Dear Nathan,
How are you? It's been a long time since I took my diary and wrote you letters, life is getting harder, school specifically, I am tired and drained and I'm glad we got through the first semester, I'm sure you did wonderful, you've always done, smart by nature.
Looking at you from afar started to be normal, but every time I do it I just wonder what it would be like if we actually talked after all these years, would it be awkward? Absolutely, but I'll be the happiest person. I'll also be a blushing mess that's a fact by the way hhhhh.
Sam and I are back to talking with each other, not as we were in the past always fighting and joking around but you can say we can pull off a conversation, he still teases me but now it's like I calmed down a bit and I act differently with guys because I don't want to get attached with anyone anymore not after you.
A lot of guys asked me out but I declined or rejected them, my heart only wants one person, and that person is you, but now it's getting harder to have courage, I feel as time passes it's getting harder to approach you.
I know you don't have feelings for me and I know that since day one, I just want time to come back as it was, just being friends, never thought we would come to this not gonna lie, if only I kept talking, if only I fought for the friendship, but it's okay, I'm starting to accept my fate.
Have a great time Nathan, I miss you.
-Hailey