New Beginnings (JensenXReader)

And Again

And again.

And again.

This damn nightmare is on a loop.

You wake up. You hear beautiful laughter from your husband and daughter, but you have no clue to where they are. You search and you search. Sweating, crying, yelling, becoming more and more stressed out. Which is not good at all for your unborn twins. Then, the screeching of a van pulling up and your daughter screaming. Her fear evident in her little yells. They are burning her throat and tears cloud her vision. And you run, you run as fast as you body will let you but your always to late. The van pulls away and you are left with your daughter's beautiful locket. Your body can never take the pain so it causes you to blackout, restarting the nightmare over.

Right when you woke this time, your body brought you outside to wait by the end of the driveway. You waited as you heard the giggles inside the house. Your stupid heart wanted to go inside and look for them but your mind knew that they weren't there, they never were. You snapped yourself out of your trance and hear the van screech for the last time. You jumped from your spot and just as JJ was tossed into the van, you jumped in with her.

"Mama?" JJ cries. "Yes baby, oh my god, I'm here. I'm finally here." You go to wrap her in your arms but a man rips her off the ground and into his arms. "You don't touch her. Shes mine. You killed the thing I loved right in front of me, now I am going to do the same!" Jeff pulled a gun from his pocket and aimed it at your beautiful daughter's head. "NO! Please! I'm begging you! Don't do this! Please Please Please don't do this!" You beg with tears falling endlessly. "Sorry not sorry." Jeff smirks and pulls the trigger.

"NO!" You scream and spring straight up.

"Oh my god, (Y/n)?" Someone calls your name. Your breathing begins to get very rapid and it gets tougher and tougher allow air to your lungs. You start gasping for a breath and bring your hand up to your chest for support. But you quickly look down to see an IV in your hand. Looking up fast feeling many body's around you, you squint to try to see the group in front of you. But before their faces become clear, your eyes begin to get heavy and your body slumps back down slowly. You tilt your head to the side and see your husband. Well, at least you found one of your loved ones. So where was JJ?

A suddle beep resided in your ear, causing you to begin to wake. You knew exactly where you were and remebered exactaly what happened in your dreams and the day before. "Jensen?" You croak out before opening your eyes. You feel your hand being squeezed and the hair in your face being tucked back before you opened your eyes to your beautiful husband. "(Y/n), hey baby girl are you awake?" Hearing his voice you instantly began to tear up. "Jensen..." You sob and he instantly wraps you in his arms. "Shh, baby. Shh, it's okay. It's okay." Jensen runs his arms up and down your arm, trying to soothe you.

"Its not okay. It was horrible." You finally speak. "What was?" Jensen asks looking down to face you. "My dream I had after I whacked my head on the curb yesterday after we lost-" You couldn't even say her name. "Shh. I know, I know people are looking for JJ right now. Tell me about your dream..." Jensen moves back into his seat to give you more room with the belly and all. "I kept waking up over and over again. Hearing you and JJ laughing. I would run all over trying to find you two but I never could. The dream always ended with JJ being taken by a man and him throwing her in a van and taking off, without me. But before I woke up last time, I jumped into the van finally and it was Jeff who took her. And- he," you swallowed hard. "He killed her. Right in front of me. That's why I sprang awake."

Jensen kissed your hands. "Yeah when you finally woke up a few hours ago Jared was the first one who notcied that you were hyperventilating like crazy. I don't think you could fully breathe. So you must have woken up from your dream. The doctors had to come in and give you something to go back asleep to help you relax and breathe. Everyone was in here but I asked them all to leave for a bit and give me some time with you." Jensen leaned up and kissed your lips. "Wait, what do you mean finally woke up?" You asked, trying to search his eyes for the answer.

"Baby girl, when you hit your head on the sidewalk you passed out and when we got you to the hospital, you were in a small coma. The doctor said it would only be a few days, which was both relieving and scary at the same time. You've been out for 5 days so far."

"Five days?" You repeat what Jensen said and put it into a question for yourself to understand clearly. "Yes. Five long, painful and worried filled days. You scared me, you scared all of us. I'm already missing one of my girls, I didn't want to be missing both." Jensen leans his hand up to cup your cheek. You lean into his warm touch as he clears the tears from under your eyes.

"Did we find her yet? How are the babies? I don't feel anything worng, except for that my baby girl is gone." You move you eyes to your glowing stomach and being to rub circle after circle trying to not fall apart again. Jensen's hands come into your view and go over yours to stop your constant circling. You grab his hands in both of your hands and hold him close to you. "The babies are perfect, healthly, strong and invincible like their mother." You smile at your husband. "I'm not so invincable. This goose egg on my forhead will tell that." You raise your hand up to touch your forehead and whine from its swolleness.

"Don't touch that, first of all. It's still pretty tender. And never say that about yourself. You are and will always be the strongest person I know. Never forget that. And right now we gotta be strong for our little girl out there. We will find her and our family will be whole again. I promise you that." You nod at Jensen without saying a word. You feel as though any peep that would leave your mouth would spring the next niagara falls from your eyes. You scoot over in the bed for Jensen to sit with you. You wanted to be in his arms, his comfort.

"I- I should probably call everyone, tell them you are awake and see how the search is going for JJ. I want her back so badly, (Y/n/n)." Jensen stood to his feet to join you but then fell back down with is face in his hands. You heard small sniffles come from him and realzied that Jeff had broken your husband like David did. Jeff took the one thing you and Jensen were supposed to protect. And, you both failed in your own eyes. You set your hand under Jensen's chin to make him look at you.

"Please," You said in a quiet whisper. "Sit with me and relax. I know people are out looking for out baby girl but we are no good to JJ if we keep crying and are sleep deprived. A few hours in eachothers arms might do us some good babe. So, please, don't call anyone. Don't do anything but take off your shoes and get in this bed with me. I need, no, I want to be in my husband's arms right now." You huff and Jensen didn't wait to slide of his shoes and snuggle in close with you.

Your face was burried into his chest as best as it could be because of your stomach. His heartbeat was fast but soon began to steady. "There you go ... We'll find her, Jay. We have to, we just have to." You lull yourself to sleep with your quiet mumbles and Jensen's slow breathing. Both hoping to have their baby girls in their arms soon.

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