Tainting The Void Canvas

7. ●Scars of Past●

Away from him, her love.

Even after years of that deadly night, her nightmares come backs on that certain night every year.

No matter how hard one tries to forget the past, a part of it is always left there.

Amaya Kareem survived on her own for years. Someone who was supposed to be her protector tried to harm her in worst possible way.

She had known this for quite long that she was staying in a toxic relationship but she chose to stay there for him, for her love, and that's what love did to her.

Today years later, his voices didn't haunt her anymore but her own screams still does. She begged in front of him even for mere five minutes to spent with her, for love her, then eventually to let her have a drop of water, for everything.

Her trembling fingers goes to her left wrist, a scar is still there, a faint one though, but it's there. "Scars. A sign that you had been hurt. A sign that you had been healed." A scar that takes her back to her past, a past that makes her remember how weak she was, how vulnerable she was, how alone she was even though she had him, her husband. But he never bothered to know.

Two years, he kept her in a marriage even after it ended for two years. He didn't let her go. And it took her a while to get out of there but she did it anyhow.
Maybe the mistake was hers only, she feels too deeply, loved him too deeply. And when he broke her apart, she tried to kill herself too. Another sin she had tried to commit. But now is not the time to think of it.

A night without sleep is not something new to Amaya Kareem but seeing having the same nightmare three years down the line that too on the certain summer midnight is surely something she doesn't want.

And the only one questions that remains in her mind is "why her?". Taking out her diary she started off again where she left, this is chest of secrets.

Maybe that's what happen when you love someone way too much. It harms you at the end, too much.

Some nightmares haunts for long, perhaps this is something Amaya is left with.

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Zain Amir always wonder what might have gone wrong in Amaya's married life, until now he came to understand that much about her, if anything Amaya Kareem is a keeper.

What he didn't know is the reason behind everything, maybe that's for good. His morning run today is not much interesting as every day.

Since last month Amaya is having only domestic flights which means he gets enough time with her. She goes at nine and comes back by eight after three rounds of loop to loop. But today is not a such day.

Amaya texted him that she will not be available today, and he let it pass. Even though there's some weird feeling in his heart, he let it go, for him he knows where the boundary lines lie.

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Amaya hated running away from something. She has always been someone to face every obstacle and today is high time to end it.

So, a day with herself is what she needed. A day she did nothing but relax. And then now when the sun is near the horizon she is sitting on the beach near the shore, soft waves touches her feet. Her mind travels to a memory lane she hasn't visited for long.