03.07.21
10:43 pm
I've never had an anxiety attack but last night I think I had one. I had went to sleep but like an hour later I woke up literally shaking. My body felt like it was trembling and I was scared.
So I got up and I felt so weak. A few minutes later I began to hysterically cry. I literally thought I was going to die. Like I wasn't gonna make it through the night.
And as those thoughts and feelings came to me all I could think of was to pray. And maybe a lot of you reading this don't believe in God, but I do. And the only way that I made it through the night was through prayer.
I cried my heart out for a good 15 minutes. I've never felt this in my life. I've never had an attack like that and it scared me. It scared me cause what if it happens again. I'm scared that I'm gonna have to deal with these feelings alone cause I don't know how to ask for help.
I've never been one to cry for help and I won't start now. God has taken me out of dark places and maybe this is a even darker place, but I know one thing; I will forever trust in my God.
For all those going through anxiety and panic attacks my heart goes out to you. My prayers go out to you. I love you and you're not alone.