𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐑: ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴘɪᴄᴛᴜʀᴇs ɪɴ ʜᴇʀᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴄᴏʟʟᴇᴄᴛɪᴠᴇʟʏ ᴅᴏɴᴛ ᴍᴀᴛᴄʜ ɪɴ ᴏᴜᴛғɪᴛs ᴏʀ ᴀɴʏᴏɴᴇ's sᴛʏʟᴇ. ʏᴏᴜ ɪᴍᴀɢɪɴᴇ ʜᴏᴡ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀɴᴅ ᴅʀᴇss. ᴛʜᴇsᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴊᴜsᴛ ғᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏᴜᴛʟɪɴᴇ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ sᴛᴏʀʏ
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(F/n) woke up feeling sweaty and out of breath. She huffed quietly, remembering that she was still at Yachi’s house and didn’t want Yachi to lose any sleep over her. She blinked a couple of times, trying to calm herself down, and looked at the alarm clock that sat at Yachi’s nightstand.
2:36 a.m.
(F/n) waited a couple of seconds to make sure Yachi was still sleeping before she rid herself of the blanket and left the room. She opened and closed the door as quickly as she could before taking a deep breath and started walking to the kitchen. In there, she grabbed a glass from the drying rack and opened the fridge to pour herself a glass of water. She took generous sips before setting the glass down as she sighed.
“Don’t cry,” she whispered to herself, “Not here,”
Snippets of the dream flashed behind her eyes and she winched at the painful images.
“You know better,” she told herself, “Nothing like that would ever happen to her,”
She poured herself some more water, took shaky sips, and went over to the sink to wash the cup before putting the pitcher away in the fridge.
‘There goes my sleep for the rest of the week,’ she thought to herself as she walked over to the living room windows of the apartment. She stared at the view, her mind racing as all her thoughts came together all at once.
‘You’re fine,’ she told herself, ‘It’s just a stupid dream,’
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When her clock stroked 3, Yachi felt herself start to come to. She felt groggy and wondered why her body decided to get up at this time. She yawned and sat up, observing her surroundings.
‘(F/n)’s not here,’ Yachi frowned before removing the blanket that laid atop of her to get out of bed. She yawned and stretched her arms before she made her way outside. She opened her door and peeked her head out.
‘Kitchen’s clear,’ she observed and turned her head the other way.
(F/n) was sitting on the couch. Her hands were clasped together, thumbs resting on her chin while her elbows rested on her knees.
“(F/n)?” Yachi gently called out.
(F/n) turned her head, “Hey,” she dropped her hands down, “What are you doing up?”
Yachi walked closer to her, “I noticed you were gone,” she saw that (F/n) had some dried tears on her cheeks, “Is… everything okay?”
(F/n) forced a smile, “Of course, I just couldn’t sleep,” (F/n) breathed out, “You should go back to bed,”
“You need rest too,” Yachi told her.
(F/n) turned her head back, “I’ll be fine, nothing I can’t handle,” she felt her act starting to break, “Really, you should go back to bed,”
Yachi didn’t listen to her. Instead of turned back and making her way to her bedroom, she stepped forward and wrapped her arms around (F/n), pulling her into a hug. If it was a normal setting, (F/n) would’ve been shocked, but because of what happened, Yachi’s hug was much needed. (F/n) held Yachi’s pajama shirt in her hands and gripped it tightly, trying to stop herself from crying. The two of them stayed like that for a while: Yachi rubbed her hands up and down (F/n)’s back/shoulders to comfort her—no words needed to be exchanged as there was a mutual understanding within the silence.
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(F/n) had asked Tsukishima to accompany her for lunch at the rooftop of their school building. Tsukishima had no reason to decline so he agreed.
“You look like you got hit by a bus,” Tsukishima said as he sat down on the bench next to (F/n).
(F/n) sighed, “I feel like I did,”
Tsukishima noticed her demeanor, “What’s wrong?” he opened his bento, “You never ask to hang out unless you’re having a crisis,”
“Sue me for wanting to spend time with my favorite cousin,” (F/n) took a bite out of her onigiri.
Tsukishima rolled his eyes, “What’s wrong?”
(F/n) swallowed her bite, “I had a nightmare last night,”
Tsukishima started eating his food so (F/n) could explain.
“Yuri was in it,” (F/n) recalled the dream, “I… had to choose between her and Yachi,” she didn’t want to explain the dream in full detail, “It was similar to the situation I was in before Yuri got arrested,”
Tsukishima swallowed his food, “Did you choose?”
(F/n) nodded, “I told Yuri I’d choose her if it meant Yachi would be released unscathed,” Tsukishima could see (F/n) start to shake, “I told her I’d give her the life I promised her as long as she let Yachi go,”
Tsukishima waited, “And then what?”
