Virus (Sequel To 'A Malfunction?')(Bonnie x Reader)

Chapter 16: Rainy Chat

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"Can you at least smile?" Bonnie shifts closer to you.

"Why?"

"Because I want to see you smile."

He knows that he won't get what he's itching for but it'll be better than nothing. It's hard to believe that it's been ten years since he's seen your smile. A real one that is. During the time he's been back you have done it but there's always a sense of emptiness in your face, a lost feeling. This is further confirmed when you smile at him now and it just seems unnatural. Yes, when you're told to do something it won't be the same as you'd do it on your own accord but it goes further than that. Bonnie still finds it gorgeous so he doesn't say anything.

"Do you think that things will get better?" he asks.

"I can only hope." You raise a hand to his cheek to caress it.

Bonnie goes silent while he leans into your hand, his mind wandering to places it shouldn't. Almost all his battles with temptation have ended in a loss and this seems to be no exception.

"When Freddy, Chica, Foxy and Goldie were infected..." He studies your face as it quickly turns to a concerned look. "H-how...how bad was it?"

You look off to the side. "Um...very... Why?"

"Was it as bad as what happens today or has it gotten worse?"

"Depends really." You shrug. "In some aspects, it's worse and in others, it's better."

Bonnie nods slowly. "You know... I like waking up next to you."

Your mouth subtly curls up in a smirk. "That was sudden."

"I do though. It's nice." He nuzzles your hand. "Can we do that more often?"

"You want me to wake you up before I leave?"

He nods and smiles which just melts your heart so you promise him that you will. Although it's hard to determine what behaviours are due to the infection and what is pure – especially at this stage – it's still nice to see such a sweet little action from him. The small things he does is what keeps you going. He'll ask you cute things like that, he'll nuzzle you at any opportunity and his face will instantly light up whenever he sees you. He'll hold your hand until the day he dies. It's saddening to think some people think having a boyfriend like this would become annoying or just isn't worth it. You've even gotten into arguments with people about it. They usually say something about how they want a man for a lover and not a soft, cuddle bug – and that's where you lucked out apparently. According to them, Bonnie can get away with being the adorable, affectionate guy that he is because he's got the build and presence to compensate for it. Anyone would get scared around him if he was even the littlest bit upset. That's it.

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He leans down and gently kisses you – something that feels rare for some reason. The rain outside gets heavier and louder, making some things rattle around all while Bonnie jumps around from focusing on that to focusing on you. Very suddenly, however, he sits up on his knees and moves towards the window to look out of it.

"If I go out there I'll die, won't I?" he asks.

"Um...most likely...why?" You sit up as well and move next to him.

"It makes me feel weird..."

"Why?" You lean on his shoulder.

"Because... I don't know. It's just – we – I..." He goes silent for a moment. "For as alive as I am, I'm nowhere close to being human. There's so many differences. You can go out there just fine but I can't."

"So? Does it matter you're not human?"

"Kind of. I-in some ways at least."

You shake your head. "Don't think humans are perfect, powerful things. If I go out into that rain, there is a really big chance I would get sick. Yes, that is less of a threat than what you face but it's not to say that I would be perfectly fine out there. We get sick, we get injuries, we go through things just as animatronics would."

"The different outcomes and procedures for that are too different..." Bonnie tenses up slightly. "If I go out I die – if you do, you merely get sick. If you get physically injured you have a relatively natural healing process – we get snapped back into place and immediately sent back out like nothing happened. When you have mental hurt, you get sent to a psychologist – we have our brains poked and prodded at until they deem we're fixed. You get born as a baby with the ability to grow up, giving you a chance to figure out how things work and what you want to do with your life – we start out with adult brains and get thrown into working on stage..."

You go silent as you gently put your hand on Bonnie's.

"It's just..." he starts. "It seems so much better to be a human."

He sinks down to be sitting on the bed rather than on his knees as if he's just been drained of emotion. You quickly reposition as well so you're right next to him.

"H-how do I even know that I'm alive? I don't have a heartbeat, I don't breathe, I don't do anything..."

"Bonnie, If you weren't alive we wouldn't be here together right now. You wouldn't be thinking this right now. You don't need to have a heartbeat to do that."

"But how do I know that all my emotions and opinions and everything are real? Every single animatronic just accepts that their sole purpose is to perform on stage. That that was the only reason they were created. No one protests, no one complains that that's not what they want to do. You would think with so many of us at least one would want to do something different with their lives. But no. We're all the same..."

"That's not true." You sit in front of him. "You don't know for sure that every single animatronic just goes along with it. There might be thousands that chose not to go with what they were built for but they're simply never talked about. You don't even know if everyone's happy with it."

"Why hasn't anyone said or done anything?"

You shrug. "I don't know, Bon. Maybe they're scared, maybe they think there's no point or maybe they just accept it without standing up."

Bonnie stares at you as the rain continues to become heavier. Not a single animatronic had the guts to stand up and say they wanted something different for themselves or just disappeared, yet – with that information – Desmond and his partner still thought that they needed to doom them all just to keep humans on top. Humans will always be on top.

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"It's not fair," Bonnie says.

"I know." You hold his hands. "But we'll fix it."

He stares down at your hands. You said that with such certainty it's almost believable. Almost. You're so adorable to be thinking that way and it's precious but the chance of it ever being true is so slim it's kind of sad. Even as you move closer to Bonnie and hug him, resting your head on his chest, as if trying to reassure him, it's difficult to believe. He can't think that way, he can't psych himself up. He has to think realistically, but maybe for you, he can change that a bit. Maybe he'll see you smile more often if he does. Bonnie hugs you back, internally repeating to himself that that's all that matters. You. Anything to make you smile will be worth it as it's too sweet not to. A perfect, ear-to-ear beam would keep him going for days, weeks, maybe even months. It's heartbreaking to think every smile he's seen from you recently hasn't been as authentic as what they used to be like but he can fix that – somehow. Is it so much to ask to see you happy again? Someone like you doesn't deserve to be anything but that and yet here you are, with an obvious sense of severe hurt surrounding you as you cling onto him with slight desperation as evident by your periodically tightening your grip. You've been through enough. You need a break, and he's going to give it to you. Bonnie will take all the pain away and make you happy again. That's what he's meant to do.

He'll solve everything.

A simple chapter but an important one. Can't wait to make everyone cry. Until next time!!