Broken ?

?A Hidden Panic Attack?

I love watching the wind take the trees on a roller coaster, they swing back and forth and it's an adventure, always going in a different direction.

If you look close enough, you can see everything that the world has to offer, the things that go unnoticed on daily basis and most of us ignore.

Claim that we've seen it before, but can you really see everything once and claim that you've seen everything it has to offer?

A waterfall may look the same, but each time, you blink there is always different water running down, water you're seeing for the first time.

That's why the world can become beautiful, without humans. Everything is the same, yet if only you look closer you see it's not as exactly the same as you saw the first time.

I'm so focused on watching through the window that I almost don't notice how the doors of the guest room opens and close.

"You trying to get away from Zelena?"

Damien is behind me, his voice doesn't scare me. Without even looking at him, I nod my head, knowing that he will see it either way.

He chuckles at my answer. Walking to me, he wraps his arms around me and pulls me into his arms. They're so warm and comfortable, it's hard to not snuggle closer to his chest.

"Yeah, she can become tiring at times, especially when aunt Sammy is here. The two of them argue like mother and daughter, it's been like this since we were children"

He couldn't have said it better and now when I think of it. The two of them are seriously stubborn and will not give in, making them the perfect arguing people, like a daughter arguing with her mother.

"Tonight, you will be the princess and everyone will treat you with respect which is all you deserve and more. When the celebration is over, we will go to our room and a lot of things will happen"

I can't exactly know what was going on in his voice, but in the middle of his sentence, it turned dark and scary. Like the time that he bit me. His voice alone sends shivers down my spine, it has so much effect on me without him ever knowing it.

I would ask him what will happen after the ball, but I don't have my book with me or anything that I can write on.

Just have to find out the old fashion way, don't I? Waiting for the time to come and experience it myself without knowing anything.

"As much as I want to stay here with you, I had duties to attend and you have a dress fitting or whatever girls do"

Damien doesn't know much about girls and if I'm being honest, I don't either. Growing up, I didn't have every dress or any clothing that I wanted.

I didn't have nails that are longer than normal, I didn't have make-up. This is all new to me and I'm not even sure if I do like it.

The make-up that is put on me is so beautiful and it makes me feel better about myself, yet it's just another mask to cover up my broken face.

To let everyone see that I'm not about to break down in tears and it makes me feel like I'm trapped in a cage with no way out.

I don't know of this is normal, like I said. I didn't grow up with it and therefore, I know so little about it.

Sure, I saw everyone wear these types of clothes and have nails like that and make-up that goes over every flaw, but I never paid much attention to it or wanted to learned anything about it.