Warnings: Angst! Language! Fluff!
In the days following the mission in the Alps Fury had agreed to give the team, and most importantly you, some time off.
You were all staying in a townhouse in a small town in northern Italy. It was one of the nicer safe houses you'd stayed in. Something Steve was grateful for because it gave you somewhere to completely relax.
Steve did everything he could to make sure that you were okay. Especially since you had completely closed yourself off from him and the team. Your appetite was barely there, you spent more of your time pushing your food around your plate than eating it. Steve was worried that you'd end up making yourself sick.
Nat and Sam told him that he was doing everything he could. This was something you had to deal with in your own time and all he could do was support you. He couldn't help but feel helpless.
You were sat wrapped up in a blanket in the bay window of your bedroom staring down at the street below. Watching as the locals went about their day without a care in the world.
Your eyes fell on a young couple on the streets. You watched them laugh as they held and swung their hands. At one point the guy stopped walking while the girl carried on. The guy then pulled the girl back to him wrapping his arms around her kissing her forehead making her laugh. They brush noses before kissing each other with wide smiles on their faces.
Before you realise you had to look away, tears fall down your cheeks as the overwhelming sense of guilt overcame you. Steve had been perfectly caring not only since the mission but since he rescued you from the raft. Yet all you'd done was pull away from him time and time again.
You sniffled wiping away your tears when you spotted Steve standing in the doorway. You could see how sad he looked as he watched you making you feel even more guilty. You had to advert your gaze looking down at your lap.
Steve doesn't say anything, he just walked over and sits down by your feet putting a hand on your knee.
"I'm sorry" you whisper wiping away your tears.
"What are you apologising for, you have absolutely nothing to apologise for," Steve said shaking his head.
"I do, you keep being so sweet making sure I'm okay and all I'm doing is pushing you away and making everything difficult" you sigh looking away as you wiped away your tears with shaky hands.
"No you're not, everything you're doing is completely normal after everything you went through, especially after last week" Steve reassures rubbing the side of your leg.
"I just hate feeling this way, I thought it was all over that I could move on, I was so happy in Asgard then I'm suddenly back at square one because he got the better of me and fuck... I don't know what would have happened if you hadn't arrived when you did" you sniffle as more tears fall.
"You are not back at square one again, far from it, this is just a bump in the road, yes it's a nasty one but it won't be forever," Steve says reaching out to take your hand.
"Because you are so strong doll, no matter what that little voice inside your head is saying, because you are here right now, you survived it and came out stronger. You were the one who spotted him reaching for the gun, if you hadn't then we don't know what could have happened, even when you felt like you were at your weakest you were fighting to keep everyone safe because you are that strong" Steve tells you squeezing your hand.
"And it is all over now, that piece of scum is rotting in a Wakandan prison for the rest of his life, while you get to live your life however you want, you get and deserve to be happy" he continues.
"Thank you Steve, I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you" you sniffle giving him a small smile.
"I'd do anything for you, and remember it's okay for you not to feel okay yet, take it as long as you need and we'll all be there for you the entire way" Steve smiles reassuringly.
"Thank you" you sigh and smile thankfully.
"C'mere" Steve smiles holding his arms out.
You shifted so you were sat next to him, chuckling gently when he then pulls you onto his lap. He wraps his arms around you tightly resting his chin on your shoulder as he kissed your neck. You couldn't help but smile turning your head as you cupped his cheek resting your forehead against his.
"I love you" you whisper.
"I love you too princess so so much" Steve smiles gently, leaning in to gently kiss you.
"How are you feeling now?" Steve asks after a moment.
"Much better, thank you" you smile resting your head against his chest.
Later that evening you were all sat in the living room watching a movie together. You smiled as you glanced around even though you were missing many people it felt like the old movie nights you use to have at the tower. You snuggled further into Steve's side feeling yourself fall asleep in the safety of his arms.
Halfway through the movie, you all jumped when you hear the doorbell ring. You all glance around at each other not sure what exactly to do.
"Is anyone expecting someone?" Sam asks as he looks around at everyone.
"Maybe it's Fury? I'll go check" Nat says standing up as she goes she grabs a knife from under a table hiding it behind her back.
