"Fuck this. I give up" I shout and throw the weights on the ground.
Lando clears his throat and glares at me. "Don't give me that look! You're not the one who has to do this shit!" I snap and cross my arms and sit back down on the chair.
"You just have to be patient—""—Patience is not exactly my best trait you should know this" I argue and Lando sighs before coming over to me.
"It will be alright. Rome wasn't build in one day" Lando says and rest his hands on my knees.
"I can barely walk. Lando. It's embarrassing enough" I snap and shake my head.
"I know. But that's not how I see it" Lando says and smile at me.
"Then how do you see it?" I snap. I was discharged from the hospital three weeks ago and I struggled a lot.
My wound in my spine was a scar, but I felt that it was still an open wound.
I struggled with walking properly. I couldn't walk fast and it was embarrassing as hell.
My retirement had been announced to the whole world and Redbull were sorry that it came this far.
Now it was up to me to get better.
And I wasn't succeeding.
"Baby, you're too angry with yourself. You need to relax and let it come to you. The doctors said your wounds have healed properly. It's psychological" Lando says and I roll my eyes and scoff.
"Psychological my ass" I say and cross my arms again.
"Nat, come on. Try it with me. Use me for support" Lando tries and I shake my head no.
"And embarrass myself even more? No thank you" I say, but Lando pulls me up and as I stand up I grab his shoulders.
"Come on, try one. Just for me" Lando begs and I sigh in defeat.
He put his hands on my hips and as he moves his legs backwards, I move mine forward following the leg he walked backwards with.
"See, you got it" Lando says and I realize he's right.
"Why doesn't the weights help?" I ask frustrated. That's what they said I had to work with.
"Because it's too soon. Walk first, weights later to build up your muscles" Lando says and I sigh.
"I'm sorry" I say and smile sheepishly. "Well, you did warn me that you would be difficult" Lando says with a shrug.
"That's true" I say and chuckle.
"How do you feel about coming to my race tomorrow?" Lando asks carefully. I hadn't been on a track since the incident.
"I can barely walk. When I return to a track, I want to be walking gracefully through the gates" I retort and Lando chuckles a bit.
"You always walk like somebody's about to be punched" Lando says and I gasp.
"I do not!" I argue and Lando kiss me. I kiss back and laugh a little.
"We have just walked around for ten minutes and you didn't even notice" Lando noted as he pulled away.
"What? Really?" I ask confused and look at his watch.
"Yes, really" Lando says and I cheer.
"I love you" Lando says and I kiss him once again.
"And I love you" I say as I pull away.
It's now two months since being discharged and I had recovered gracefully. I still struggled with standing or walking for too long.
But the doctor cleared me and said it had to be trained. So, we did.
Lando was there every step of the way and I tried not to burden him with everything.
My fans were still out there and praying for me and so did the whole world.
"Are you ready?" Lando asks resting his hand on my thigh.
I pull at my sleeve and look around nervously.
"I don't know" I say and Lando takes my face in his hands. "If you don't want to, you don't have to" Lando says and peck my lips.
I kiss him back and deepen it as I was panicking inside. "What do you say?" Lando asks as we pull away.
"Let's do this" I say and smile.
Lando got out of the car and ran to my side, just as I pulled the handle he opened the door for me.
I rolled my eyes playfully but got out. Fans started screaming as they saw us and Lando slipped his hand into mine as we walked.
We took pictures with fans and did autographs. Security came to help us through the entrance as too many fans were now crowding.
"Holy shit" I laugh and Lando's arm is shielding me. "It's all for you" Lando says and kiss my temple.
"Lies. It's for us" I say and laugh. We get through the entrance without any trouble and we make our way to the paddocks.
"Nathalie!" Familiar voices shout and next thing I know, the F1 drivers are running towards us.
"Nat! Fuck yes!" Daniel shouts and pick me up from the ground.
I shriek as he place me on his shoulder and show me off.
"Alright, get her down. It's not good for her" Lando calls out and the others mock him before putting me down.
I hug them all and shriek in excitement. "I can't wait to see you race today!" I say and Charles, Daniel and Pierre laughs.
"We need to go, mate" Lando says to Daniel and he hold his hand out for me to take and I do.
"See you later guys!" I call out and they wave at me.
Max meets us at the McLaren garage and hugs me. "You made it?" Max says surprised but hugs me tightly.
"It seems like it" I say and laugh. "I'm proud of you" Max says and I smile.
"Thank you" I say and hug him again.
"Where will you watch from?" Max asks and I realize I can't watch from both Redbull and McLaren's garages.
"Ehm" I mumble and look at Lando. "Whatever you want, baby" Lando says and shrugs.
I smile and look back at Max. "I will watch from McLaren today" I say and take Lando's hand again.
He squeeze it tightly and I kiss his cheek. "Alright, I will see you two after the race" Max says and we wave goodbye.
"Good luck babe, not that you need it" I say and wink as Lando gets dressed.
"I never realized how sexy you look in this suit" I say and smirk at him.
"Stop" Lando warns me. "I'm not doing anything" I say innocently and pull him closer to me.
"You're doing...something!" Lando says flustered.
"No, no, just sending you off to the race with a nice goodbye" I say and kiss him softly.
Lando deepens the kiss and I run my hand over his chest and down his stomach.
"Nat—" Lando said and took a sharp breath and gave me a warning look.
"Alright, I'm just teasing you. But seriously, after the race, you, me, hotel room" I say and Lando laughs.
"I love the way you say it" he says and rolls his eyes.
"Don't treat me like I'm made of glass" I say and go back to the argument we had at the hotel room.
"I'm not! That's not what it's about" Lando says and sighs. "Then what?" I ask still holding him close.
"I have to go, baby" Lando says and kiss my forehead before pulling away.
I sigh in defeat and follow Lando as he leaves the room.
Lando hadn't touched me since before the incident. I was trying to trap him at every chance I got.
But Lando was backing out every time we were close. He didn't want to tell me why and it frustrated me.
I sit down by the engineers who greets me and I greet them back. They asked me questions and I saw it coming, they asked about the incident and my time with Redbull.
The race started so we quietened down and watched. "He's good" I say and the engineers agree. "He has to work on that fifth turn though. He will crash if he doesn't" I say and notice how close he is to loosing grip at the turn.
"He has to—no" I gasp and stand up as he loses control, he saves it in the last second and continues.
I run across to the radio station and watch the screen. "Tell him to cut the fifth turn short, he's too wide" I say and they shrug me off. "Tell him!" I hiss and watch as he's about to get to the turn once again.
"Tell him!" I hiss. "What is going on?" Zak Brown asks.
"He's not helping Lando!" I hiss and watch the screen. "Let Nathalie talk to him" Zak says and I look at him shocked.
The man gives me the headset.
"Lan, it's me. You're too wide in the fifth turn, you will crash if you do it again. Cut it short and push" I say hurriedly and watch as Lando does as I say and get through the turn faster than before and gracefully on that note.
"Good job" I say and smile.
"Thank you, baby" Lando says and I could almost hear his smirk.
I hand the headset back and smirk at Zak. "So, it's true. The youngest Verstappen is coming for formula 1?" Zak asks and motions for me to walk with him.
"Well, it certainly has been up on the board, but I haven't made a decision yet" I say and follow him.