why don't you see that?" By now tears are running down my face. "I can't take this anymore Yoongi. You don't talk to me anymore, you don't show that you even care about me anymore. It's hurting me. Go get married if that's what you want, I can't tell you what to do." Yoongi stands up again.

"What do you even mean? Why are you even crying?" His tone is still defensive.

"You barely talk to me Yoongi, you are always so lost in your thoughts that you sometimes don't even hear me talking to you. You don't smile, at least when you're around me. So it's either me that's making you unhappy or your mom, you need to figure out who it is because you're hurting me. I'm crying because I'm hurting." I grab my stuff and leave, slamming the door on my way out. I quickly walk down the sidewalk back to my house, wiping the tears from my face as I went. So this is what heartbreak feels like.

(A/N: Literally cried a bit when writing this chapter. My poor babies. :'( Also, there is only 5 chapters till the end of the book. Are you excited?)