You, Steve and Sam all waited for Nat to return or to jump into action. Of all the scenarios you were picturing you weren't expecting her to return followed by Wanda and a tall blonde man.
"Wanda... who's this?" You ask slowly as you sit up.
"Apologises Mrs Rogers for my appearance but I thought it best to disguise myself," the man says and your eyes widen as you recognise his voice.
"Vision?" Steve asks furrowing his brows in confusion.
"Pleasure to see you again Captain" Vision smiles as the disguise melted away to reveal his true appearance.
"I'm sorry if this seems blunt but weren't you trying to shoot us out of the sky a few months ago?" Sam asks "can we really trust you not to rat us out to Ross?"
"You can trust him, we've been communicating for weeks now," Wanda says making your eyes widen.
"What? How?" You ask in surprise.
"I can't really explain it but through this" Vision says tapping the mind stone.
"Right okay" Steve mutters nodding slowly.
"Doesn't necessarily mean we can trust you" Nat says crossing her arms.
"I know but I hope my actions in the past few months speak on my behalf, if I was to tell Ross about your position I would have done so already," Vision says.
The four of you glance at each other sceptically. You really wanted to trust him, but you couldn't help but feel nervous.
"You can trust him I promise," Wanda says taking Vision's hand making Steve raise a brow.
"Okay" you sigh nodding your head.
"Thank you, and I want to express my deepest apologies for the events at the airport" Vision nods gratefully.
"How's Rhodey?" Sam asks.
"He's recovering, Stark built him supports so he can walk again," Vision says as everyone moves to sit back down.
"So will you be staying with us now?" Steve asks as he puts his arm around your shoulders.
"No, I plan to return to the compound, I feel I would attract too much attention to your group so this will be the last time you'll see me" Vision explains weaving his fingers together.
"We thought that I could meet up with him alone?" Wanda says sitting forward.
"I don't see a problem with that, we've all had time away, you'll just have to promise to check in so we know nothing has gone wrong," You say glancing up at Steve.
"Deal, we'll check in as often as you need to" Wanda agrees.
"Great well it's great to see you Vision," Nat says everyone humming in agreement.
You all relaxed as the movie restarted. You shifted back into Steve's side, wrapping your arm around his waist. Steve smiled as he pulled you closer and kissed the top of your head. As the movie played you couldn't help but watch Vision and Wanda and how much closer they now were.
Once the movie was done everyone made their way to bed, vision following Wanda back to her room. You and Steve glancing at each other when you noticed.
"So Wanda and Vision," Steve says as you climb into bed next to him.
"I think it's cute" you smile shuffling closer to him.
"How long do you think it's been going on?" He asks as he wraps his arm around you pulling you closer so your head was resting on his chest.
"I don't know, I think it was a gradual thing, they've always had this connection but I don't think they acted on it until after the accords," you say thinking out loud as you run your fingers over his chest.
"Modern-day Romeo and Juliet" Steve hums.
"Hopefully without the tragic ending," you agree glancing up at him.
"We wouldn't let that happen," Steve says looking back down at you.
"Yeah, we're family" you agree with a sigh resting your head back on his chest.
The 5 of you ended up staying in the Italian safe house for another week. Your mood had considerably gotten better over the week but you still felt lethargic and not completely yourself. So to help cheer you up Steve decided to cook the one meal he could.
Chicken noodle soup.
He visited a small deli a few blocks away to grab everything he needed and started cooking.
"Whoa who let Steve cook?" Nat comments as she walks into the kitchen.
Steve sighed as he glanced over his shoulder "don't worry Nat this is the one meal I can cook" he tells her.
"Forgive me if I don't believe you" Nat smirks as she grabs a beer from the fridge.
"Fine but you better apologise when you realise how nice this actually is," Steve says pointing at the simmering pot.
"Sure" Nat laughs as she walks back out of the kitchen.
Once it was ready Steve called out for everyone to come and grab a bowl.
"You made Chicken noodle soup?" You smile when you realised he was the one cooking.
"Yep, I wanted to help lift your spirits" Steve smiled as he passed you your bowl.
"Spirits definitely lifted" you smile reaching up to kiss him quickly before grabbing your bowl and sitting down at the table.
