Y/N's POV
Tomorrow was New Year's Eve and I haven't gone back to work yet, I was waiting till next year. I was still talking to Peter and all, I wasn't mad at him after all.
"Y/N! Get down here" Mr seer yelled. I rolled my eyes and walked downstairs "yes sir?" "Where the hell are your paychecks!" He was mad.
"Sir, I... I don't go back to work till January 3rd" I backed up a little making sure he wouldn't hit me. "What about the cafe huh? At least give me half of that money if you aren't going to your freaking job!" He pushed me aside and grabbed a beer.
"Yes sir" i ran upstairs and grabbed my wallet. I had 3 $10's, 2 $20's and 9 $1's. I sighed and grabbed one twenty and one ten. "Here sir" I handed it to him "30 bucks?! What are you broke!" He slapped me.
My cheek was bleeding again, "I am sir, that's half" I wiped the blood away, he scoffed and dismissed me.
Later that day I snuck out and went to a warehouse where I used my powers. It's where Mj, Ned, and Peter would help me control my powers. It's also where Peter trained to become spider-man.
I took a cardboard box and put it on the ground, I tried to make an electrical ball in my hand, but of course it didn't work. I tried to focus, I tried to use my emotions to use my powers.
I thought of the avengers, my work, Mr seer, my parents, HYDRA. I was able to make a small ball of energy, I made it bigger and bigger. When I had it in control I shot it at the box.
The box exploded and caught in fire. "Shit" I mumbled before stepping on the fire with my shoes and making it go out.
I sighed and just practiced on forming electricity in my hands.
I discovered I can control them best with my emotions, it's more powerful when I'm angry, I'm less in control when I'm panicky, when I get scared or exited it's more of a shock than electricity. And when I'm happy, ya I haven't figured that one out yet.
When the sun started going down I put my winter coat back on and walked back to the orphanage.
January 3rd 2057
We were still on winter break till tomorrow so I didn't have school but I did have to go to the internship.
I sighed and met up with Peter while we walked there together. "Hey Mrs L/N and Mr Parker" Mrs Jen said. We smiled and waved.
"Hey kids" Mr stark said to us while we got off the elevator "hey Mr stark" we both said. Mrs Potts called me to office when Mr stark tried to talk to me about what happened on the 26th.
"Hey Mrs Potts" I said with a smile "hey sweetie, I'm sorry we didn't tell you sooner" She said with a sad look "why didn't you tell me though, I mean- ya I know for safety but you could've given me a heads up before I spilt my whole life info there" I crossed my arms when I noticed my veins were a little blue but luckily I had a sweater and winter coat on.
She came over to me and went to hug me, I backed up and her shoulders went down in sadness. I've always liked Mrs Potts, it's hard to be mad at her when she reminds you so much of your mom. Nat reminded me of my mom somewhat as well, mostly because my mom was a redhead-
I uncrossed my arms and leaned into her, she put her arms around me. My eyes got watery and I felt that stinging sensation in my nose. She patted my back "it's ok" she hummed while I cried.
I really needed a hug and it felt so nice to finally get one. "It's going to be ok" she walked me over to a chair and sat me down. She sat in the other chair and rubbed my arm while I grabbed a tissue "why is my life so shitty" I laughed a little.
"It's not crappy I promise, sometimes you just have to walk through hell to get to heaven" she whispered to me. She comforted me while I let it out.
I calmed down eventually. I stood up "I'm sorry" I said while going in for another hug "it's ok Y/N, your angry I get it" she smiled at me softly. "Y/N, remember. To heal a wound you need to stop touching it" she smiled before oepneing the door.
I smiled at her and wiped my red eyes. "Hey kid, want to help me" Mr stark asked, Peter was helping Dr banner with some math equations. "Sure" I faked a smiled and walked over to him.
