Lock & Key (Drew McIntyre x OFC)

The Discussion- Part 2

The silence was comfortable this time, with idle chatter every so often as we watched the movie.

I could practically hear him thinking, though. I knew he was stressed out about this, though he promised to talk to me about it. I knew there was so much he wanted to say, and so much to think about. And I think I knew where his turmoil was coming from.

''Drew..I can hear you thinking, babe. What's up?'' I mumbled against his chest.

But instead of answering my question, he shocked me for a second time that day and answered me with a question of his own.

''Can I see the stuff that you bought for me?'' He asked almost timidly. For a moment his eyes didn't leave the tv screen until he turned to look into my shocked gaze with a nervous yet determined look in his eyes.

I sat up straighter and eyed him before I nodded in reply.

''Mhm.. sure,'' I smiled at him. '' I'll go grab it. And..D?''

''Yeah,'' he replied, smiling as I threaded our fingers together.

I wanted him to know that there was no rush on my part. That we could take our time if we needed to.

''We don't have to start right away, if you're not ready. Okay? We can take our time,'' I stressed to him, feeling my entire body grow warm as he kissed me lovingly and gave me a grateful smile.

''I know, love..thank you,''he softly said, kissing my hand before I got up to grab my recent purchases.

I could see how overwhelmed he became as soon as I began laying out everything onto the coffee table in front of us. But I didn't say anything as he looked over the different devices and the lubes that I purchased.

I almost cracked a joke as I watched him reach for one of the items laid out in front of him, only to pull back as if he'd get bitten if he wasn't careful. But I didn't say a word. I let him take everything in, until he finally picked up a device called The Cell Mate and he began to inspect it with determined curiosity.

''How does this one work?'' He asked me as he looked the device over, then looked to me.

I played with the hem of my shirt as I dug through my brain for what I was told about that particular device by the saleswoman at the shop I went to.

''It's controlled with an app. Via Bluetooth. The app also has the option to match you with other key holders and stuff. Kinda cool!'' I said, hearing the excitement in my own voice. I tried to dial it back but it was difficult, and he gave me a small smile, hearing the excitement in my voice as well.

''That does sound cool...what's with all the lube?'' He laughed softly, setting the device back on the coffee table and running his hands over his pants before bringing them back to his lap. He still seemed a little nervous but, watching him relax back on the couch again in turn made me relax more.

I shrugged, laughing as I took in everything as well.

''I dunno. I mean either way we'd probably need the lube to use this stuff. Or if anything we could just try the lube itself, no biggie. Can never have too much lube!'' I chuckled with him joining in this time.

I ran my fingers lightly through his hair as he seemed to sag against me while we went back to cuddling on the couch.

''You ok, babe?'' I murmured, now lightly scratching my fingernails against his scalp. I smiled as he sighed pleasantly against me.

''Yeah..I'm alright. Just..'' he trailed and I decided to help him out.

''A little overwhelmed?'' I chuckled softly and he nodded, confirming my thoughts.

''Well, that's okay. This is all new. For both of us. It's okay to be a little overwhelmed and nervous. Or even a lot,'' I said gently.

I felt him nod again and I kissed the top of his head, wanting to soothe his worries as best I could.

''..I don't know if I wanna try this out, yet..'' he mumbled. He sounded almost embarrassed and I felt a sad pang in chest at the sound of it.

''Alright, it's okay.. Can I ask what's holding you back exactly?..Aside from this being a new thing, obviously.'' I asked as gently as I could, moving my hand down to comfortingly rub his arm.

He shook his head, staying silent for a moment as he gathered his thoughts and quietly began to voice them.

''I dunno! It's just..'' he began, sighing deeply as if frustrated with himself. ''It's just a lot. Our whole dynamic is gonna change and that's..I'm so used to being in control- and I'm so used to other people seeing me that way. And even though this is going to be kept between us, it..''

''You're worried that this makes you less of a man,'' I answered for him. ''Especially since you're like, quadruple my size..'' I chuckled lightly as he nodded in confirmation.

''...okay. How bout this. Why don't you wear it- when you're ready for however long you're ready to wear it, and you be the key holder for a while? Just until you get more comfortable with even just wearing whatever device you choose? And then you could hand things over to me. I can't force you to be comfortable with this. That has to come from you.''

''But doesn't that kind of defeat the purpose?'' He asked, lightly running the pad of his fingers underneath my shirt, causing goosebumps to raise up on my skin.

''Hm..I don't think so! Cuz you'd still have the limitation of not being able to cum but, you're giving it to yourself. You don't even have to tell me when you have it on if you don't wanna. Plus maybe it'll make you feel more comfortable to wear it if you were the only to know that you're wearin it,'' I shrugged, wrinkling my nose.

''Does that make sense?'' I asked him and I was relieved when he let out an affirmative hum and nodded.

''It does, love,'' he said, continuing to run his fingers along my skin rhythmically. ''I think if I'd actually give this a try I'd wanna do it that way.''

His words made me smile. I was endlessly proud of this man.

''Alright, cool..I love you.'' I murmured to him, smiling and pecking his lips as he lifted his eyes toward mine.

''I love you more,'' he said smiling at me. His eyes and his entire energy were less frenzied. Less anxious. And that made me so happy.

''I love you most,'' I smiled wider.

''...you win. This time,'' he mumbled, rolling his eyes playfully.

I giggled at the sight and gave him another, more sound kiss.

''I always win.''