𝐌𝐢𝐚𝐦𝐢, 𝐅𝐥𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐚 📍
𝙺𝙸𝙰𝚁𝙰 𝙹𝙰'𝙻𝙴𝙴 𝙲𝙰𝙽𝙸𝙴𝙲𝙴 | 𝙿𝚁𝙴𝙲𝙸𝙾𝚄𝚂
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1 Week Later ...
( A Lil View On Shakur's & Precious's Life )
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"I'm confused Shakur ... I basically moved up in here wit you, been fucking you; yet you still don't know if you wanna be with me?" I looked over at him and he had a blank expression on his face.
"Kiara ... man ion know what you want me to say," he spoke as he pulled from his blunt.
His calm demeanor was making me mad, I wanted him to be hurt and upset by what he was saying but he didn't even seem phased.
Gen was right ... nigga will fuck the shit out of me onna daily but when we in public, act like he don't know me.
That shit hurt, and I know yall probably wondering why not just leave?
I've tried.
Every time I do, Shakur starts apologizing telling me he loves me and he gon get it together.
But I'm at a point in my life where I can't be waiting on him to make up his mind.
We either together or we're not.
And I need him to let the world know too.
Cause I been patient, I been trynna give him time but its been well over a year now.
I can't keep waiting, I won't.
Especially now cause I'm carrying this man's child.
I ain't tell him yet because I wanted our relationship to be based on him actually wanting to be with me, not cause no baby.
"Listen ... you gotta make up your mind right now or whatever we got goin on is done. I'm not waiting on you no more Kiree," I spoke up; calling him by his middle name.
I was dumb, too pretty to be wanting around for a nigga to tell me he wanna be with me.
Baby or not, stepdad season is always in session.
"I can't be with you Kiara, I can't. Every girl I been with broke my heart ... and I honestly don't wanna deal wit it no more. I like what we have but if you wanna let it go, then aight. I can't force you to stay wit a nigga."
I rolled my eyes, "okay? Those were girls in your past, I am not them. I love you, and I show you that shit every day. What makes you even think I would hurt you in any way?"
"You say you love me but won't commit ... how that make sense?" I continued.
"I basically treat you like a girl friend already Kiara. I keep you up, pay for your hair, nails, always in the flyest clothes... keep money in your bank account. I fuck you good, I feed you ... what more you want from a nigga?"
I felt myself about to cry, but I took a deep breath cause I was over that weak ass crying shit.
"I want to be your girl friend, if that's something you can't do then I have to let all this go." I simply responsed.
Shakur looked up at me, he put his phone down and just stared at me for a minute making me a lil
uncomfortable.
"C'mere..." I did as I was told; walking towards him.
He pulled me onto his lap, and stuck out his pinky finger.
"You promise ... you gon love me forever?" He asked.
I nodded my head, "yes I promise."
"You not gon break a nigga heart?" He kept on.
I nodded quickly, "I won't... I love you too much to do you like that."
"I love you too... now big head; you gon be my girl or what?" He asked me and I broke out into a smile.
"Yes," I wrapped my arms around his neck and he wrapped his hands securely around my waist.
I just held onto him toght cause this is all I wanted ... I wanted him to commit to me and love me like he claimed he did.
Cause I knew I loved him and he was my escape from the world.
My peace.
"I have to tell you something," I pulled away as I looked at him and a mug was etched across his face.
"If you boutta tell me some dumb ass shit, just pack your shit and go," he said to me.
"I hope you don't think its dumb."
"Aight... say what you gotta say."
I bit my bottom lip before speaking, "I'm pregnant."
A shocked expression came across Shakur's face makin me laugh.
"You forreal?" He asked me.
I nodded quickly and a few seconds after that he broke out into a smile.
"My baby having my baby," he leaned forward and pecked my lips as he wrapped me up in his arms.
"I got yall forever, I promise."
I just smiled to myself because I know he meant that.
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𝐌𝐢𝐚𝐦𝐢, 𝐅𝐥𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐚 📍
𝙹𝙴𝙷𝙽𝙰𝙸 𝙺𝙰𝚅𝙾𝙽 𝙱𝙻𝙰𝙲𝙺 | 𝙶𝙴𝙴
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"Hos are you feelin," Kash questioned me as she sat next to me on the bed.
I was shot twice in my side and once in my leg, shit was sore but nun I couldn't handle.
Janaya was laid out across the bed and Jeremiah was resting on my stomach.
His shot was a flesh wound so he was healing quickly; but I hated hearing his cries when Kash cleaned it.
It probably stung. My poor baby.
"Straight, ain't nun major. How you?" Kash was hit about a few inches from the first time she was shot.
Flesh wound as well; so she was healing fine too.
I was the fucked up one.
"I'm okay ... can we talk?" She looked at me.
I shrugged, "talk."