“Yuri agreed, but Yachi was still harmed in the process,” (F/n) winced at the memory of the end of the nightmare.
Tsukishima waited a couple of minutes to process the dream and what the meaning of it could be. (F/n) continued eating her food, despite not really having much of an appetite.
“I can tell you two things,” Tsukishima said, “One: you love Yachi, way more than you’d admit or realize,” (F/n) didn't bother retaliating, “And two: you also know the reality of the situation if you two were to get together, and your brain is trying to warn you of what may happen if Yuri finds out,”
(F/n) took in everything he said, “So, there’s no hope for me and Yachi having peace, huh?”
Tsukishima shook his head, “I didn’t say that,” he closed his bento and placed it on the bench, “Look, there’s no reason you and Yachi shouldn’t date. But, Yachi needs to know the truth about everything,” Tsukishima explained, “She needs to know about the baggage that you carry before you two start dating,”
“Isn’t it unfair?” (F/n) looked at him, “She has nothing to do with what happened to me last year,”
“But it’ll come back to haunt the both of you if you leave her in the dark,” Tsukishima said nothing but the truth, “You know that more than anyone,”
(F/n) bit her lip, “Is it even worth it?”
Tsukishima shrugged, “No one said love was easy, but they always say it’s worth it,”
(F/n) raised her eyebrow at him, “There’s no way you actually said something like that,”
Tsukishima scoffed, “Fine, guess I won’t give you any advice or encouragement,” he stood up.
“Sit down,” (F/n) told him, “I’m kidding.
Tsukishima sat back down.
“Thank you,” (F/n) gave him a half smile, “For putting up with me,”
Tsukishima sighed, moved his hand, and ruffled (F/n)’s hair, “No problem,”
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It was nighttime and (F/n) and Yachi had finished eating dinner at the apartment. (F/n)’s mind was all over the place and she needed something to help her calm down.
“Hey Yachi,” (F/n) placed her book down, “I think I’m going to go for a walk,”
Yachi turned herself around in her desk chair, “A walk?” she looked at the time, “Isn’t it too late for that?”
(F/n) shook her head and stood up from her futon, “Nope, I go on walks at night all the time,” she rummaged through her bag to find her jacket, “I won’t be gone long,”
“Wait,” Yachi impulsively got up from her desk chair and opened her closet to grab her jacket, “I’ll come with you,”
(F/n) was surprised by this, “Are you sure? I mean, it’s kind of dangerous,”
Yachi put her jacket on, “If it’s dangerous, why do you go?”
“Touche,” (F/n) knew she wouldn’t be able to stop her, “Alright, come on,”
Yachi smiled and the two of them exited the apartment to start their walk.
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(F/n) and Yachi ended up on the bridge that was above the main roads going in and out of town. They stayed there for a while, watching the cars come and go.
“About last night,” (F/n) started the conversation, “I apologize for making you lose sleep,”
“It’s okay,” Yachi reassured her, “You had a nightmare, correct?”
(F/n) kept her eyes on the flow of traffic, “How’d you know?”
“Tsukishima,” Yachi answered.
‘Damn bastard,’ (F/n) made a mental note to kick him in the shin the next time she sees him, “I get them all the time,”
Yachi frowned, “Is that why you have a hard time sleeping?”
(F/n) nodded, “Yep,”
“Have you seen a doctor about it?” Yachi figured (F/n) had but decided just to ask.
“I have, but taking sleeping meds with the antidepressants I'm on can mess up the effects of the antidepressants,” (F/n) explained, “Unfortunately, the best way I can guarantee sleep is just waiting till I pass out of exhaustion,”
Yachi didn't like that, “But that isn't good,”
“I'm aware,” (F/n) looked at her, “But there's not much I can do,”
Yachi wasn't happy with that answer. She thought of other ways that could help (F/n) sleep.
(F/n) chucked, “Hey, don't stress yourself about my sleep,”
Yachi shook her head, “There must be something that will make you fall asleep,”
(F/n) gave her a half-smile, “It’s not really about me falling asleep,” she sighed, “It’s what I see in my sleep,”
“Have there been times when you’ve slept just fine? No nightmares?” Yachi asked.
(F/n) had to think, “There’s been a handful of times,”
“Like when?”
“Well,” (F/n) felt her cheeks heat up, “The first night I was here, I slept fine,”
Yachi’s eyes widened, “Really?”
(F/n) nodded, “Yep, I slept like a baby, actually,”
A considerable silence passed between the two while Yachi formulated a plan.
“How about this,” Yachi looked at (F/n), “You should come over on Sundays so you can fall asleep okay enough to get you through the rest of the week,”
(F/n) looked at Yachi in shock, “A-are you sure?”
