3rd person POV:
FLASHBACKS: (we are going back to the present.)
Jungkook's heart hurts, so much that he feels like he can barely breathe as he sits tensed up in his chair while the students did their stuff in their seats since it was a free period for which jungkook was a substitute teacher for.
It had been around 10 days since he had fully admitted to himself that he has feelings for taehyung and he had been planning to talk to him about it, he had been talking to his therapist more often and conversing about his feelings more openly to someone who wasn't lilac.. hoseok who had been a great friend to him these past days.
Things were getting really good with Namjoon to the extent that Namjoon just started joking around with him in the same way he usually does where he goes 'let's go on a date, shall we?' But as a joke, he had told him that he has someone in his mind whose thoughts might help him move on soon and he will talk to him about it as well but he needs some time for that.
It was going good for jungkook and he was finally making some progress but, there was this thing that was constantly bugging him, something that he couldn't get out of his head and that was also why he still was unable to talk to taehyung about his feelings.
It was the fact that taehyung had been distancing himself from him. Or maybe jungkook is looking too much into everything but he can not help it. He is insecure when it comes to such things and he had been feeling like he can see him slipping out of his hands right infront of his eyes.
It was not that taehyung was completely avoiding him, not at all.. he had been still exceptionally caring towards him like always, he was still the same loving boy who made sure he was not feeling overwhelmed with his own emotions, the same boy who made sure he didn't mistakenly crossed any boundary.. everything was the same but there was this..
Physical distance that had been building up between them and it was created by taehyung who tried to be subtle about it but it was painfully obvious to jungkook and it was making the ache in his heart increase more and more day by day.. especially when he could clearly see that someone was making advances towards the student in school everyday.
The fear of being replaced was making a house in his chest with each passing second and he could do nothing about it.
It started the day after he had talked with hoseok, taehyung had as usual showed up to his apartment for the classes and after everything that had happened between them the other day when jungkook finally let him in, he had kind of expected him to maybe kiss him the moment he gets there with a smile and though he was a bit disappointed when the boy just smiled at him before he turned his entire attention to the feline.. he didn't let it show and just decided to think that maybe he was moving too fast so he didn't think much of it later.
But then it was a kind of their everyday thing where if they don't have sex, they atleast have a mini makeout session if not much after they're done studying but taehyung initiated none of that so jungkook decided to initiate it first and though taehyung did kiss him back but he could feel the energy was a bit different than usual and taehyung even stopped him pretty quickly and had said that he needed to leave early that day because of something at home.. and though jungkook was a bit disappointed he didn't let it show and let him go, he believed him.
But then.. similar pattern followed each day taehyung was over, he wouldn't kiss him much like he usually did at most random times, he wouldn't let anything lead to anything sexual between them, he would cut it short if jungkook initiated any type of kissing and would try to play it off as smoothly as he can. And though jungkook did believe him at the moment he couldn't help but rethink it all later.
Jungkook would have let it all slide and would not have overthought everything if it wasn't for his own nephew running around the student all the time in order to gain his attention even when taehyung wasn't giving him any of it.
All he could think whenever he would see dae-soo around taehyung was how he was going to replace him now, how taehyung would start liking him better, how he would be a better option for taehyung, how he was not old like he was and was actually similar to taehyung in age.. his insecurities were reaching their peak.
Jungkook remember when taehyung had told him he catches feeling easily, he was extremely scared that taehyung was going to catch feelings for dae-soo now that he was all over him all the time.
And something similar was happening right now as well, because he could see how dae-soo who was sitting right behind the platinum-blonde male was tapping his shoulder time to time and passing him notes sometimes or just randomly smiling at him, jungkook was aware that taehyung was too kind to be annoyed enough by him that he would ask him to fuck off so he was just letting him be and do whatever he wants.
That was making jungkook's heart hurt too much as he quietly looked at them time to time. He wanted to talk about this to taehyung as soon as he could but for some reason the moment he is about to talk about that, he stops for some reason as if words can't find their way out.
