That's not how I planned it

And what now

What other options do I have? Should I just ignore him? I tried that in the past, didn't worked for shit. But maybe it's different now. Now I already shut these fucking feelings out, so ignoring should do the trick. Bakugou was sure it will work.

He was debating some more with himself, while Kirishima was rambling on about one thing or another Bakugou wasn't interested in.

"... Midoriya was awesome, too. I mean the throw wasn't his full power. The way he clobbered that robot at the entrance exam was something different. For someone looking so weak, he is actually really manly", Kirishima nodded to himself. Dekus name got Bakugous attention back to Kirishima, who apparently hasn't noticed that Bakugou wasn't listening at all. Considering that they were walking for more than ten minutes already, that in itself was quite the feed.

"You seemed to be surprised by Midoriyas quirk yesterday, don't you know him from your old school?", Kirishima asked. Of course was Bakugou surprised how could he not?

"Ah, yes", Bakugou answered reluctant. He was thinking about Deku enough on his own, no need for others to butt in.

"So, what do you think of him?", there was no hidden meaning behind this question and Kirishima didn't seemed that interested just simple curiosity for Midoriyas odd quirk. If Bakugou would has had enough sleep yesterday and if he would not has been thinking about Midoriya and his unwanted affection toward the boy, his answer would has probably been a simple 'I don't care' or 'Whatever', but since that was not the case his answer was a bit less calm.

"What? What do you mean? I think nothing of him, this fucking nerd. Go die!", with that Bakugou stomped of not admitting that his face got slightly red. Kirishima was surprised by this outburst but was following him anyway.

"No need to get so worked up about him, you make it sound like you are in love with him", Kirishima laughed. But Bakugou was not in the mood to laugh. Again, if he would has been in a rational mindset he would has realized that Kirishima was way to dense to actually notice Bakugous hidden feelings. But as before, he was not rational at all.

"Shut the fuck up, hair for brain. Not everyone need to know that", the moment Bakugou said these words, he noticed his mistake. Not only did he admit his own feelings to himself but to another person as well. And that after all the time he managed to ignored it.

No, no, no, no. I'm not in love with Deku, that is just wrong. I can't be. Fuck. Doesn't matter what circumstances, Bakugou doesn't want to be in love with his childhood friend. And the fact that these feelings were never vanishing for quite some years now, was not important either.

"Oh, I meant it as a joke, but that's cool, too. You both are hella strong you probably fit well together", Kirishima said with his ever present smile. Bakugou on the other hand was baffled. He didn't expected such a positive reaction. Even going as far as saying that they are a good match. That wasn't what was supposed to happen should he ever come out.

"Don't tell anyone or I kill you.. It's just some stupid fucking crush that will go away soon", Bakugou said in a surprisingly quiet voice. He wanted to believe that, too.

Yeah, I will make it vanish. Just because one fucking person reacted well, the rest will not, especially Deku. So my ignoring plan still stands. Bakugou had no intention of changing his lifelong conviction just because one person acted out of the norm.

He's fucking dense, he probably doesn't understand what he's saying anyway. Bakugou convinced himself.

"Ah sure. But you should just confess, that would be the manly approach", Kirishima made a fist in the air while saying that and made a serious face.