An Hour Earlier
I sighed knocking on Erica's door hoping she would answer. It's been a few days of not talking to my best friend and I missed her. I had Jace on my hip and Morgan to the side of me. She couldn't turn us down. "Come on Erica, I know you're in there," I said.
"Who is it? She answered.
"It's me" I spoke. "Me who? She asked. I rolled my eyes. "You know who it is... come on, open the door" I begged. "I don't want to talk to you," she said. "I brought you some cupcakes and a milkshake from chic fil a," I said. She quickly opened the door with her hand on her hip. "Hey" I smiled
"Hi, Morgan... Hi, Jacey" she took him from me. "Godmommy missed you so much," she said planting him with kisses. I walked in closing the door behind me. Morgan made herself comfortable eating her food. "Can we talk? I asked. She shrugged her shoulders as I followed her to her kitchen. She grabbed her milkshake drinking it. "I just want to tell you that, I hear your concerns and I know you're just being a good friend but I have to do what's best for me," I said. She didn't say anything, she crossed her arms.
"I shouldn't have spazzed out on you like that. I just know the kind of guy he is, he's a gangster basically. I don't want you to get used" she said
I sighed "I have days when I feel like he'd hurt me but then he just makes me feel secured kinda. It's weird like of course I feel safe around him-
"Yeah until you do something he doesn't like" she finished. "I know but I have to sacrifice for mine. That's just what it is" I said.
"I hear you, I mean you're right. I'm not a single parent and I don't have a sibling to take care of. I have family and I forgot about your struggles. I just don't want anything to happen to you" she said getting emotional. "Aww, Erica you're gonna make me cry" I hugged her. "I love you, you're my best friend Jo. You deserve the fucking world and I don't want him to take that away from you" she said as we both let go. I wiped her eyes "He offered to pay for Morgan's tuition" I said.
"Oh shit, well bitch maybe this may work out," she said and I began to laugh. "I didn't make a decision on it. He's given me so many handouts and I don't want to be reminded of all the things he's done for me" I sighed.
"I still hate this whole idea but... Morgan is a special little girl. She's going to flourish regardless of what kind of school she's in but it'll be good for college it is K-12" she said
I sighed "Yeah, I'll just pay him back in a few years" I laughed. "That'll work... well let me see the ring," she said. I slowly lifted up my hand. "I'm about to take it off," I said.
"Wow, It's gorgeous," she said. "It is.... I just hope one day. I'll really get engaged, it kind of sucks because I can't really date like that. Probably now but once people start knowing about this little scam my dating life will be over" I whined.
"Hey, its only temporary right"
"Right, plus I have a backup if this shit blows up in my face," I said. "That's my girl," she said. "Well, um. I gotta head home-
"To your daddy" she joked. I rolled my eyes "Bitch bye" I said. "I gotta get Morgan ready for school and you know how that works"
"How is it? She likes living there"
"Girl does she. She and Ricky are best friends as soon as she sees him she doesn't know who the hell I am" I said
"That's cute... well I ain't scared of his family. So if anything goes down you let me know" she said. "You already know," I said hugging her. "Come on Morgan," I said.
"Bye Erica" she waved. "Bye Morgie" she smiled hugging her. I picked up Jace and opened the door. I was greeted by Raymond standing there. I was caught off guard, how did he find me and by the looks on his face he was livid. "We gotta talk," he said. I turned around handing Jace back to Erica while she mugged him and Morgan sat back down. I turned back facing him. "What? I asked. I felt a hard hit on my face. I gasped in pain not ready for what had come. "Bitch you wanna wreck my fucking car" he yelled. "Hm," he gritted his teeth. He pulled me towards him. "Get the fuck off her" Erica screamed trying to hit him but he pushed her. I heard Jace and Morgan screaming in the background. "Get the fuck off me" I tried swinging up but he ended up pushing me against the wall. "You got me so fucked up, you wanna go this route imma have your broke ass pay every last cent"
"You worthless bitch," he said. I swear once he said that. I lost it I started swinging, swinging from left to right. "Bitch" he tackled me on the floor and I was being dragged by my hair. Erica jumped on him putting him in a chokehold. I kicked him in his private area watching him scream in pain. "Fuck you, you wanna hurt me. You do this in front of your son. What kind of man are you? I yelled. He got Erica off and he attacked me again hitting me again. The door opened and Erica's boyfriend came in. "Yo, what the fuck" he yelled pulling him off. "She fucking wrecked my car, she messed with friend. She ain't shit" he yelled. I was deeply saddened those words cut deep and I felt like I was about to pass out. I felt blood drip from the corner of my mouth. I had so much anger towards him that he had to know.