Yachi realized her straightforwardness and started regretting suggesting the idea, “I mean, if you want, you don't have to,”
(F/n) smiled, “I'm willing to try whatever it takes,”
Yachi blushed and scratched the back of her head, “Okay, we can start this Sunday,”
“Sounds like a plan,” (F/n) confirmed before looking back at the highway scenery once more, feeling more at peace than how she felt at the start of the walk.
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The sun started rising and it was now Saturday morning. Yachi passed out right when she and (F/n) got home from their walk while (F/n) camped out in the living room. She worked on finalizations for some of her songs for the rest of the night before she saw the sun starting to rise. (F/n) waited until nine o’clock to start making pancakes for her and Yachi’s breakfast.
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(F/n) mixed the bowl of pancake mix as she waited for the pan on the stove to get hot. She then heard the sounds of keys unlocking the front door which meant that Yachi’s mom was home.
‘Huh, I thought she’d return later tonight,’ (F/n) thought to herself as she finished stirring the pancake mix.
“I’m home,” Madoka, Yachi’s mom, announced quietly.
(F/n) left the kitchen for a quick second to greet her, “Welcome home,” she bowed her head while Madoka was removing her shoes.
“Oh, (F/n),” Madoka gave her a quick smile, “You’re still here,”
“Yep,” (F/n) smiled back, “I’m making breakfast, have you eaten already?”
Madoka shook her head, “I have not,”
“Would you like some? I’m making pancakes for Yachi and me,” (F/n) said as she went back to the kitchen to start cooking the pancakes.
“Sure,” Madoka agreed and she walked into the apartment and got settled on the counter, putting her bags down and opening the fridge to get a drink.
Madoka poured herself a glass of water and watched as (F/n) was cooking the pancakes. She noticed the remnants of (F/n)’s bruises and scaps from her situation at the beginning of the week. After taking a couple of sips of water, she decided to spark a conversation.
“You and Hitoka seem to have quite a relationship,” she started.
(F/n) turned her head, “What do you mean?"
“Pardon me for intruding, but I can see the way you both look at each other,”
“Oh,” (F/n) felt her ears turn red, “Are you… uncomfortable with it?”
Madoka shook her head, “Not at all,” she smiled slightly, “I’m actually relieved, Hitoka has always been closed off, it’s kind of my fault for that, so I’m glad she’s been getting closer to you and she’s taken a liking to you,”
(F/n) felt herself smile at this.
“But,” Madoka moved closer to (F/n), resting her shoulder on the fridge as she leaned against it, “I know that you come with a lot of baggage,”
(F/n) nodded, “You’re not wrong,”
Madoka glanced at (F/n)’s knuckles, “I’m not against you dating my daughter,”
(F/n) looked at Madoka.
“The only thing I’m asking you to do is to tell her the truth,” Madoka said firmly, “She needs to know everything,”
(F/n) looked down at her knuckles, “I know,” she then looked back at Madoka, “And in time, I will,”
“Mom? (F/n)?” Yachi’s voice startled the two and they both turned their heads.
“Well good morning,” Madoka said with a slight smile.
“You’re home early,” Yachi stated.
“I am,” Madoka nodded.
(F/n) smiled, “I made breakfast, as promised,” she placed the last pancake onto the tray of pancakes and turned the stove off.
Madoka grabbed the plates from the cupboards and set them on the dining table. The mother and daughter duo sat down first while (F/n) brought the pancakes.
“I hope you guys enjoy,” (F/n) said as she sat next to Yachi. They all served themselves to the pancakes.
“Wow,” Yachi said after taking a bite, “These are really good!”
“I agree,” Madoka said, pleased with the flavor.
“I’m glad you guys like them,” (F/n) smiled at them, thankful they liked her cooking.
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“Thank you so much for letting me stay,” (F/n) bowed in front of Madoka.
“Of course,” Madoka smiled, “Thank you for taking care of my daughter while I was gone,”
“Mommm,” Yachi whined in embarrassment.
Madoka laughed, “You’re welcome to come over whenever you like, my home is yours,”
(F/n) smiled graciously, “Thank you,”
“Come on, I’ll walk you down,” Yachi mumbled while dragging (F/n) out of the apartment.
The two ventured down the apartment building in silence and made it outside and to the bus stop.
“Get home safe,” Yachi told (F/n).
“I will,” (F/n) smiled at her, “I’ll be seeing you tomorrow night anyway,”
“Right,” Yachi nodded.
The bus soon arrived and those waiting started getting on it. (F/n) debated on doing something before Yachi left. Despite the conflicting voices in her head, she boldly leaned down and kissed Yachi’s cheek before getting on the bus and waving goodbye to her. Yachi froze as her entire body turned red in shock and her heart palpitated. She watched as (F/n)’s bus slowly drove away before she finally processed what had just happened.
‘I need to call Kiyoko,’ she told herself as she ran back to the apartment.
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ending was a little rushed but I hope y'all enjoyed<33