She sighed, "I wanna apologize about the whole threatening to get full custody of the kids. I just wanted to make you mad ... because I couldn't accept the fact that you no longer wanted to be with me."
"Selfish, I know ... but at the time it felt right."
Jehnai sighed, "everything you say and do is wild as fuck. You know before you; I was the most calm nigga, now I be ready to whoop your ass. Cause you really be playin wit a nigga, disrepecting a nigga."
She sighed deeply, "I know ... I was a shit girl friend. But I promise you I love you. I wanna go get therapy; talk about my past and stuff. Maybe I can move past some things and do better for you."
"You need to do better for you ... not for me. For you and these babies because they need a good, healthy, happy mom." I said to her.
"I don't think I'll be happy without you ... I need you whether you wanna hear that or not."
"Kash when you had me all you did was cheat on me ... like how that work?"
She didn't bother to say nun cause it was true.
"I-I just really want another chance. I promise you this time I won't cheat... I will do right by you because you always did right by me."
"Ion think my girl would like that," I responded and Kash scrunched her face all the way up.
"Your girl? Last I checked; I was yours... not some broad you found on the streets."
I chuckled ... "a nigga moved on Kash, I told you I was done after that last time. You not finna keep cheating on me like I'm some Corny as nigga."
"Who is she?" Kash looked at me as she snatched my phone.
My ass couldn't even fight with her, I was on crutches and everything.
I watched as she went through my phone, I didn't care though.
Shawty I was dealin wit name was Alexis...
fine lil dark skin of course.
Kash gon get her feelings hurt goin through my shit.
"Alexis... she cute I guess. If that's what you want do your thing boo," she spoke up after several seconds.
I laughed a lil, she was handling this well.
"She is cute and she treats me good," I added.
"She fuck you better than me?" Kash randomly asked.
She didn't but I wasn't gon tell Kash that.
"She do a lil sum..."
"You know what, cool. I'm gon get myself together; take the kids to my house." Kash spoke up as she stood to her feet.
"Why?" I asked cause I wanted them close by.
"Cause we're fine,"
"Okay, I understand that but after what happen I want yall close and I need help."
"Hm, you should probably call Alexis over then. She can cater to you, since she's your girl and all. I'm just the baby mom." Kash taunted as she slipped into her sweatpants, and a jacket over her crop top.
"Wake up baby," she tapped Janaya who slowly got up and rubbed her eyes.
"I'm gonna get their carseats, strap your son in if you can."
"Kash..." I called for her but she ignored me.
A few minutes later, she came in with their carseats.
I used my good arm to get Jasai in his seat and strapped him up securely.
"Kashlynn." I spoke again but she continued ignoring me.
I was getting mad but fuck it, not finna stress behind it.
"Can you at least stay with Precious and em?" I inquired.
"Jehnai, I still have the house outside the city. I'm gonna go there. All my enemies are dead, I'm good."
"Ion want you to leave though,"
I looked her up and down, I still loved Kash yall ... she was my best friend, my confidant.
My favorite lady next to my mama and our daughter.
"Well I wanna leave, so I am. Have a good night, if you need something just call me. I'll bring the kids back tomorrow."
Before she could walk out of the room, I pulled her back with my good arm.
She was on the brink of tears, I could see it in her face.
Ion know why she think she gotta be "tough" around me.
"Why you leaving me?" I asked her.
"Jehnai... you have a new girl friend know and she seems to treat you right ... there's good conversations. I don't wanna mess that up."
I thought about what she was saying... all that was true but she wasn't Kash.
She wasn't the woman I planned on spending my life with.
Kash wasn't perfect by any means, shit neither was I but she was the only woman I seen myself with.
All the good, somehow.. someway outweighed the bad.
And I just wondered if trying again was worth it because I really wanted to.
Even though I probably shouldn't.
"I love you," I looked at Kash.
"I love you more than anything in this world, I adore you and I don't wanna live this life without you."
"I refuse to."
Kash had tears running down her face now, "so what's that mean?"
I licked my lips, "I'm willing to try again if you are."
"I am ... I need you. We need you," she looked over at our kids who was still fast asleep might I add.
"Take them to the room and come lay back down with me." I spoke to Kash.
"Okay," she smiled as she got both of them out their seats.
I turned on the monitor so I could see what was goin on.
She laid them both down in their beds, then gave them kisses and found her way back to me.
She walked into our room and shut our door.
She pulled her jacket off and removed her shirt.
The scars from her shot was evident ... and she had a gauze placed on her graze.
I noticed her nipples were pierced ... definitely was sum new.
I liked them... they were heart shaped.
Her boobs dropped slowly due to breastfeeding and just gravity.
She looked good as always.
"Come ride this dick." I spoke and she smirked and made her over to me.
"I love you," she said as she straddled me.
"I love you too mama... for life."