Alessandra's POV
*Dream*
Run run run
Clock is ticking
Blood is spilling
Your fear I'm eating
You think you can hide
Dont make me laugh
I'll always catch you
My dear. Nobody
Will save you
Everybody will hate you
Hahaha the world will
Despise you
Remember my words
Murderer.
Monster.
No one will love you
No one will help you
Its you and only you
Take the hit
Your lip will split
Your skin will rip
Your blood will drip
From how hard the whip hits
I'll catch you
There is no where to go
No where to hide
People will die
Blood will be shed
So when your fully grown
I'll come for you again
You are my slave
I'll break you
I'll make you forget your name
Stupid girl
I'll make you regret
I'll show you who is boss
I'll engrave my name upon your skin
I'll beat you till your black and blue
You will soon be mine
So run. Run as fast as you want
But you will get no where
Run run run
I'll still catch you
*End of dream*
I woke up gasping and sweating. Those words. The haunting voice. When will it stop. I sat in my bed staring at the wall in front of me. Remembering the scars on my body.
"Monster. Murderer." Those words. Those names. I remember him engraving them on my skin. My back is bumpy from the whips. The scars are a reminder of what i am. I killed them. I'm a monster. I'm a murderer. I have shed blood. I have sinned. I shouldn't have gotten close to him. I should have let Jack ignore me. But i wanted his warmth. I'm becoming selfish. I want him to be mine. Yet i want to keep him safe.
He tells me he's not good for me. But its the other way around. I'm the one who isn't good for him. My life is tainted and he is too pure for my life. He is my safe place. His arms are my armour. His body is my shield. His heart is my weakness. His words. His face. His eyes. Everything about him. From his raw heart to his soft voice. His harsh words to his warmth. Everything about him i want. I want him to become mine. I want him to mark me as mine and i as his. But i can't. I'll just love him from the sides. I'll protect him from afar. Because I've come to realize that, I love him.
I walked downstairs to make breakfast but i heard a knock on my door. I walked over and opened the door. I allready knew who it was. His scent is intoxicating. Mouthwatering. "You really shouldn't open the door without asking who it is." I smiled and moved so he could get in. I closed the door. "I'll be back. You woke me up so i haven't brushed my teeth and showered." I started walking to the stairs but screamed when i got lifted off the ground. I heard him chuckle. Then his huskie voice whispered in my ear, "Well i can help you with the shower." His voice sent a shiver down my spine. He smirked and started carrying me upstairs. I crossed my arms and huffed. "I can walk upstairs by myself you know." "But what kind of boyfriend would i be if i let my princess walk on the cold floor with her delicate feet?" I felt myself blush at his words. Wait. Boyfriend?
I looked at him, "Is that what you are? Then am i your girlfriend?" He chuckled, "Yes. Your my girlfriend." I looked down and smiled but decided to play a dangerous game with him. I know his temper. "But. What if i told you that i allready have a boyfriend?" I felt him tense and before i know it I'm thrown on the bed making me squeal. I felt him get on top and growled, "Your mine. No one else's. I told you yesterday who you are. I told you i will never let you go. Even if you get sick of me. You're mine and mine only." Then i felt his hot breath and soft lips on the crook of my neck. He started sucking and i gasped. I knew he was leaving hicky's. Marking me as his. I started getting hot. I gasped when he found my sweet spot and let out a moan. I quickly put my hand over my mouth. How could i do that?! I just moaned at the touch of this man?! He held my hand and took it away from my mouth, "Don't hold it in. I want to hear you." He started leaving kisses on my neck all the way down to my chest. I gasped at the contact of him as he trailed his hand up my shirt and started cupping my breast. I gasped then let out a moan. I was feeling very hot on the bottom. I needed his touch. He took my shirt off and started sucking my nipple. I gasped and moaned as his hot breath and tongue started sucking my hard nipple. Then with his other hand he spread my legs and started rubbing my underwear. I could allready feel myself getting wet. "You like that babe?" I just nodded as his fingers started rubbing me making me arch my back. He then started rubbing my core and i couldn't take it anymore. "Let it out. It's okay. You'll feel better when you do." He kept rubbing harder and i felt something funny in my stomach then i peed.
I hid my face from the embarrassment. He took my hands, "Hey. Its okay. That was just your first orgasm." I was panting. I smiled, "I have to get up and brush my teeth and take a shower." He chuckled and got off of me. I ran to the bathroom and closed the door. I heard him laugh. I quickly brushed my teeth and relaxed in the hot water. I got out and forgot a towel. I opened my door a little, "Jack?" I called his name to check if he was in my room. When i didn't hear him i tiptoed to my closet but gasped and let out a yell when i heard his voice, "I know you want me. But if you keep coming out like that i won't be able to restrain myself." I heard the bed creack and then i felt him close to me. His hands cupped my cheeks and his voice sounded, angry? "Who did this to you?" I was confused at first then i remembered my scars on my body. Especially the ones on my back. The words carved on my skin. I looked down. I wanted to curl up in a ball and just stay like that. "Alessandra. Who. Did. This. To. You."