Nat, Wanda and Sam soon appeared albeit a lot more hesitantly as they took their bowls and sat down. Steve watched as Sam and Nat exchanged a glance before they took their first sip. Steve couldn't help but smirk at the surprised look on their faces.
"I'll take that apology now Romanoff" Steve smirks.
"Smugness doesn't suit you Rogers" Nat retorts making everyone laugh.
Steve couldn't argue though, he was feeling pretty smug that he's proven them wrong. Even if this was the only meal on earth he could cook. He glanced over at you smiling when he saw you smiling at him. He reached out to take your hand squeezing it.
The next morning Steve ended up waking up before sunrise so he decided to go out for a run before the streets got too busy. He wasn't sure how long he'd been out running but the sun was just rising as he got back to the safe house.
As he made his way through to the kitchen he ran into a very pale-looking Nat.
"Of course, you'd be fine, stupid serum" she grumbles when she spotted him.
"What do you mean? Are you okay? You look terrible" he comments his brows furrowed in concern.
"No Steve, you gave us all food poisoning, should have guessed this would happen with your cooking" Nat huffs in annoyance.
"Oh god Nat I'm so sorry, the chicken from the deli must have been off or something" Steve apologises.
"Even Y/N is sick, you took down an Asgardian" Nat says gesturing to the stairs.
"I'm so sorry, I'll make it better I promise" Steve promises.
"You can promise never to cook again," Nat says pointing at him.
"Deal, I won't even step foot in the kitchen" Steve agrees.
"Good, now go because I can see you want to go check on Y/N and I don't want to vomit in front of you" Nat grumbled, Steve quickly turned on his heels and ran up the stairs.
When he ran into the bedroom you shared he instantly heard you throwing up in the bathroom. Rushing into the bathroom he found you hunched over the toilet.
"Shit" he mutters.
He quickly knelt beside you holding your hair out of the way and rubbing your back. Once you stopped being sick you pushed yourself away from the toilet sitting down on the floor opposite Steve.
"Nat wants the murder you" you mutter as he passes you a glass of water.
"I know I ran into her downstairs, I'm so sorry I made you all sick" Steve apologises shaking his head.
"It's okay, I know you didn't do it on purpose", you say with a weak reassuring smile.
"I'm still sorry, how you feeling now?" Steve asks.
"Little better, I'm just tired but I don't trust myself not to be sick again, I don't think I should move from this spot just yet" you sigh shaking your head slightly.
"Okay, not a problem we'll stay here until you feel comfortable enough to move," Steve says standing up.
"You don't have to stay with me Steve," you say shaking your head as you look up at him.
"I want to, the only time I'll leave your side is to make sure the others are still alive, the rest of the time I'll be nursing you back to health," Steve says earning a weak smile from you.
"Thank you Stevie" you smile.
"It's nothing, now stay there while I grab a couple of things," Steve says bending down to kiss the top of your head before heading out of the bathroom.
After a few moments, Steve reappears with a blanket and cushions. He gets you to sit on the cushion before draping the blanket around your shoulders. He then sits down beside you pulling you into his side so your head was resting on his shoulder.
"Get some rest princess," he tells you gently.
"M'kay" you hum already falling asleep.
Like promised Steve spent his time nursing you and the others back to full health. Encouraging you all to eat, getting you fresh glasses of water and cleaning up after everyone. He had to throw out a potted plant when someone didn't make it to the toilet. Thankfully the others were fit and healthy by the following day, but you still felt unwell days later.
You had stopped vomiting by the second day but you still felt nauseous at random points in the day. By day 6 you were fed up with resting as Steve told you to.
"We're starting to run low on supplies" Nat comments as she opens one of the cupboards.
"I'll go to the shops" you volunteer standing up from the kitchen table.
"Are you sure that's a good idea?" Steve says taking your hand to stop you.
"Yeah I'm fine, some fresh air will do me some good," you say with a reassuring smile.
"Okay, do you want me to come with you?" Steve asks.
"No it's fine I'll be more inconspicuous on my own," you say shaking your head.
"Any special requests? Bottle of wine?" You ask as you shrug on your jacket.
