Hiraeth (Ink x Error)

"I'm sorry..."

He looks crazy and insane. I wonder what his story is. Maybe he's like me and doesn't have an AU to go to. Dream had one, it was destroyed though. I never had one, but I think Dream's situation is much worse because he knew what it was like to have an AU. But I don't know what to miss. I've never had that experience. Maybe Error is like that too?

December 2

I don't know what to do with myself anymore sometimes. Every timeline I find and see makes me realize how alone I am. And how little everyone really is.

Take an Underfell timeline and make it disappear. Did anything happen? No, because the rest of the world goes on as if they didn't even exist in the first place. Fighting Error really made me think, what exactly am I fighting for? Was it even worth the effort? No, I refuse to think like that. They are all special, and should be protected, right?

There's not really many that are outcodes. Even less understand the Multiverse as I do. And no one has no soul.

When I asked him...he gave no response. It's almost like he didn't want that in a sort of way. That somehow he wasn't okay with the fact I thought like him for a bit. But he would rather see my downfall more than anything else besides the AUs being erased.

He got angry at me and tried to grab my soul. Of course, that didn't work and that was the first time anyone besides Dream knew I didn't have a soul. He was kind of shocked at first, then laughed saying just how broken I was, how when the creators portray his as the broken one that I was far from broken. I was just something else.

Maybe he's right about more things than I thought.

April 15

Okay, so it's technically my birthday and I got flooded with love from creators and I love them so much and I accidentally started crying and that was the first time I actually got shy.

It's crazy how it's been a year after my creation. Do I actually have an age? Woah, wait a minute. Okay, hah hah, let's not go down that path of confusion, yeah.

Error seemed to just tell me to go away when I came across him in the Anti-Void. I don't know how he sits there all the time. He seemed to be fine with me near him, but he won't let me touch him. He asked me why I wanted to be here on my birthday and stuff, and I said I liked being here with a friend. He said this, "Well, happy birthday you freak. I don't know why you like hanging around me but I don't care, I'd rather leave if I were you." And then he crashed because I...accidentally hugged him. I forgot it was him. I was just so happy he actually wish me a happy birthday.

Then he chased me out of the Anti-Void, whoops.

Note: he likes chocolate, surprisingly

July 8

Error caught me today(overly egotistical about it if you ask me), but instead of killing me like he says he always wants to, he let me go. He just then bragged about how he totally could've killed me. I think...maybe Error is nice once you get to know him. He might be slightly chaotic, but what the hell, I am too. The creators call me "Chaotic Neutral" anyways...whatever that means.

He showed me Outertale today, it was his favorite "anomaly". He said that maybe he could "appreciate the Multiverse in rare cases too," I was glad for that. We haven't been fighting much recently. Only a few scattered battles here and there, but maybe we can be friends. Apart from his dumb obsession with calling me short and other variations of that dumb name, I can deal with him. It's not like he's annoying or anything, just annoying when he's destroying. That rhymed.

The same day, I found today something I could summon. It's a button. Reboot. The creators told me that in an emergency I can use that to restart the whole Multiverse. But of course, it comes with a cost. That button kills me since I'm part of the Multiverse.

Now it makes me wonder what part of the Multiverse am I? Am I a weapon, a shield, an emergency button? Am I a person or a tool? I mean, the Multiverse saved me so I guess this is me repaying the debt back. But nothing could happen that bad, right? Right.

Pages were torn out after that page, the writing continued after some pages and a random drawing of Outertale.

I'm going to be dead in the next hours. The Multiverse is dying and I've failed to protect it. I tore out the pages because everything after that was just...too much. If anyone read it then I don't think they would see me the way they see me again. I'm scared. I don't want to stop existing. I was wrong and I should've just been happy with existing instead of wishing I had a soul. But then again, I would never actually gain one by wishing.

But it still bugs me. I would never get to know what it's like to actually live. Be a person and feel my own feelings. I wonder what it's like. All these things about me make me feel insane. I can't stand it anymore sometimes and I just—Error couldn't read the scribbled out part.

To whoever sees this, I'm sorry. Part of me thinks this is better. Because some things I've done are better left unsaid. But leaving everyone, especially Error, I don't know what's going to happen to him. So if he's still alive, can you also tell him that I love him for me? I need someone to tell him since I won't be there. He gets lonely, ha.

So tell him that for me, please.

And I'm sorry I didn't get to exist with you.

Error found by the end of that he was sitting on the light wood floors, still in awe of the pages. He was thankful he had something more of Ink. Something that he could go to. He didn't even read it all, he only skimmed through.

He let the book and his hands fall to his lap as he chuckled weakly. He didn't feel good or bad, he just felt. It was something sad since tears went down his face, but some of those tears felt happy.

I'm glad you existed.

I'm glad we could exist.