"Bitch fuck you, you're a low down loser" Erica screamed. "Fuck you and that car. You care more about that car then your actual son that you've been denying since the day he was fucking born. I didn't sleep with your friend... he tried to rape me and you still can't see past that. You're a weak excuse for a man, you put your hands on me. I had your baby... and now you got some stripper bitch pregnant a fucking hoe that gets passed around and you wanna talk down to me. Fuck You, Raymond. You won't ever see Jace a day in your fucking life. I'm changing his last name to mine. I hope you fucking die" I yelled.
"Get the fuck outta here man," Adrian said. Raymond calmed down storming off. Erica tended to me. "Oh my gosh... I am so sorry" she said. "I'm okay," I said but I wasn't. My face hurt and I was embarrassed that Morgan had to see that. She was terrified. Adrian gave me a wipe to wipe my face. "Tell Ricky," she said.
"No... I'm not comfortable" It didn't make sense to tell someone that used to hit women that you've gotten hit. I got up "I'm okay, I just want to go home," I said. Ricky stays out half the night and I can sleep it off and he won't know a thing. "Oh my god. call me as soon as you get home" she said handing me a bag of ice.
Adrian walked us to the car making sure the coast was clear. "Jo, I'm sorry you're going through this," he said.
"It's okay... I'm going to be fine" I said.
"That guy you're staying with. I heard he's solid... you should tell him. I know he'd handle it" he said. I half smiled "Thanks Adri... I'll see you around" I said walking to the car. I hooked Jace in his car seat; I could tell Morgan was upset and it pissed me off because she'll never forget that.
"Morgan... I'm sorry" I said before closing the door. I got in the car and I instantly broke down. I placed my hands over my face crying my eyes out.
"Josie don't cry," Morgan said looking at me. She was just as sad as I. I quickly wiped my eyes. "It's okay Morgan I'm fine... really"
I heard her unbuckle her seat belt. She climbed to the front getting on top of me to hug me. I tried to stop crying but I couldn't. "It's okay Josie... I'm here" she said. I cried some more hugging her back.
Kamaya
I sat in the car with Kasey talking to him while he smoked his blunt. He even asked me if it was okay for him to in his own car. I was still high enough that I didn't need to smoke anything. I don't even think he would allow me to if I asked. Either way, I thought it was nice of him. I sat back listening to the music played on the radio. It began raining as I stared out the window.
"That's crazy that you met Ricky along time ago. It's crazy how life works" I said.
He laughed "Yeah, I got a glimpse of him because our team beat his team a few times" he laughed. "You probably were cute in your jersey... getting all the ladies," I said.
He laughed "Yeah, I did," He said showing me a picture on his phone. "Aww you were a stick," I said.
"That didn't matter, I was still kicking ass," he said. "What about you? He asked.
"Ehh if I could redo my younger years. I would I didn't go to college. I had a baby very young because I was being a fast ass. I met my baby daddy through my dad, he didn't have a family and we hit it off" I explained
"If I could change some things I would too but its life. I would've tried to have kids now that I'm more stable. My daughter is 13 now" he said.
"Oohh you better watch out. You're about to have a 14-year-old" I said.