*play the song*
I just shook my head. I cant bring him into this. I can't. He let me go and i could hear his breathing quickened. Then i heard a loud bang. I jumped and put my hands out to feel him. I don't want him to hurt. I grabbed his hands that were balled in fists and i could feel something sticky on his knuckles. Blood. Tears pricked my eyes. I pulled his hand up to my lips and kissed his knuckles. I didn't care that they had blood. I didn't like the feeling of him hurting. I looked up. Hoping he was looking at me. I took my other hand and carefully touched his cheek, "Please. Please. Please don't hurt yourself. Please." He wiped my lips probably from the blood that probably got on them and then softly started kissing me. He wrapped his arms around my bare back. Then i remembered that i was naked. I gasped, "Wait! I-i-im naked." I quickly got out of his arms and put on some clothes. I heard him chuckle. But then he stayed quiet. "How do you know what to wear?" I finished putting on my shirt and some shorts. But then i remembered the scars on my legs. I started taking them off but i felt his hand stop mine. "Don't. You look beautiful with them on." I looked down and whispered, "How do you see beauty? Just by feeling my scars. I find them disgusting." He took my chin and raised my head to face him, "Don't ever say that. You are beautiful. Your scars tell your story. Your a strong girl. Your mine."
He wouldn't tell me where we were going. It was nice and warm outside. I put the window down letting the sun kiss my face and the wind blow my hair. I felt him hold my hand, making me blush. After a while he stopped the car. I got out as well. I could hear water and smell salt water. "Take your shoes off." I did as he said. The floor was burning. I started hopping. I heard him laugh then he picked me up making me squeal.
He started walking. I could then hear the waves of the ocean. I've never been to the ocean. I don't know what sand felt like either so when he let me down i was suprised at how warm and comforting the sand was under my feet. The breeze and the sound of the waves were comforting. For a while i felt free. I took his hand and started walking forward until the water touched my feet making me gasp from the coldness of the water.
I started jumping. Jack started laughing. A real laugh. No smirk. But a real laugh from the bottom of his heart. It was beautiful. Sexy. Enchanting. I heard him cough, "I know I'm sexy but you don't have to stare." I blushed and looked away and smiled. "That's funny badboy, cuz i can't see." He held my chin with his thumb and pointer finger, "But i can. And what i see in front of me is a breath taking angel that i would rather keep hidden from this tainted world." I smiled and then his soft lips were on mine. It was a soft peacefull kiss with love.
We pulled apart for air. I was smiling but then frowned and looked down. He grabbed my chin again, "What is it angel?" I touched his cheek, "If only you knew. I wonder. If you knew the whole truth about me. I wonder if you will leave me? Will you find me disgusting? Will you see the scars with disgust? Jack, my world is tainted. My hands are tainted. I'm not good for you. I don't belong in this world. Your too good for me. You belong with someone who will be able to give you love without feeling broken." He stopped me and cupped my cheeks, "You don't seem to understand my words when i say that i see an angel in front of me. It's me who you shouldnt be around with. I am tainted. I only seen darkness. But when i saw you i saw a speck of light get through. To be honest. I started hating you. You started crumbling the walls that i have tried so hard to keep. You came into my life and in my heart without you even realizing it and i can't seem to stay away. I've fallen deep in love with you and i rather die then see anything or anyone hurt you. You're mine. And mine only. Even if you get sick of me i will always be beside you. Principessa."
Wait. Principessa? "Jack? Was that italian?" He chuckled, "Sì. It means princess. That is what you are to me. You are my princess." I smiled. "I speak spanish and Italian. My mother was Hispanic and my father was italian. I only speak italian when i have to. Dont get me wrong i love my language i just haven't spoken it in a while." Not since the day of my parents death. "Your parents." I froze. I remember telling him about them. He hugged me tightly. We stood there holding each other for a while then i decided to get closer to the water. We started swimming around well he started swimming i was on his back. I didn't know how to swim. "How about i teach you how to swim?" "But-" i started to remind him that i don't like not being able to feel anything touching my feet, but he stopped me by putting his lips on mine, "Don't let the fear of not being able to see stop you from being free." I giggled. What the hell?! Seems to me that I'm going to be doing that a lot when I'm around him. "Who knew the badboy could be a softie with wise words." He growled, "I'm not getting soft. Just for you babe." We swam a little longer then went to eat. The water tired me out so by the time we went home i was allready half asleep. I felt him pick me up. He grabbed my keys and opened the door then took me upstairs. I decided to get up and take a shower. Its uncomfortable sleeping feeling wet and smelling like ocean water with sweat. I got in the shower then felt arms wrap around my waist making me gasp. He whispered in my ear, "Saves water." I could feel my cheeks heat up. I probably looked like a tomatoe right now.
"I'm going to wash your hair." He started massaging my head with soap then he rinsed my hair. Then he gently washed my body as if i was made of glass. It made me feel loved. His strong hands were gentle leaving my body hot wherever he carressed my body with his fingertips. After finishing with me i did the same to him. He helped me by putting the shampoo in my hand. I started doing the same thing to him. I loved the way his hair felt. After a while we got out.
We changed into comfortable clothes to sleep in. He brought clothes with him knowing he was going to spend the night. We laid in bed. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me to him. We were pretty much spooning. I turned around and snuggled in his chest then let the darkness take over, but before sleep came i heard him whisper, "I love you. Principessa." I felt a kiss on my forehead then sleep took complete control and i fell in a peaceful dream.