That's not how I planned it

I know what you want

Ahh, fuck. When is this fucking break over? Bakugous mind was jumping back and forth between his thoughts of Midoriya and him alone and his inner debate what he actually wants from the boy. He clearly put his mother at fault for this.

"I could have helped, you know", Uraraka just couldn't drop the topic, could she?

"Ah, yes, I mean no, I mean Kacchan and I we, ähm, it was good with just the two of us", Deku was tripping over his own words. Midoriya got a bit red and Bakugou tried to ignore what he said and how Deku looked. To no avail of course. Trying not to let it seen out the outside he just looked bored as before but he was afraid they will be able to hear his heart.

Don't say such things, with such a fucking face. His mind wasted no time connecting the words 'just the two of us' with his lately reoccurring images of Deku and him making out in Bakugous room.

Bakugou was so glad when the lunch break was finally over. He was getting to his limit of what he could endure.
After school Bakugou didn't waited for Midoriya and went home on his own. That was okay, they hadn't made any plans to wait for each other or something.

Bakugou didn't felt like going home. His mother was most likely there by now and he didn't wanted to hear any more 'advises' from her. He was packed enough as it was.
After strolling around a bit he found himself at a small empty park. It was quite secluded and that offered him a piece of mind.

He sat down on a bench and sighed. It was nice with not a soul close by. It felt really relaxing. With nothing else around and now that some time passed since the talk with his mother Bakugou found this to be as good enough of a moment as he will ever get to think about everything.

Let's see the facts, he started in his mind and picked up a stone lying to his feed, I'm in love with Deku. And I'm alright with that. Thanks to the fucking amphibian. I showed never interest in anyone else, especially in girls. So I'm gay, and I'm okay with that, too. As before, this was the easier fact to grasp than anything else.

And lately I have these fucking images in my head. His mindset got angrier and he exploded the stone in his hand. He let the broken pieces fall down and picked up another stone. After a big exhale he got back to his inner monologue.

I like being near him and the images aren't that bad either, they do feel nice. I just don't want them. The second stone exploded and the third stone got picked up.

Would I like to kiss Midoriya? Yes, I would fucking love to. And the next explosion occurred. He picked up the next stone when he saw someone standing in front of him.

"You know, there might not live many people around here, but there are some and you exploding stones is quite annoying", Asui said.

Bakugou was now sure, he had the worst luck a person can have. He went to some park in a region of the city he never visited before and who was living close to that park, of course one of the few people he really didn't wanted to see right now. To be fair, Bakugou didn't wanted to see anyone right now, but Asui was on the top of the list.

"What the fuck do you want, froggy", Bakugou asked annoyed exploding the stone he just picked up on purpose. She sat next to him on the bench and looked at the burned rock pieces to Bakugous feed.

"Shouldn't I ask you that. You obviously have something on your mind, or do you often explode rocks with no reason?", she asked and Bakugou was sure she already knew everything but for the sake of him, wanted him to say it first. Well, he wasn't going to indulge her.

"Yeah, I fucking love to burn the non existing life out of these little fuckers", he said sarcastically and picked up the next stone.

"My little siblings have to go to bed soon, I would appreciate it if you would stop your pity rampage", she was apparently really annoyed at his rock exploding, even though her face has shown nothing of the sort. Bakugou wasn't an asshole just for the sake of it, so he threw the stone away.

"Thank you", she said. Both of them were silent afterwards and Bakugou thought about just going away, but knew that Asui would probably stop him. Bakugou got impatient and started to tap with his feed on the ground. After some more time, Asui looked at him.

"If you don't wanna say anything, I will", she started and Bakugou thought it would come sooner or later, "first of all, I'm happy to see how close you and Midoriya have become. It feels better than fighting it, doesn't it?", she asked and she was right. In hindsight all those years he spent with going against his feelings were really difficult and a bigger burden than he thought at the time. Nonetheless what he experienced now wasn't easy either.

"Hm", Bakugou agreed with a slight nod. He still didn't liked the fact that it was Asui, or anyone for that matter, who brought him this conclusion. He was grateful, but he didn't liked it.

"It seems you thought you were alright with this much", she continued sounding a lot like the first time she confronted him with his feelings.

Since when can frogs read fucking minds? I knew why I didn't fucking wanted to talk with this shitrag. The only thing that let Bakugou keep sitting were he was, was the fact that he really needed an answer to his own question.

"but apparently you can't handle it", she looked directly into his eyes. Bakugou felt anger rising up in him, saying that he couldn't handle it. He wanted to say something against that, but then he remembered all the time he was so close to running out of the room to get away from everything. At the trial on infiltration when Midoriya clung to his body, at his home when his mother nurtured the thought of them kissing and today at the lunch break when he couldn't stop thinking about his mothers words.
So Bakugou didn't said anything, because he couldn't handle it. He averted his eyes. That was answer enough for her and Bakugou knew that.

"You know, back than I said you should 'act on your feelings'", she quoted herself, "I didn't meant to just accept them".

"And what the hell do you think I should fucking do? Just go to him tomorrow and confess? Yeah, that will fucking work awesomely", Bakugou yelled a bit frustrated. He really wanted to explode a stone right now.

How can fuckface even suggest such shit. He started to doubt Asuis words.

"I didn't said that. I think it would be the best when you confess to him in the long run, but for now it would be already good if you could accept that you want to confess one day", Asui explained calmly and Bakugou couldn't quite handle her. She had him figured out and knew what kind of advice he wanted to hear without knowing it himself. She was even better at it than his own mother.

"I never said I want to confess", but Bakugou wasn't convinced so easily, he had his plans and way to many of them got crushed before he even really noticed it. Therefore he had to be firm with this one.

"True, and maybe you really don't want to, but that didn't changes the fact that you want have Midoriya. You want him close, you want to be able to touch him, kiss him, and I don't know what else you think about", she hold against him.

That little bitch is twisting everything around. His mind was already starting to accept everything she said, and if only because she was right before as well.

I do want to kiss Midoriya, and I do want Midoriya to kiss me. I really, really want to. Fuck this shit. Bakugous conviction was crumbling once again. He debated quite some time and Asui let him think about it. After some grunting, tongue clicking and one more exploded stone, at which Asui looked at him, but didn't said anything, he finally answered.

"Yes, I fucking want all that", he admitted at last. He looked at the ground begrudgingly and kind of defeated. Asui stood up.

"Than act like you want it. You don't have to confess immediately but don't run away from it either. Embrace it and than there is always the chance that you will bring Midoriya to fall in love with you as well", she looked at him, "Well, I've got to go. See you tomorrow". Bakugou nodded at her, said a simple bye and Asui left the park.

Bakugou was stuck on her words.

Deku loving me back. That sounded awesome.