"I know, I damn near cried when I had to take her to the store to get pads. I had to call my baby momma on the phone; I was having an anxiety attack" he joked
"Aww, that's so sweet. Ain't nothing like your babies" I said. "You're right," he said
"You want more? I asked him. "Yeah, I wouldn't mind a boy," he said. "You? He asked. "No" I answered quickly. "My bad... I didn't mean to-
"It's okay," I told him. I sighed "One day Rudy and I was walking outside with our son. Someone had a hit out for him and-
I wiped my eyes "You don't gotta tell me-
I took a breath "They shot my son, they meant to shoot Rudy but they shot Khaden and I've never been the same since" I wiped the tear from my eye.
"I never grieved or anything. I just worked; I continued to try to satisfy my father. I just feel like a horrible mother. That wasn't supposed to happen. I let that happen to him, he'll never be able to experience life. He was robbed of it so young"
"Is that why you cut yourself? He asked.
"It makes me feel better" I admitted twiddling my fingers.
"Damn," he said. "It's not your fault Maya, sometimes unfortunate things happen. You can't beat yourself about it.. it was nothing you could do about it" he said
"Yes it was, I shouldn't be in this lifestyle. Had I removed myself completely away from my family and its drama. He'd still be here. It's my fault"
What she said had him thinking? Why was he even putting himself in this environment?
"You can't blame how you were brought up babe. Even if you were to go on a hiatus the lifestyle still could've caught up to you. Maybe... maybe he didn't deserve to be brought up in this..maybe GOD wanted better for him" he said.
I sniffled "I never thought of it that way"
"I hope I'm not sounding insensitive or anything," he said.
"No... but it hurts so bad and then Rudy cheating and lying to me was just the icing on the cake" I began crying. He took his keys out his car. "Maya... I'm sorry" he said getting out. She got out the car as they walked into her home. They both went in and he embraced her in a hug.
"I'm sorry," she said letting go. He pulled her back in. "It's okay... I'm here for you ight"
She finally let go "I shouldn't have told you all of this," I said. "You good, everybody need somebody to vent to," he said wiping my tears. "Imma head out, let you get some sleep," he said kissing my forehead. I blushed "Okay, thank you for taking me out," I said.
"You're welcome, that's the standard...they'll be more to come. You be good though" he said. "Okay," I smiled opening the door for him. "I'll facetime you in a bit," he said before walking to his car. Butterflies were all through my stomach. He listened to me, actually listened and he was here for me. The door knocked and I knew it was him. "Yeah? I asked. He pulled me by the waist and pulled me towards a kiss. It was gentle, slow but yet firm. He didn't have to drown me with his tongue. He squeezed my waist before he let go. He caressed my chin one last time before he let go.
"I'll see you around slim," he said walking back in his car. "Damn," I said to myself closing the door.
Ricky
"Shit Ricky" she whined with her head pressed against the counter. I roughly pulled her up thrusting harder. "What was all that shit you were talking? Huh?
"I'm sorry"
"You what?
"I'm sorry Ricky" she screamed.
Josie
I pulled up to his home to see a car parked in front of his house. I didn't pay too much to it. Ricky has company from time to time probably one of his boys. I pulled into the garage. "Shit" I said to myself just realizing he was home. If I step inside their he's going to question it and I didn't feel like the questions. I took my brush and makeup set from out my bag. I brushed my 20-inch curly weave swinging it. I then took my dry beauty blender and added some concealer to the bruise under my eye. "Much better," I said looking in the mirror.
"Hey, Morgan," I said placing my items back in my bag. "Yeah" she answered.