"Could you um get me some tampons?" Wanda asks you quietly.
"Of course, not a problem" you smile as you grab your bag "see you in a minute"
Walking through the small supermarket grabbing the food you all needed along with a couple of extras just to spoil yourselves. The last thing you needed to grab was the tampons for Wanda.
As you picked up a box you went to grab some for yourself since you were probably due a period soon. As you put the box in your cart you started to wonder when your last period even was. The last few weeks had been so hectic you were struggling to remember. The most recent one you could actually remember was the first week you and Steve were in Asgard. Your eyes then landed on the selection of pregnancy tests.
"Shit" you mutter to yourself as you bit your lip.
Was there actually a chance you could be pregnant? The more you thought about it the more it made sense. The fatigue and the nausea. The missing period. This really wasn't a good time to be pregnant though. You and Steve had agreed to hold off on starting your future. You were goddamn internationally wanted criminals right now. Could you really raise a child like this?
You tried to convince yourself that you were wrong. That it was just stress or that you had just simply forgotten your last period.
"Fuck" you mutter grabbing a test and chucking it into the cart.
As you left the shop you put the pregnancy test in your handbag so nobody would spot it when you brought the shopping in.
Walking back into the safe house you were instantly greeted by Steve who helped you by taking the bags from you.
"You okay you look like you're worried about something?" Steve asks furrowing his brows in concern.
"Um yeah just uh tired" you lie as you rub your forehead.
"Go lie down then, we can unpack the shopping" Steve smiles putting his hand on your shoulder.
"Okay thank you," you say forcing a small smile.
Steve smiles back down at you kissing your forehead before you step away to head upstairs. Once upstairs you make your way straight into the bathroom pulling the pregnancy test out of your bag. Opening the box you read the section of instructions that were in English. Taking a deep breath you then set about actually taking it.
Once you were done you set it on the side face down. As you waited you began to pace with the bathroom. Trying to work out exactly what to do if it was positive. Your mind instantly turned to Steve, who currently had no idea of the life-changing test that you were currently waiting on.
You started to wonder whether he should be here to see the results with you. If it was positive he should be here to see that, but if it was negative then you could just carry on as normal. But you were worried about how he would react, what if he panicked like you currently were if it was positive. What if he was disappointed it was negative and you had to see that heartbreak. But you still wanted him beside you. You couldn't work out what to do, your head started spinning and you had to sit down. You ran your hands over your face and up into your hair jumping slightly when you heard Steve knock on the bathroom door as he slowly opened it.
"Hey, you okay?" Steve asks crouching down in front of you.
You glance up over at him, biting your lips as you tried to work out what to say.
"I- I brought a pregnancy test" you mutter.
Steve's eyes widen slightly at your admission. His mouth opened and shut for a moment before he cleared his throat.
"What- what did it say?" He asks slowly.
"I don't know, I haven't looked... I'm honestly- honestly too scared to" you admit looking down at your lap.
Steve nods before shuffling to sit beside you. The two of you sit in silence for a couple of minutes as the prospect sank in.
"Why are you scared?" Steve asks after a moment.
"Because this is huge and it's something I know we both want but we said we'd wait and we're on the run and we can't possibly raise a child like this," you say starting to ramble as tears started to collect in your eyes.
"Hey, hey, hey it's okay take a deep breath," Steve says taking your hand and squeezing it.
"I'm sorry" you sniffle wiping away your tears.
"Don't apologise, you have nothing to apologise for" Steve says getting you to look at him.
"Yes okay this isn't the best time but honestly there's no such thing as a good time to start a family," Steve tells you.
"We're criminals Steve, this is the longest we've stayed in one safe house how on earth are we supposed to raise a kid like this" you scoff shaking your head.
"We'll work it out, look let's just take this one step at a time," Steve says gently.
"What do you want the results to be?" Steve asks.
You pause resting your head against the wall as you think about what your answer would be.
"I- I think I'd want it to be positive," you say eventually looking over at Steve.
"I'd want it to be positive too" Steve agrees squeezing your hand.
"And I know that outcome would be more difficult... but we'd work it out, we'll stop and settle down like we talked about in Sudan" Steve suggests shrugging his shoulders.
