Tainting The Void Canvas

4. ●Hiraeth●

And now when someone asks her why her marriage didn't work out, for her the answer is simple, because they were not happy in that marriage, at least she was not and if she was not happy, how could she keep her husband happy? So they simply parted their ways.

That's the story Amaya Kareem knows, nothing more, no blame games no regrets, and obviously no accusing from her part. Amaya chose a simple closure for herself and that's it. Now she wants to live in the present making new memories with the new life ahead.

"Do you regret it?" Zain asked, this is something he really wants to know, maybe for his clarity, because he didn't regret loving Hadiya but he also didn't regret not telling her and letting her go. So knowing the feelings of Amu will give him some kind of validation that either he is wrong or right.

"Honestly Zain, no I don't regret anything. I don't regret falling in love with him, neither I regret marrying him. I was insanely in love with him so I got married to him. And I don't even regret leaving him. I tried my best to save my relationship, to save my marriage, I honestly did.

But when he decided to come back, it's simply too late. My love for him didn't come with an expiry date but my waiting period did. I forgave him many times, gave him chances too but alas one day I realized that I was not happy there so I left. And I don't regret any bit of it." And that's it. Zain got his answer, he is not wrong, and Amu just makes him feel that.

"So you don't love him anymore?" He asked this, he has to.

"Zain one can never unlove the person they have loved once. That person held a large part of my heart for a long, so I can't simply unlove him. A part of me will always love him no matter what, that part died when I left him and is kept buried deep in a forbidden corner of my heart. And now I am making new memories and the old ones are fading away behind those bags of dust."

"So you will never fall in love again?"

"Now that really is a funny question Zain. What if I ask you this?"

"I think I will fall in love again. Simply because I know what I want now, and she was never the one I wanted. Love makes us do crazy things right, maybe that's the craziest thing I did in love, I chose to love someone I never wanted. So this time I will fall in love, with someone I want, even if it means to get my heart broken again."

"Well, that's the thing you need Zain, courage. You can fall in love as many times as you have the courage to get heartbroken. And about me, I just know I won't stop myself from falling for someone, and if someday I fall for someone I will hold him at least for once and if he will want to let go, I will let him go too.

But I will always have the courage to fall in love again crazily, unconditionally, and wholeheartedly perhaps before all this I will always remember to love myself a bit more."

The breezes touch her hairs, and Zain Amir loses his heart to someone he wants to grow in his life. Amaya Kareem is not just his friend now, she is the peace he wants for himself. A kind of peace one finds in their home. Home is where the heart is and Zain just lost it to someone and he is yet to realize it.

Those words sound quite familiar to him, yet today they make a different sense to him. Today Zain and Amu kept their souls naked in front of each other. And they have each other to protect that. Today the fears of the past are gone, and the hope of a better future is much stronger.

// umr-e-daraz maang ke laayi thi chaar din

do aarzu mein kat gaye doo intezaar mein //

a long life, four days in all, I did ask for

two were spent in longing and two were spent in waiting.

~SEEMAB AKBARABADI~

Who said only falling in love is the most beautiful feeling, falling in friendship is much more beautiful, it is an eternal feeling. And in friendship the efforts are equal. The most beautiful bond. And today these two beautiful people fell more in their friendship.

Zain holds Amu's hand while keeping his other hand around her shoulder bringing her closer to him hugging her from the side, Amu keeps her head on his shoulder shedding a lone tear as if letting go of the last bit of pain left in her. The sky is witnessing this beauty of the moment painting itself Serein.

Edited by hudafathima_12

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