When Two Worlds Collide

Chapter 2

Locking himself up in his room had given him time to think, probably too much time to think when it came to the grand scheme of things. And with his own insomnia acting up frequently in the past little bit he has even more time to think. Being alone with his thoughts was always something that he found always dangerous for him. Keith wasn't a one who was very open with his emotions, and good at communicating his feelings to others around him. That was why he blows up a lot of the time, because he can't communicate what he wants and then gets frustrated with himself and the situation that he had been put in. So to put it bluntly, emotional stuff isn't Keith strong suit and can be classified as something more of a weakness, and that makes it hard for him to deal with it. As he thinks about this Keith takes off his gloves and runs his fingers along the scars that cover his wrists. He just stared as them for a while and then it suddenly dawned on him that he hadn't felt this low in a while now. The last time that he felt like this was 3 years ago when he had just came out to Shiro and Adam at the Garrison. Yes, he knew that coming out to two men who he already knew weren't strait and were in a relationship with each other wasn't really something to worry about. But Keith still did because he was still scared to death of their reaction to him. He can still remember being so nervous that he had thrown up on Adam after he had come out. Shiro thought it was hilarious, Adam not so much. During this trip down memory lane, the itch that was underneath Keith's skin was burning to be scratched at. Keith tried to rein in his self-control, but the urge to do something about that was to strong to resist anymore. And to make his struggle even worse he could hear Shiro's voice in the back of his head telling him not to do it. Telling him that he's stronger than the desire, that he got through it once and he can do it again. And that he promised him that he wouldn't do it ever again once they got him clean. And Keith cried to himself as he took his knife out of its holster and sild it across his wrist while he broke his promise that he had made to his brother.

It was a couple of hours later when it happened. After Keith had cleaned up all of the blood on his skin and blade and out both his gloves and jacket back on and layed down on his bed and just stared at his bedroom ceiling. A million thoughts were all running through his head, and they were all going so fast that they were making him dizzy. One of the biggest things that he was feeling was the guilt at what he had just done. He had been clean for 3 years now, with some help from both Shiro and Adam. And in a matter of no more than 10 minutes he had thrown all of that away and broke the promise that he had made to his brother that he wouldn't do it again. Even when Shiro had went missing for a whole year for the first time Keith had kept his promise. He didn't falter, he didn't crack under the pressure, and he kept his word. Maybe the reason that he didn't break was because he always knew that Shiro was out there somewhere and he would come back to him. This time though Keith doesn't have that feeling anymore. Now he's just hoping that they can find any remnant of Shiro that they could, and regardless of what had happened to him they get his body back. At least then he could get some closure and bury, the last of what family that he has left in the world. It's then that Keith decided to move on to thinking about other things.

Keith was so lost in his thoughts that he didn't even notice that there was somebody outside his door until he heard a loud 'Bang!' It was so loud that it startled him out of his thoughts, he jumped up and grabbed his Marmora blade, ready to attack whoever it was at the door. Though he stilled his actions of walking to the door when he heard a voice on the other side. He was halfway to the door when Lance spoke to him. "Keith? You in there man? It's me Lance." He felt conflicted about what he was supposed to do at that moment. Keith knew that he had two options to choose from at the moment about how he can handle the situation. The first one was that he could always go and open the door, confront Lance and face his problems head on, thus getting rid of most of them. Or, the second option was that he could pretend that he wasn't here and just ignore Lance until he went away. The big shocker to everyone here is that Keith had chosen the second option. Well, at least that's what he tried to do. When Keith tried to move back to his bed, he got hit with a sudden dizzy spell that sent him toppling to the floor with a loud thud. He winced to himself on impact and hoped that Lance hadn't heard it. Though all of his hopes that he hadn't heard where dashed when he heard the lock on his door be overridden and opened. And there at the doorway stood Lance.