Without Me || Jikook

9. Guilty [Part 2]

"I'm.. I'm not running away Hoseok.." Jungkook grabbed Hoseok's wrists, trying to pull his hands off of his shirt, "Please let go and-"

"Then look into my eyes and tell me Why did you break up?? Was it really for no reason? Or you're lying and trying to hide something?"

Jungkook stood silent for almost a minute and closed his eyes then breathed out. He could actually open up to Hoseok and explain his situation but the way Hoseok was acting made him feel there's no chance for him to do.

The angry man wanted to believe Jungkook had a strong reason for breaking up but as he waited for long seconds, Jungkook was just silent. That made Hoseok feel Jungkook was hiding something. But What Hoseok didn't know was that Jungkook was silent only because he was shocked by his friend's action. Jungkook thought at least Hoseok would try listen to him so he chuckled, feeling weaker, sicker. That moment Jungkook hated himself when he believed he didn't just lose Jimin but Hoseok too.

"What's wrong with you Jungkook?" Hoseok asked, "Do you think this is funny? Or you're drunk?"

Jungkook looked at Hoseok and tears fell of his eyes. "No, but i realized I probably don't deserve someone like Jimin.."

"That's the only thing he said.." Hoseok mumbled.

Jimin remained silent. Doing nothing, not moving, Just breathing. He realized his boyfriend is dumb to think this way. But,

But what made Jungkook think he wasn't enough for Jimin? That was what Jimin asking himself that moment. It made him feel frustrated yet emotional.

"Then what did you do.."

"I punched him in the face-" Hoseok hissed flicking his forehead, ashamed of himself for punching his friend, Jungkook, Jimin's everything.

"Did he get hurt?" Jimin mumbled under his breath as he was dazed at the table.

"Huh?"

Jimin looked at Hoseok and sniffed, "You hurt Jungkook.." he looked down and let out a soft sigh.

"Listen Jimin," Hoseok huffed in frustration,"I was so angry and couldn't really think what was the right thing to do. I know, I know i did wrong.. Maybe he had a reason. Im sorry, I couldn't talk to him as a man. I acted childish. I should've at least given him time to process. Unfortunately i realized that late. and i really feel guilty, I'm sorry."

".. "Jimin didn't respond. He just felt broken again. He turned his head away, holding the glass in his hands tighter. His stomach felt like burning but he wanted to Ignore the pain. At that moment, He felt his heart beating got faster.

Jimin could feel this way eveytime he hides and control his emotions. He didn't know why he felt so hurt to hear Jungkook got a hard punch that he suddenly felt like tearing up,

as if Jungkook never hurt him.

But Jimin, didn't want to believe Jungkook ever hurt him because for Jimin, Jungkook is always perfect and he never does anything without a reason. And what made him really want to cry at the moment, was that what was Jungkook's reason?

That was Jimin's daily question and whenever he'd think about it, he could just cry. Because he couldn't really find an answer.

"Then?.."

"The punch was strong enough to make him fall.." Hoseok continued and jimin just let out a big sigh to that.
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Angry Hoseok was looking at Jungkook, that just fell on the couch, breathing heavily. Jungkook didn't care about the punch. He thought he deserved it so he looked up at the man standing and chuckled again. but deep inside, It hurt. And it hurt his feelings more than it hurt his face.