What's happening to me? Why am I feeling dizzy? This can't be happening...
Time - 3:53 am
I slowly opened my eyes and found myself lying down in the cold floor.. I can feel a really heavy burden in my head.
I moved towards the bed slowly and sat there.
He can't do this to me..he loves me right
The tought of him being with another girl itself is giving me such a hard time.
People might think I'm possessive but no, he is my husband. I have every right to feel angry, sad and disappointed.
Time - 7:25am
I didn't know it became bright outside until I heard birds chirping...
I looked in the mirror and found myself in the worst state.
I never in my life though I would have to experience this, life is really a big crazy roller coaster which could turned my life upside down....
I got up and left for work..
At office
I entered the office and the first thing I noticed was him, even though I received that message yesterday I still haven't completely believed that message. But still something inside me is telling me that message is true.
He was soo focused on his work, he didn't even moved his stare even for a second.
"Hey chuuuu, gud morninggg" Jennie back hugged me as I turned back to face her.
"Good morning nini" I gave her a soft smile "nini, are you free now? I have something to tell you" I asked her which she looked confused..
"Of course, let's go to Starbucks and have a conversation" Jennie claimed.
At Starbucks
"What is it jisooyaa that you want to say? I have noticed some major changes in your behaviour from this morning, is something troubling you?" Jennie sounds soo concerned while asking me this.
"Yesterday someone send me a really disturbing message.." I took a little pause before completing my words "It said that Taehyung was having a mistress who is in my team.." the last words barely came out of my mouth.. just like me Jennie was utter shock, but I could also feel anger in her eyes.
"What do you mean sooyaa? It must have been a prank or something" Jennie tried to convince me that it must have been a prank. Jennie found it soo hard to believe that someone like Taehyung would actually cheat on me..
We were the Romeo and Juliet back then, everyone used to say Taehyung was soo lucky to have me and I was so lucky to have him..
I showed Jennie the message and she noticed something weird..
"Wait sooyaa, this message is from the main devise of our department..and only few of our staffs who knows how to operate it" Jennie looked as shocked as I am, why would someone do this to me..?
"So it means it's either Lisa, Tzuyu, Nayeon, Mark and Jackson or Taehyung himself who did this because they are the only ones except us who knows how to operate it" Jennie explained. I listened to her words carefully and nodded.
At this point the only one I trust in this office is me, myself and Jennie
"Hm, Thankyou Jennieya" these are the only words that came out of my mouth at this moment...
"If you need anything, just come to me okay.." she gave me a tight hug to make sure I was okay..
Time 7:56
I was in my home trying to figure things out when I got a notification from a girl who used to study with me in the university..
Without wasting a single second I opened the chat...what does this mean?
Without wasting another minute I called him.
1 } ring~ring~ring~ : No answer
2 } ring~ring~ring~ : No answer
3 } ring~rin~ : Answer
In call
"It's the second time I'm calling you, why weren't you answering?"
"Jisoo , I have told you before that you should not disturb me while I work"
"Where are you right now?"
"h-huh? What do you mean?"
"I asked where are you currently?"
"a- I am at office "
"Hmm okay"
Call ended
With that said I ended the call and called a taxi...
What did I do to deserve this much of hard time in my life? I haven't hurt anybody or their feeling, why is it always me.
The Trust I used to have in my husband is slowly fading away..
At the Hotel
I entered the lobby and the first thing I saw was my husband standing in the reception paying for the room checkout. A huge dam was opened in my heart making me shiver
He Lied to me
He broke the Trust I had in him
He ended us, our relationship
He doesn't love me anymore
He is cheating on me
I could feel my legs trembling as I found it hard to stand properly.
The way my heart was broken into millions of pieces today that could never be replaced
I slowly sat in the couch placed in the lobby and asked myself "what are you doing jisooya"
I used to know him since highschool. We both were best friends. When my whole family was abroad he used to be my only strength, we were the partners in crime. Everyone was jealous of our friendship and would talk shit behind our back, but it was only until our friendship turned into love..
Even after us officially dating many people would say "they are the perfect example of best friends".
Was I a bad wife?
Did I didn't properly do the needs I should fulfill as a wife?
Did he fell out of love?
Am I not pretty enough to get liked by a man?
All these thoughts were running in my mind until I felt a huge unknot in my heart which made me burst out in tears.
I had to let out all my emotions which had been dying inside me for the past couple of days.
All I was asking myself was "How could he do this to me? Am I not a good wife? Does he hate me that much?"