Hate Me

?Broken?

When I come out of the bathroom, I change into my pajamas and join Edna and Faith's discussion.

After some time, Faith looks at me and asks in a commentator's accent and voice.

"Baby girl, you've got something on your mind you wanna erase and shake off? "

"Yeah, " I reply with utmost honesty.

"Then y'all should get ready to meet my friend. He has a lot of older siblings but I chose to bring him cause I knew he would be meeting Lil innocent kids like Jade tonight," she says still maintaining her commentator's voice.

Edan and I give each other puzzled looks as we both have no idea what faith is talking about or up to.

"Don't be confused, my dear friends... A grand guest deserves a grand entrance. " she continues her commentator stunt and gesticulates like one introducing an act in a circus show.

Edna and I sit patiently and I for one want to see where this is headed.

Faith walks towards her bag and dips her hand into it;

"Ladies and gentle girls..." she giggles at how odd it sounds and Edan as well as I can't hold back our laughter.

"Can you give a round of applause for... Mr. No worries" she says as she drags a very captivating bottle from her bag.

Edna's face brightens up and she increases the way she is clapping while I just stare in astonishment.

It's alcohol. On the bottle is the name 'Lamb $ Watt Cherry Brandy' Carefully scribbled on the bottle amongst the other writings on it.

I have never drunk alcohol before. For one I am scared of how much I would reveal when drunk, as I have managed to bury a lott of emotions and dirty truths at the buttom of my heart, and drinking alcohol, might just make them resurface and I don't want that... At all.

Then... I fear getting addicted to it cause if I get relief from it once, I'm sure I'm gonna go back to it. Over and over again as there is almost always something wrong in my life.

Faith looks at me and tells Edana, loud enough so I could hear.

"Look... The little girl is weighing her choices. "

I roll my eyes and reply;

"Faith, you know I don't drink alcohol so don't even try your luck."

"Oh, I am already trying my luck and you should just... I don't know... Come out of your shell and stop being a big baby. I mean... It's not even black label or Baileys Delight.. " she replies.

I lay on my back and let my head hang off the foot of my bed so I could see them.

" No, thank you" I simply reply.

"I know there's something on your mind, and this would help wipe your worries away, but boo... Your choice... You're missing out. " she says as she draws two plastic cups out of her bag.

Yup... She came prepared.

"Just one shot won't hurt sis. If you don't like how you feel after that, you can drop it. We won't force you." Edna says as she looks at me with puppy dog eyes.

I know I can stand my ground if I want to, but truth be told, I want something to help me. Help me block out Victor's words from my head and sleep better.

"Okay. " I finally give in.

"Now you're talking! " Faith remarks and pulls out an extra plastic cup from her bag.

Yup... Well prepared.

She pours a shot into each cup and we take one each.

I cringe as I bring the cup to my nose as the smell reminds me of menthol spirit.