Alone in a loneliness
Fighting back myself
Wishing to win me back from fears
Broken the jail that traps me for so long
While I sit down on the seashore,
I see the ocean that draws me back
With the feeling of anxiety, insecurity, and unreliability
Staying there while the wind blew my the face makes me realize
All of these times, I put all the blames on myself
Who I'm waiting for is not important anymore,
But what I'm going to do is my biggest need
Staying in the same place not gonna change anything
Wishing for the best comes to me not gonna heal me
Healing is not something that I'm looking for
But going forward is a must that I have to do
With or without you
Time is not gonna revolve around me
I have to go out of the dark to see the light
The light will guide me and time heals me
With my potential, my strength, and my ability to do something
Let me start my new story, with pen ink that never runs out
I deserve the best
I should thanks my past which brought me so many lessons
I have to thank you that made me realize my true self, my weakness, and my strength
I still talk to myself in loneliness when I'm feeling down sometimes
But it's okay, it's okay to be not okay cause I'm not a perfect human being
I can't control anything, like the problems that come to me, I just can't control it
But I can still have a chance to win, to win the battle with myself
I'm not gonna let anybody control me
I can never give up
I choose my own way, I give my best to stand
And one day, when I'm looking back, I can see how strong I'm
The girl who still fights in a fragile body
By: Meldy Danus