And it seemed that the teacher had had enough when taehyung gave in and completely turned around with a smile on his face as dae-soo gave him a flower made out of paper.
"Kim Taehyung! Get up!" Jungkook yelled out in anger, now he knew dae-soo was at fault but his fear of interacting with someone who was connected to his past was more than his professionalism as a teacher.
The students flinched at the sudden outburst of the teacher as taehyung immediately stood up on his feet with wide eyes facing the elder man, his body tensed up as he saw the very clear tears hung up in the man's eyes which he couldn't figure out were of agony or anger.
"Detention after this class. And I'm going to talk to you alone. You have interrupted my class enough. Can you not keep quiet for one damn period? Is that too hard for you to do? Why is it always you who's talking so loudly to other students that it is enough for me to notice? Why can't you sit straight in your freaking seat and are turning around just to talk to other students like that? It's a school, not some playground of yours that you can play whatever you want in class like that. Keep things like this at your home.
This is a class not some dating show where you're exchanging some paper flowers like that in the middle of it. Never. And i repeat, never do this again when it's my who's taking the class, do you understand?" Jungkook had walked towards him when he had mentioned the paper flowers as he snatched them from his hands and threw them in the dustbin making the boy who made them gasp out loud.
Taehyung was shook when he heard the teacher scolding him like that, his voice getting louder and louder by each passing second.. he really felt frozen in his place to even comprehend that he was asked a question and only got out of it when the teacher yelled out..
"I SAID DO YOU UNDERSTAND, MR. KIM?"
"Y-yes. yes sir, i do. I apologise, it will never happen again." Taehyung had his head down as he apologized in a quiet tone to not piss the teacher off even more. He had no idea what was going on with him but he knew it was not something good if it was enough to make him react this way.
And before jungkook could say another word, the bell rang and everyone in the class didn't take a second before they had picked up their stuff and scrambled out of there including yoongi and jimin who patted taehyung's shoulder and looked at him in sympathy but the student just shook his head as in, 'dont worry it's fine.' With that, they too walked out of the room leaving him and the teacher alone there who immediately walked to the door to close it once literally everyone had been gone and taehyung finally looked up at him.
But the moment he did, he was greeted with a glare of the teacher who yanked him by his hand and all of a sudden connected his lips to his own, languidly moving them against him and taehyung couldn't really help himself as his hands went towards jungkook's hips but before he could even hold them, jungkook caught both of his hands and pulled away from the kiss.
"No. You do not get to touch me till I give you the permission, understood. Now go and sit there like a obedient student you are." Jungkook literally growled out to him as he pointed towards his own chair in the room and the younger could feel his mind getting fuzzy as he nodded his head and did what he was asked to do.
"Now, you're going to let me ride you right here in this classroom, you get that?" Jungkook walked towards him and took a seat in his lap and joint their lips back together by pulling him in with his collar.
"Mmh, y-yes sir." Taehyung kissed him back just as feverishly, maybe he had missed him like this just as much even though he was trying to 'move on' from his feelings by keeping as much distance as he could by avoiding anything sexual between them. He had no energy to deprive himself more.
"Good. This. Off." Jungkook demanded tugging on the collar of his shirt as he kissed down the younger's neck who craned it back right away to give him full access.
"Sir.. ugh.."taehyung let him do what he needed to do, seeing how he was clearly pissed off from something. So he unzipped his hoodie and placed it aside, then continued to unbutton his shirt completely.
Instantly jungkook started kissing from his neck to his chest, sucking and nibbling on his skin ever so often to leave dark marks behind and taehyung didn't mind that at all.
"Calm down, hyung.. calm down." Taehyung forwarded his hands towards the elder's waist again but once again he was stopped as jungkook looked up at him with something in his eyes that the younger couldn't comprehend.
"No. No. Get up. This too.. off." Jungkook was acting awfully strange as he got up on his feet and started undoing his own clothes, pointing at taehyung's pants after he had gotten off his lap.
"Are you okay, sir?" Taehyung managed to ask while he pulled down his pants and underwear at the same time and sat back down on the chair with his garments bunched around his ankles.