"You ok?" He asked "yes sir" he sighed, he didn't like it when I called him sir but I needed to be professional. "Look kid... I'm sorry about last week" he looked at me, I locked eyes with him "I don't want to talk about it sir" I looked down and went back to changing the wires.
"Please just forgive us, your safe with us" he put his tools down "just give us a second chance" "a second chance? Trust me I've done my round of second chances on people, it never ends well" I put the tools on the table and got a little mad.
"We were protecting you" he slightly yelled "I'm not mad at that part, I trusted them, I thought they were actually amazing people who just worked here and knew you guys. Now I feel like a complete idiot for being so oblivious and now I know why you guys were always so nice to me" I snapped back.
"I thought I meant something to people for once but you guys just pitied me for my past and horrible life. I'm just another Burden you have to take care of Tony"
I sighed angrily and went back to working and being just a worker at SI. "Y/N..." he sounded hurt. He sadly sighed and also went back to work.
We worked in silence, only talking about work and when needed for about 2 hours before Bruce asked for me.
"Hey Y/N" Bruce gave me a sad smile. "Hey Dr banner" I fakes a smile at him and he clearly noticed.
"Y/N... I'm sorry that... we didn't really tell you... anything about that- that Groupchat" He looked at me sadly "can we please just focus on working" I had a little tone. He shook his head and we expirmented with some chemicals.
After we made a little explosion we walked out, I saw Clint, Nat, and Peter talking. When Clint noticed me his eyes filled with sadness. He started walking towards me after excusing himself.
I rolled my eyes and turned around, He jogged up to me a little "Y/N" he sounded sad "Mr Barton I'm trying to do my work please don't talk to me" I tried my best to be nice.
"Can we please just-" "I'm only here to do what I agreed to do" I cut him off. He sighed sadly "please just listen" he walked closer to me, I was starting to lose my cool and I could feel electricity in my hands, the lights flickered a little.
"Clint I'm just here to do my job I don't want anything to do with the avengers or shield anymore, I'm only here for the internship and to get a paycheck so the others don't starve to death so can you stop talking to me and get the fuck out of my life" I snapped.
He jilted back in pain, his eyes were filled with sadness. I looked down at the ground realizing I hurt him again and I.. I yelled and cursed at the only father figure I've ever had...
My eyes got watery and I walked to the elevator.
"Roof please" "arrived" "thank you"
I went to the edge of the roof and dangled my feet while sitting, I was trying my best to hold back tears and resist the urge to just jump. I scooted a little closer to the edge and looked down, I would definitely die if I jumped.
I heard the door open and I rolled my eyes "be careful not to fall Y/N" Steve said. "Kinda hoping I do" I mumbled. He sighed and sat next to me.
"We're sorry" he looked at me with sad eyes, I just looked down and ignored him. "I know you've gone through a lot but that doesn't mean we have been pitying you the whole time we knew you. We actually really like you, you have an amazing personality, smart, funny, independent, and even a smartass" I smiled a little and snickered.
"Some of my best memories have been at this tower and I thought that you guys didn't know about my terrible past because when people find it out they are all 'oh I'm so sorry please stop for me' 'eat more it's good for you' 'no don't kill your self we care and love you' everyone pities me" I put my hands up and mimicked.
"We know traumatic pasts trust me Y/N, we're the avengers. We don't pity you or just be nice to you because your a burden, we care about you and your apart of our family. Same with Peter" I smiled and looked at him.
"I'm sorry" He said, I leaned onto his arm and he hugged me. "You smell like fruity nicotine" he chuckled "I know" I snickered.
I haven't gone a day without vaping or juuling or cutting every since December 26th.
"Ok but seriously we should move, I'd not want you to fall" he said before standing up and putting his hand out for me. I accepted it and he smiled.
"Is Mr Barton mad at me? I hurt him and I feel really bad I didn't mean to be that harsh I was just really mad" I panicked a little "trust me it'll be ok, he loves you you'll be ok" he patted my shoulder and we walked into the elevator.
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