"We could go to Wakanda," you say thinking out loud.
"Exactly, we'll figure this out, we always do" Steve smiles nudging your shoulder gently.
"We do make a good team" you sigh resting your head on his shoulder.
"Ready to find out if our team is getting bigger?" Steve asks gently.
"Yeah are you?" You ask lifting your head to look at him.
"Yeah, let's do this" Steve nods taking a deep breath.
"Okay," you say taking your own deep breath before reaching up to grab the test.
You hold it in your lap as Steve wraps his arm around you supportively. You take a deep breath as you turn the test over, your breath hitching when you see the small plus sign.
"Woah" Steve mutters under his breath.
"We're gonna have a kid," you say quietly as you look over at him.
"We're gonna have a kid" Steve repeats a smile growing on his face.
"You're gonna be a dad" you smile as tears start falling once more.
"Are you're gonna be a mom" he chuckles pulling you closer so he could kiss your forehead.
"I love you so much" Steve mutters shaking his head gently "both of you"
"I love you too" you smile cupping his cheek and bringing his lips down to yours.
"So what are our next steps?" Steve asks once you pull away.
"Well we should probably see a doctor, find out how far along I am and make sure everything is okay," you say your hand moving to rest on your stomach making Steve smile.
"Okay, so I guess we should go to Wakanda, it would be the safest place with the best doctors," Steve says, you humming in agreement.
"To Wakanda we go" you smile.
"Shall we go tell the others?" Steve asks nodding his head in the direction of the door.
"Sure" you agree with a smile taking his hand and letting him pull you up from the floor.
The two of you walked down the stairs hand in hand, finding the others relaxing in the living room.
"There you are, we were about to crack open the wine without you," Nat says as you and Steve sit down on one of the couches together.
"Do you want a glass Y/N?" Nat asks as she stands up to go grab the bottle.
"No I'm good," you say shaking your head.
"Oh c'mon you brought it, you have to have a little bit" she coaxes.
"I don't think it would be a good idea" you reason shrugging your shoulders.
"Are you still feeling ill?" Sam asks his brows furrowing as he sits forward.
"Yeah, we actually all need to talk about that" Steve says glancing around at everyone.
"What's wrong?" Nat asks glancing between the two of you.
You glance around spotting Wanda who was hiding a small smile as she sat sideways in her chair.
"Nothing's wrong, well I guess it depends on your definition of wrong, but we're very happy," you say looking over at Steve who was failing to hold back his own smile.
You couldn't help but smile back before looking back over at Sam and Nat's confused faces.
"I'm pregnant" you announce smiling back over at Steve.
There was silence for a moment as the news sunk in.
"Oh wow, congratulations guys" Sam smiles shaking his head in disbelief.
"Thank you, we know it isn't the best time but we've wanted this for a while now so we couldn't be happier" Steve smiles squeezing your hand as he smiles over at you.
"Were you guys trying or was this just a happy accident?" Wanda asks.
"Happy accident, guess with everything that's been going on and all the moving about protection probably wasn't used to its full advantage," you say clearing your throat slightly.
"Yeah, you guys definitely weren't practising abstinence" Sam commented making your jaw drop.
"Sam!" You laugh.
"What! The walls in these safe houses aren't the thickest and you guys aren't exactly quiet, I should send you my therapy bill!" Sam laughs shaking his head.
You laugh along with him especially when you noticed how Steve had suddenly gone red in the face. As you laughed along you realise Nat hadn't said anything.
"You okay Nat?" You ask gently.
"Yeah, sorry I was just thinking about the logistics, does that mean you guys are gonna head off on your own," she asks keeping her face neutral.
"No, you guys are our family and we're gonna need you more than ever now if you'll help that is", Steve says reassuring her.
"Right now the plan is to go to Wakanda and get everything checked out and then we'll go from there" you explain.
"But Steve's right, we're gonna need all the help we can get, you two are the closest I have to sisters so I'm gonna rely on you a lot when Steve's breathing ends up annoying me" you add making Nat crack a smile.
"Fine, but if it's a girl you have to name it after me" she smirks.
"Deal" you agree easily knowing that it was something you already considered.