Alpha Without a Pack...

Chapter 98

Why was I so mad? KICK Why did it feel like something was missing that I needed to remember? KICK Why couldn't I just remember?! PUNCH I snarled in frustration as I grabbed a nearby chair and smashed it against the bag, it broke off jaggedly leaving me a sharp piece of wood. I briefly imagined using it to rip two female heads from their bodies as I whacked it against the bag fully force. I could feel my adrenaline surging as I panted at the exersion of my anger and fury, suddenly a wave of dizziness had me sinking to my knees on the floor mat. My vision went blurry for a second and I shut my eyes tight to try calming down but the moment I was shrouded in my own darkness I couldn't help but gasp at the sight behind my eyes. In an instant that felt like eternity my eyes flew open, everything suddenly clear as I raced back upstairs and back onto the porch where Mads sat angrily watching. 

The door slammed behind me in my rush and all eyes flew to me in worry me. I was afraid but I was done letting that control me anymore I took a purposeful leap off the porch and FINALLY let my shift ripple over me as my four familiar paws landed on the dirt. I stared at the group of males who were shouting and scolding me with their worries and I felt the feelings surge forward, this time I let them flood me. I sent a glance to the three rescued females and all the Alvalrado's they were quick to silence themselves. "Leave, take the pups and leave. I need a moment alone with MY boys." My link to them was firm and the followed it quickly for their own safety. 

Once I was sure the others were out of sight and we'd been left alone I let my shift ripple back over me as I stood naked in front of the twelve males I knew I couldn't live without. "Sidney you could have just set back your recovery time by months!" Simon wailed out desperately but I kept my gaze focused on my alpha boy, Bowen still reeked of Rose and tgat would not be tolerated. "Sidney, what are you doing?" Bowen's tone was strained as I took a deliberate step towards where he stood at the front of the pack. "It was an ax." The words were a whisper on the wind but I knew they heard every single one. "What?" Bowen had a look of confusion that suddenly slipped into understanding as he tensed. I sent a quick glance over the others who were in a similar boat, some of whom gasped at the realization.

 "I killed Ian West with the very ax he planned to use against me, chopped his head clean off." I let it sink in as I scanned their worried and hopeful expressions. "You remember the fight." Colton whispered softly as if afraid he'd be wrong, I smiled gently towards him. "Mostly what I remember is the pain, I remember killing him and being announced the winner. I remember walking onto the stage with all of you and the Five with their threats. I remember leading you to the locker rooms and letting Simon look me over for a few minutes." I smile to him as I say his name, only to have my attention drawn back to a frozen Bowen's sudden and sharp inhale, he was shaking. 

"Just for the record Bowen Shaw if you ever try to trade your life for mine again, I will kill you myself." I snarl the warning as I take a step up to him, I'm inches away when he gasps at the smirk on my lips. "I have to say B.S, for being so full of what your initials entail, you're definitely a good kisser." I smile and no sooner have the words have left my lips than he is crashing his lips to mine in a desperate kiss. I kiss him back for a few seconds before pulling away from the intensity of emotions the kiss held, I step back to scan all of them as whole. "That's not all, I remember the hospital too, not everything but the most important part. I was dying when my wolf surged forward, she knew we might not get to say goodbye so she wanted you to know everything. How could I forget something that I told all of you to remember?" I whisper sadly.

 "It's not your fault you lost the memories in surgery!" Beck barked out. "You don't have to say anything for our benefit Sid, your wolf isn't you." Gavin grunted out softly. "Who said it was just for you guys? I'll admit I've been terrified of my feelings and your offered relationship since you first revealed it to me by accident. I was afraid it wouldn't work, I still am, I guess it took a bunch of murderous jealousy and a big adrenaline rush to get me to remember and realize that I'm tired of being afraid of the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. So yeah I remember and I'm terrified of all the details, but without a single doubt, I know that I love every single one of you." I let the truth and the intensity of my feelings flow towards them, in an instant I was pulled into a giant group hug.

 "Gosh Sid, we love you so freaking much, and I'm so glad you FINALLY remembered!" Fletcher cheered out as happy tears rolled down his cheeks. "Also what did you mean by murderous jealousy?" Daniel quizzed lightly. "Simple I'm still feeling quite a bit like killing Rose for rubbing her nasty scent all over Bowen." I growled lowly, and it was then that the fools seemed to remember I wasn't wearing any clothes. "Alright guys we better back off unless you want one of us to pop your cherry Gorgeous." Micah smirked a wink my way as they stepped back, most blushing at my snort. "Who said you'd be my first?" I raised. 

"Pregancy by artificial doesn't count." Jason muttered, red as the redest tomato. "I know, I'm saying if there's a virgin amongst us, it certainly isn't me." I stated, they seemed to be forgetting I had horny wolf needs too. "So nobody has to worry about stealing your purity?" Micah asked a little too eagerly. "Slow your role there Carrots, just because I'm not a stranger to it doesn't mean I'm letting any of you anywhere near my lower half anytime soon, a lot needs to happen beforehand. You have to prove to me this relationship will work, then we can take that step." I stated firmly as I turned towards the forest calling me, it was time for a long awaited run.

*So I think I've been closer to the end than I realized, with this update I think there's two or three more chapters left before this story ends. The next one will be in the point of view of all the boys and how they feel, enjoy.*