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I was asked to join the car ride to the hospital. It was an intimidating car ride as the sirens sounded making us go at like 100mph so we could get Zach into the hospital.

The paramedics quickly park the truck in the employee parking lot and take him out. They hurry through the double doors, the wheels of the stretcher and my pounding footsteps the only thing I can hear.

"Miss O'Neil', you cannot follow them." The receptionist stops me with a manicured hand. My heart sinks into my chest as the stretcher disappears from view.

"Why?" is all I can choke out, as my mind fills with a succession of horrible outcomes, each worse than the last.

"You must wait in the waiting room like everybody else," she says in educated but clipped tones and gestures to where she was talking about. She watches through perfect mascara as I sit in one of the hard plastic chairs

I couldn't bring myself to stay here in the hospital or even in the world it was too much handle.

I was finally allowed to see Zach in his room he lay there lifeless and I hated every moment of it.
I grabbed his hand and put it to my chest "I'm sorry Zach this is all my fault, I don't blame you if you hate me, if this is the last time i love you, you will always be mine," I carefully put his hand on the side of his body and left just before all the nurses kick me out.

I got home and ran into the bathroom ignoring all the guys shouting my name and locking the door. I grabbed a piece of Paper and a pen and started to write

I'll be nothing more than a feeling memory that invades your mind a passive thought you reminisce back on years from now.

Maybe with sorrow
Hopefully with a smile

Don't worry, I'll still be here- existing forever within the memories and experiences we once shared.

All of which I'm eternally grateful for.
Grateful to you and the rest of the world for letting me experience.

Some moments of pure bliss filled with laughter that echoed throughout the night as time flew from our grasps.

Others of darkness that seemed to go on endlessly, turning mere seconds into an eternity.

It was in those moments that I found life.
A constant reminder that I still existed.

But it's becoming too much for me now.

Those nights full of despair became days, then months, and slowly years.
The same despair that served as a reminder that I was alive now taunts me with life.

It sounds like I'm being ungrateful.

Just a whiny little bitch complaining about something so minute compared to all the other problems of the world.

I guess I am.

I have no right to complain.

I guess I'm just not as strong as you are.
It's said only the strongest, most adaptable survive.

So it's only fitting that you live to carry on this legacy.

I hope one day you forgive me for being such a burden.

For running away from all the mistakes I've made, problems I created- leaving you to take care of them.

It's very selfish of me.

But I know you'll be able to handle it.

You're stronger than I ever was.

Strong enough to shoulder the weight of the world And keep moving forward.

By the time you finish reading this I'll be gone, but you'll still be here.

You'll still have a chance to create the life you want to live.

I know it's asking for a lot but I have a final wish.

I wish you keep living for both of us.

I wish you continue this life and don't succumb to the circumstances of it.

Love and give infinitely.

Experience all there is to.

Chase after your dreams and wishes.

Live a fulfilling life for the both of us.

I love you

After I had finished I grabbed as many pills as I could find and scoffed them down my throat. My throat immediately tightened and I blacked out

This was all my fault and I as now paying for it finally.

3rd person view

Both lovers laid either on the bathroom floor or the the hospital bed. Not living, lifeless. Missing each other more than ever. But the question was. Will they ever return to each other either in heaven or on earth only time will tell.

You could say that their relationship was indeed

Toxic
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A/N: Um so hey guys it's YA GIRL A. I guess this is goodbye. We finished. The book is over. It's been a fun thing to write and honestly it feels so amazing to know that not only did we hit 1k reads in 24 chapters but the amount of support you guys have shown us has been amazing. The fact that you guys even take the time out of your day to read this book actually blows my mind. I love you all so much and I just wanna thank Abby who gave me pointers when I had writers block.(which I had many times whilst writing this book) Also before I go and leave yall I want to thank Grace just for everything ♥️♥️ and yeah I think that's about it. (Mr Stark I don't feel so good. I don't wanna go) this was so cheesy, anyway ily ♥️♥️♥️

Hey guys wow a lot happened in this chapter and let me tell you it's my fave and the saddest it's absolutely crazy the amount of love we have gotten and it's crazy we love you guysss so muchh it means more than you guys know.. I want to thank Abi for being an amazing human I love her so much it's mad and also ABBY your amazing and no one compares to you. ~G 💗