Comfy Closets

17|| Secrets and Dates

She didn’t say anything for a minute, just looked at me evenly with an unreadable expression on her face. Finally, she decided to say one single word. “Why?”

Letting out a breath, I ran a hand through my brunette hair, trying to give myself time to gather my thoughts. “I’m not out,” I said, starting with that statement. “I haven’t come out because I’m not ready to. Something happened before, and I don’t want it to happen again. Not yet, I’m not ready for that,” I confessed. I knew that I was being vague about why, and this might just sound like a load of nonsense to her, but I didn’t think I was ready for that either.

“I should’ve told you earlier, I know, and that’s my fault. But can we keep our relationship a secret for now? I really want to be with you, but I’m not ready to be out. Not to the whole school.”

I waited anxiously for her reply as she deliberated for a moment. She went to sit on the teacher's desk, putting her hands next to her as one of them went to tap out a beat that was unfamiliar to my ears. “I know that what you’ve told me isn’t necessarily complete.” She looked to me then, a softness now present in her gaze. “But you don’t have to tell me all of it now. Maybe someday, when you’re ready, and only then.”

She stood up, leaving her tapping beat behind. Walking up to me, she held one of my hands and laced them together with hers, using her other to brush a fallen strand of hair behind my ear. I felt myself relax with the touch of her soft skin against mine. “If you’re not comfortable with being out as a couple, I understand. I like you, Lyssa, and we don’t have to be out with this until you feel you’re ready. Now, until then, I guess we just have to be a little bit more subtle in public. Yeah?” she whispered suggestively.

She took a step closer, almost closing the gap left between us. Releasing my hand, she wrapped her arms around my waist, a sultry look now taking over her features. “But for now... No one is watching, and so let me kiss my girlfriend.”

With that, her lips pressed to mines, finally satiated from it’s wait. We let out sighs of content, the kiss slowly deepening as hands went about to explore. I went to grab at her hair to help guide our movements, whilst hers roamed the contours of my back sensually, grasping it with need. Feeling her tongue slightly probe my bottom lip, I instantly let her through and moaned softly at the contact. Our kisses turned feverish as our tongues battled for dominance. I eventually let her win, succumbing to her insistent tongue and melting in her arms.

When I felt my legs starting to go unsteady, we stopped then to catch our breaths. Leah leaned her forehead against mine, our pants almost in unison as we stared at each other, wide satisfied grins present on our faces. “That was worth the wait, wasn’t it?” I teased.

“F*ck yeah.”

Laughing at that, I felt relief flood through me at the knowledge that she was alright with keeping this relationship a secret. She took a glance behind me at the clock. “We have to go. It’s almost time for class, and people will be coming in soon,” she informed me, a little regretfully at that.

I pouted, not wanting this to end just yet. “Just a little longer. Please?”

There was a fight going on in her eyes, internally debating whether that was a good idea or not. She finally sighed, shaking her head as she stroked my bottom lip with her thumb wistfully. “We can't.” I pouted even more until she continued. “But, we can go somewhere after school, maybe like a first date, but as an actual couple now,” she suggested, excitement lighting up her gorgeous hazel eyes. I just realised they looked more honey brown than green today, emanating such a warmness from them.

“I have work after school, but we can go after?” I proposed.

“Okay! That sounds good. I’ll meet you at the coffee shop,” she said, nodding her head in agreement.