Jungkook pulled out his wallet and took out a condom from it and chucked it in taehyung's direction who opened it and rolled it over himself even though they don't usually use it, it was a better option now if they don't want to create a mess in the middle of the classroom.
It didn't take long before jungkook was just in his shirt that was also fully unbuttoned as he straddled the younger till his tip was rubbing on his hole.
"Sir, prep?" Taehyung whispered against his lips as they kissed messily, their lips swollen and red covered in spit.
"I'm prepped enough, just fuck me already.. ugh.. fuck." He gave no warning to the younger who groaned loudly when the elder sank down on him till he bottomed out and the teacher moaned out when he felt him deep inside of him.
"H-hyung.. AH." taehyung couldn't hold back the grunt once again when jungkook slowly picked himself up and dropped down back on him, slowly forming a rhythm as he rode him.
"Aren't you such a good darling? Fucking your professor so well, hm? Doing so well like a precious boy you are." The man rasped in the younger's ear as he bounced up and down on his cock, feeling it deep inside himself as he bit on the skin of his student's neck to suppress his moans, his arms wrapped around his shoulders tightly.
Taehyung was aware the man feels the need to be the one in control when he's feeling too strong emotions so he let him have it as he lost himself in the pleasure.
Jungkook's jumps got sloppy quickly as he felt the heat pooling up in the bottom of his stomach, making him let out a grunt he was trying his best to hold. Maybe it was the fact that they hadn't done it in a while that was making him so sensitive.
"G-good, only for you s-sir. Just for y-you." Whispered the younger man as he threw his head back, baring his neck for the elder man to bite on as he released almost inaudible breathy moans, his head was clouded by the pleasure of the warmth that surrounded him and the series of praises whispered by that pretty voice.
"Yes darling, just for me. Just for your sir. Ahh fuck. I am c-cumming, ah shit." The elder moaned out as he released a choked breath when the slender fingers got wrapped around his neglected, red flushed cock that was leaking with precum.
"I got you s-sir. I got you." The student said as he pulled the man closer to himself by the back of his head gently as he pressed his lips against his own, slowly and messily moving them against each other with tongues pressing into the others.
"G-good, keep going. Ah fuck.. keep going.. don't s-.. ahhh." The man's words were interrupted right away as he beautifully arched his back and slumped down on the younger man's body who also Slumped down upon him after filling the condom up to the brim that was still wrapped around him.
"S-sir.. did i do g-good?" The younger man asked in a soft voice as he pulled his head away from the elder's neck, his eyes feeling glossy right now. He was feeling hazed by the post orgasm that he wasn't in his right mind as he asked that, maybe it was just a subconscious thought that was there in the back of his head all this while.
The elder pulled away from his neck as well and cupped the younger's face with both hands and wiped his eyes with his thumbs, then pecked his lips and later forehead as he muttered,"you did amazing, darling. Believe me, okay. You did very good. I am proud of you, taehyungie." Jungkook whispered out, remembering taehyung can get pretty submissive when having sex as well. He needed to slowly bring him down as well just like he always does with him.
He really wanted to curse himself right now for being so angry earlier at the boy and yelling at him like that in front of everyone but he kept the apologising for later, maybe once he finally talks with taehyung about everything that has been going on recently.
Anyways, jungkook saw a small shy smile showing up on the boy's face as a blush formed on his cheeks at that before he puckered his lips once again that were pecked right away.
The teacher was about to say something when he heard some kind of noise outside the classroom they were in,making him and his student panic as he picked himself up from the younger who helped him dress up quickly and dressed himself up as quickly as well.
How could they forget they were in the classroom, if they hadn't been quick enough they would've definitely gotten caught.
Their faces were flushed red as the teacher quickly sat down on his chair where he was getting fucked not even 10 minutes ago and wore his glasses back since he had worn them today with the younger standing infront of him with his bag on his back that he had picked up from his seat, ready to leave as well knowing there was actually no detention anymore. He had put his glasses on as well which were in his desk, he just brought them with him today and just decided to wear them now to hide how his eyes still were teary due to the post orgasm haze. His hoodie was hiding his face and messed up tangled hair while the elder opened up some random notebook from the heaps he had to check so the intruder doesn't notice anything weird.
