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"oh- no worries..." his voice sounding faded while he tried to regain his consciousness. he didn't know why but just by watching the other run in such desperation, caused him to lift a smile as he couldn't hold it any longer.

even though he had no idea what the meaning was behind all of this, he couldn't help but think that there was something about it that was making him feel something he had never felt before. 

changbin found himself running again, just what does all of this mean? he didn't quite understand what it was that was making him feel this way, all that was running through his mind was the thought of being able to face the younger again.

running through 2 flight of stairs, he finally landed himself outside the art room felix had told him and stood silently by the doorway as he waited. that was when the sudden feeling of nervousness entered his body once again making his mind completely blank.

how was he gonna face the younger once again? how was he gonna approach the topic without causing any mistakes? what was he gonna say to make the other finally open his heart up? but most importantly, how was he gonna help him?

all those confusing thoughts remained in his mind throughout the whole entire time he was there standing patiently, waiting for the brown haired male to eventually leave the room when he heard the door open, revealing a calm jisung.

the moment he stepped out of the art room, changbin immediately cleared his throat alarming the other. "jisung." he managed to call the younger's name causing the said male to finally turn around to face the older, his face completely taken aback at the sight of suddenly seeing him there outside the art room.

"c-changbin hyung? w-what are you doing here...?" the younger replied, still entirely baffled and lost of being able to see the other in front of him at this very moment. mixed feelings were starting to build up inside him as he continued to stare surprisingly into the others eyes to which changbin just smiled, it wasn't the usual but something he never thought he would see.

"hey uhh, can we perhaps talk for a bit?" 

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as jisung followed changbin to an unknown place, a random thought ran in his mind making him suddenly anxious. 'what did he want to talk to me about...? i hope it's nothing bad...' he thought, biting his lips nervously as a result.

the two boys quickly stopped by a vending machine, watching as changbin immediately inserted a coin in before looking at the younger beside him with a smile. "do you want a drink?" he softly asked, gentle eyes looking into his.

jisung awkwardly flinched, looking back from changbin's eyes to the vending machine as he could feel the anxiety taking over him. "u-uh, c-could i get coffee?" he swiftly answered, unable to control the feeling that was causing him to act like this.

he was unexpectedly stuttering more than usual but nonetheless changbin continued to smile, pressing the two button while waiting for them to come out. the moment the drinks rolled out of the vending machine, changbin picked them out, handing one of the drink over to jisung to which he smiled softly.

"t-thank you..." the brown haired male responded, causing changbin to smile wider.

"no worries, let's go." jisung nodded, following changbin once again. as the two eventually settled at a place he had never seen before, he watched as the other sat down on the bench. changbin looked up to give the younger another one of his reassured smile, causing him to hesitatingly sit down beside him.

"w-what did you want to talk about...?" jisung questioned, briefly looking over to changbin who was struggling to say something. he was instead, fiddling with the can that had not been opened yet making the sudden anxiety come back to him.

the more seconds pass by, the more he was starting to lose focus around his surroundings. what could be more frightening to have a such uncomfortable atmosphere between the two? jisung didn't know what it could be until he was suddenly reminisced of the past.

because he was now reminiscing back to the past, his legs were now tremendously trembling beneath him as he was looking unstably around him. his breath was starting to lose control of its pace when changbin finally turned to face the younger in the eye.

"jisung, i want to talk to you about something..." he replied, making the younger turn his head to meet the others. and just by looking at his eyes somehow calmed him down, he found himself no longer thinking of the past he never wanted to look back.

"w-what is it hyung...?" jisung asked, his tone was shaking due to the nervousness. changbin could immediately tell he was apprehensive and nervously gulped, how was he gonna approach it now? 

"i just wanna say..." he started before sighing once again, continuing to stare into the younger's eyes. "if anything is bothering you then i really hope you would tell me, i don't wanna force you but i'm just really concerned these past days. i don't know why but you've been looking really distressed and it's been bothering me, i just really hope you would tell me what's wrong." he finally explained, looking down at his drink.

the moment he heard the words from the other, he suddenly widened his eyes before looking away. he was now also fiddling with his drink as he couldn't figure out what to say after, he had never thought this would happen causing him to be entirely taken aback.

"i-i..." changbin looked up to hear the younger's response, his mouth was opening and closing as he struggled to process the words. deep down he was hoping the brown haired male would say something but much to his attempt, he realised it was no use.

"i-i thought it was something else... it scared me... b-but really hyung, i'm okay..." jisung finally answered, looking up at the other with another one of his melancholy smile. changbin could feel his heart break into pieces at the response he didn't want to hear, he knew that he was breaking up inside yet he wasn't saying anything.

"jisung-" changbin was about to say when jisung immediately interrupted, standing up.

"i-i got to go... felix's waiting for me. i-i'll see you later hyung... bye." was all he said before walking away, causing a frown on changbin's face seconds later.

"why did he stop himself from saying it?"