Apocalyptic (Number Five x Reader)

I Heard a Rumor

"Five, I-I like you too.", you whisper out so quietly no one heard, or so you thought.

"Huh, what was that (Y/N)?", Klaus says to you, putting his hand by his ear.

"I said, I do like him back, okay?"

You storm out of the room from anger of having to express your feelings when you didn't want to.

"(Y/N), wait!", Five says running after you.

You rush up the stairs to your room, you lay in your bed. You start to cry silently as you think that maybe he was doing it just so the game would be more entertaining. But when you said you liked him, that wasn't a joke.

*Knock knock knock*

"Go away.", you say and your voice cracks a little.

*swoosh* (Spacial jump)

"No, tell me what's wrong first.", Five says as he walk over to you.

"Do you actually like me?"

"What? Of course I do."

"But why do you like me?", you say, your self-doubt taking control.

"I like you because, you saw how much pain we were in while watching the show in your dimension, and you wanted to help us. You're really smart also. Dare I say, maybe a little bit smarter than me?", Five tells you with a little chuckle, putting his hand on your blanket covered shoulder.

You roll over so your back is facing him. Your self-doubt is talking to you, and it isn't good.

⚠️ Trigger warning: Self-doubting thoughts, suicidal thoughts, and self-harm. Please read at your own risk. ⚠️

You know he's probably lying.

He doesn't think you're smarter than him.

You're so ugly.

How can he even stand to look at you?

You're pathetic, liking a tv character.

Ha, I bet it's because you can't find anyone in real life that loves you.

You rush to the bathroom and lock yourself in. Tears streaming down your face as you look for the little piece of silver metal.

Do it, just end it, now.

Come on, it's easy, just one swipe across that pretty little throat of yours and all the pain will be gone.

You finally find the razor blade. You bring it to your right wrist, heart beating quickly.

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You count in your head as you swipe it across your skin. You've never done it before, as you knew you'd get caught from your mom.

The pain felt comforting to you. Like, the blood dripping was the sadness and anger just flowing away. You look at your left wrist.

Might as well make them match.

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You count again, the pain doubles. But you don't care. You rinse off the blood on you the best you can before pressing the razor against your neck.

Come on, do it, stop being a pussy, just DO IT NOW!

*BANG BANG BANG*

You jump from the bang from outside the door.

"(Y/N), are you okay?", you hear Five's voice say, it's filled with worry.

Ha, why does he worry and care for you?

You don't even do that for yourself!

"(Y/N) answer me before I come in.", he's yelling now.

You stay there silent, trying to move quietly to the shower and hide behind the curtain.

"Okay, I'm coming in."

*swoosh*

The curtain is semi-transparent so you can see the outline of him. He looks at the blood stained sink and razor blade, he knows what you've done.

You see the outline of him slowly coming closer and closer to the curtain before he opens it in one swift movement. He has tears down his eyes and cheeks.

"Why?", he asks you.

You were silent, you couldn't speak. All you could do was cry while running back toward your room. You hid under the bed. A spot that you felt safe at.

Soon he comes swooshing in again. He looks around before he knows where you are.

"Come out from under the bed, I'm not mad at you. I just want to talk, please.", his voice filled with worry and sadness.

You crawl out, careful to not hurt yourself even more. You go up to him and hug him, crying into his shoulder.

"I'm sorry, I'm so stupid, I'm sorry. I'm-"

"Shh, it's okay. You're safe now.", he says as he hugs you back, some tears spilling out still.

You stay there for a good 3 minutes before letting go of each other.

You stare at the ground, wondering why you did it.

⚠️Trigger is over for now, but be cautious please⚠️

"Hey, lets go and get your cuts cleaned up.", he says holding out his hand for you to hold while you walk.

You follow him until you find mom, doing some chores.

"Mom, (Y/N) here needs some medical attention really quick.", he says squeezing your hand gently as to tell you it will be okay.

You follow mom to the kitchen table. She grabs out a first aid kit.

"Alright, where's the wound?", she asks you in a soft voice.

You lay down both of your arms on the table in front of her. She open the kit and gets some disinfectant to clean it.

"This will sting a bit.", she says warning you before putting it on a cloth and wiping your wrists.

You hiss a bit, and Five puts his hand on your shoulder. That simple action made the pain go away a bit.

Mom got out the wrap and began carefully and skillfully wrapping it along your cuts.

"There, all done. Don't do it again though, you don't deserve it.", she says to you with a apologetic smile.

"Okay, t-thank you.", you say stuttering a bit.

"I think I'm gonna go to bed now", Five says yawning, you didn't even realize how late it was until you looked at the clock and felt sleepy.

You went to your room and Five went to his. You did your nightly routine and went to bed.

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Hey guys, sorry for not updating, I've been having a bit of trouble with getting the creative juices flowing, but, I finally got this chapter out, I hope you enjoyed it, sorry for the triggering stuff...
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