It was as if their breaths were caught in their throat when the door opened and inside entered a man with a dimpled smile as he walked towards the teacher while chuckling.
"Jungkook-ah, you still haven't left? Did you wait for me so we can leave together, huh?" Was the first thing Namjoon had said in a low and playful flirtatious tone as he leaned on the table near him. This was exactly what jungkook had meant when he said he had started to joke about all that he actually used to mean back then and though jungkook was usually really glad about it, right now was the worst timing for this because he was feeling a bit pissed off right now.
"Uh no? I had a lots of project files to check that's why i was still here, thought i could check some more before i leave."jungkook made an excuse paying no attention to his playful flirty remarks. He couldn't exactly say that he was getting fucked till a few minutes ago that's why he hadn't left.
"But the deadline to check them is 2 weeks later, beautiful. You can take your time checking them, why don't we go for a date till then?" Namjoon asked in a fake pout as he wiggled his eyebrows at him. Jungkook was really resenting Namjoon's unserious personality right now.
Hearing that, the sound of clearing of throat could be heard as a deep voice spoke,"jungkook sir, can i leave now or am I still on detention? I will make sure to not disturb your class next time." Said a monotonous voice as he looked down instead of any of the teachers.
Taehyung could feel a dull ache in his chest at the eldest teacher flirting with jungkook for some reason even when he knew the said man didn't return his feelings. It was just the fact that he was trying to move on from him, but he hadn't succeeded in it at all so he didn't really like when the person he likes was being courted by someone else.
"Yes you can leave and make sure to not be late for the class tomorrow. You know that i don't tolerate disobedience in my class." Jungkook replied in a similar tone while fixing his glasses on his nose.
"Yes sir, have a nice day. I will be leaving." Said taehyung one last time while still looking down before he finally left from there.
He was leaving today because jungkook had told him the other day that he needed to bring lilac to the vet for her monthly checkup today that's why the tuition classes were later in the evening.
Taehyung had his hands clenched into fists as he left from there with his teeths gritted in anger but there were tears forming in his eyes as he walked to his car where the driver was waiting for him.
He wiped them immediately when he noticed them and sighed to himself, as he sat inside the car, the realisation just dawning upon him now that he relaxed finally.
"Shit i did it again. I need t-this to stop. I can't go anymore like this, i need to study more. Right.. i have no right feeling like this." He reminded himself as he sniffled to himself and wiped his eyes once again, staring out of the window.
He really should start focusing on studies more than this, more than dotting onto someone who was not romantically interested in him. Everyday he was allowing himself to just kiss the teacher and that was already enough to keep the romantic feelings bubbling in his heart but he really needed to stop this, he couldn't go on like this anymore but he couldn't stop either. His feelings were a huge mess.
"How did i even get myself into this?" He wondered out loud to himself releasing another sigh, his heart was hurting. He ran a hand through his hair as he took a deep breath.
As much as he needed to know what got the teacher so worked up, he remembered jimin telling him that he needed to prioritise himself more.. maybe it was finally the time he did that and confessed his feelings to jungkook even if he gets rejected.
Somewhere deep down, Taehyung really wished that night hadn't happened, maybe he wouldn't have been hurting himself like this.. that moment keeps repeating in his head like a broken record.. when he had shown up at his apartment and he saw him kissing someone else, every time he remembered that he could feel an arrow piercing his heart.
He hopes it will get a bit better once he finally confesses.
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Thats it for this chapter.
A very small chapter. It's barely 3.7k words but i just wanted to get it back to present already and we are finally here which means there are barely like 4 chapters left.. it's ending soon y'all.
I'm lowkey disappointed in it but neways let me know if y'all want me to add something specific in the upcoming chapters and I'll do it if it fits.
Thoughts→
Till next time...~~