Lapidot (SIN) Dump

HOUSEMATES (part 8)

She went back to her chair and sat again. I closed my eyes, re-hearing every word she'd said in my mind. She was right – trust was the only true issue there was. I didn't know about flying, but I knew about falling off cliffs well enough. Nothing, no one, had ever made me feel the way I'd felt the past couple of days. Rightly or wrongly, I trusted that, because it wasn't just physical; in fact, the physical part was small and so far very limited. It felt "right" in a way that nothing had ever felt right before. Right in my body and in my mind.

I opened my eyes again and pushed the plate of half-eaten breakfast away a bit. My body stiffened and then relaxed as a calm certainty swept through me like a wave, then settled, nestled, in the center of me.

I got up from my chair and walked the couple of steps to her. I felt as though I were gliding. I stopped by her right side and sunk down to my knees. My voice was a whisper, but it was a strong, certain, whisper. Part of me was shocked that that voice could come out of me – so quiet, but so powerful.

"I don't need the rest of the week, Miss."

A bright smile crossed her face. She reached out and very gently lifted my chin a bit with her fingertips. Her eyes were sparkling, shining, in a way I hadn't ever seen before.

"You are sure, Peri? This is what you want? You must be very sure, because this decision is in a way the very last important decision you may make. To be mine is to be mine, totally. You must know what you are giving up, without knowing what you are gaining, up front. If you are sure, and we take this leap, this aspect of things never gets discussed again."

I suppose I should have been scared, listening to her, or had a million questions, or doubts, or second thoughts. But I didn't. My eyes held to hers, and my mind was clear. The words simply flowed past my lips. I knew what I was saying, and why, and knew that I wanted to say what I was saying, and that I meant it.

"I am sure, Miss."

She smiled again, and I think I fell in love with her, if I wasn't already, at that moment. Something in her smile, her whole being, was so perfect, so total. I wanted to fall to her, to fall into her. I loved her. I wanted to be hers. I didn't know how, or why, but I needed to be hers, too.

She leaned forward and kissed me softly, whispering "mmmmmmmm . . . I am so happy, my pet.I can't express how happy, in words, really. I am so glad you've made this choice."

I tingled from her kiss, and softly moaned. "Thank you, Miss."

She smiled contentedly a moment, then pulled back from the table. "Peri, I need some time to myself today to get certain things in order. So, I want you to enjoy the day while I'm busy. Go and change into something comfortable and get ready to go out."

I stood up, a little surprised. "Yes, Miss," I said and went into my bedroom, stripped, and headed for the shower, mind racing and heart fluttering from what had just transpired.

I showered and dressed and put on a little makeup. Lapis was still sitting at the table, reaching into her purse as I returned.

She handed me five $100 bills. "I want you to go and have a good time today,Peri. Treat yourself to a fancy lunch; spend the money however you want on whatever you want. Blow the whole $500 on fancy chocolates, I don't care. Just do exactly what you want and make sure you don't come home before 8:00 tonight, but be sure to come home before midnight."

She hugged me tight then urged me towards the door. A little in shock I stumbled along, grabbed my purse and keys, stuffed the $500 in my purse, and headed out.