"Don't tell anyone this happened okay?" I said closing my compact mirror
"Okay, I won't," she said. "Alright," I said getting out the car. I was such in a shitty mood. My head and eye hurt. My back was on fire from being tackled on the ground and know I had to walk around like everything was okay. I walked to the door beginning to open the door but I heard a loud moan not hoping what I think it would be. "Stay here" I turned to her. Morgan stepped back holding Jace. I opened the door and quickly closed it once I saw Ricky and Kat in the middle of fucking. "Shit" they quickly stopped. I didn't care that they were having sex but I thought it was weird that Kat was telling me all this tea about hating her ex-husband and here she is bent over against the counter that I eat on eww. "Shit, you didn't tell me when yo-
"Does that even matter... I live here now" I said rolling my eyes. Kat awkwardly pulled her dress down while I stared at her. "I'll um see you around Ricky," she said. "You may want to finish fixing yourself my sister is outside," I told her. She quickly fixed herself leaving. "Can I come in? Morgan asked
"Yes," I said meeting Morgan where she was. "Hi, Mr. Ricky" she was about to run to him but I stopped her in her tracks. "Mmmhmm come on" I told her going upstairs. We entered our room and I kicked my shoes off stripping down. "I'm getting in the shower okay," I said.
"Okay," she said playing with Jace. "Stay up here" I ordered. "Why? She asked
"Because I said so," I said closing the bathroom door. I was angry about earlier and angry that I had to see that. What if I didn't hear a thing and Morgan would have seen that. I mean it is his house but damn have some courtesy. I wrapped my hair up turning on the shower. I stepped in letting the hot water relax my muscles.
Hours Later
I sat outside on the patio smoking a cigar while I looked at the view. It was a nice breeze outside and I felt good. It was a bit awkward earlier and I didn't plan on fucking my ex. I was already horny and the moment presented itself but that's all it was. I didn't feel any emotion or anything it was just sex.
Dreux 10:00 pm You pounded them little Debbie cakes 😹😹😹😹
Me: 10:00 pm Lmaoo I fucking hate you. Hell yeah, I did..for the sake of it 😂😂
Dreux: 10:02 pm: And Josie walked in? Lmaoo that's mad awkward. Do better!
Me: 10:02 pm: I know, it was supposed to be a little quickie
Dreux: 10:03 It be like that sometimes, but it's crazy how she keeps walking in on things. 💀
I felt a tap on my shoulder. I knew it was Morgan and I turned around. "Wassup," I said. She looked upset so I knew it was serious. "What happened? I asked. "Raymond hit Josie at Erica's house and everyone was fighting" she explained. I put my cigar out. "What else happened? I asked. "He... he slapped her and pulled her and then they were in the hallway and the door opened again and he was dragging her on the floor by her hair and then Erica jumped on him and then and them um Erica's boyfriend stopped it" she explained thoroughly. I sighed taking a deep breath. I always felt like I could never be upset when someone I know gets hit on because I was abusive in the past towards my ex Janelle. I opened up and apologized to her years ago but I know it'll never take away from the pain I've caused. But hearing what happened to her and the fact that it happened in front of Morgan and her baby had me pissed. I already didn't like Raymond I honestly spared his life for his kid that he still doesn't see. I just hope she's alright. I got up "Where is she? I asked.
"She's been in the bathroom for a while," Morgan said. Suddenly I heard footsteps indicating that she was downstairs. I quickly got up to see her hiding behind the refrigerator.
"What happened? I asked her. She closed the door and I saw a bruise under her eye and cut by her lip. She evilly looked at Morgan and Morgan ran upstairs.
"You already know; I know she told you," she said going back in the fridge. "Let me see," I said.
"No, I'm okay," she said taking an ice pack out.
Josie
I was so pissed that it hurts, I was so tired of feeling neglected and disrespected it was like that moment kept playing over and over in my head. He was literally beating my ass and then I walk in on that shit and now Ricky is acting all fake concerned. I closed the refrigerator "Why'd he run up on you like that? He asked.
"You know why," I said. "I told you-
"Ricky shut up, just shut up. It doesn't matter what I did"
He walked closer to me "Let me see" he said
I angrily pushed him away from me. I pushed him with all my might. "Go away," I said not really thinking that I just pushed the hell out of him. I don't even know why I pushed him in the first place. He remained quiet roughly moving my head to the side trying to examine my face. He let go and I watched him grab his keys. I rolled my eyes "You don't have to do that, please don't do anything crazy" I said.
"You want it handled or not? He asked
"Why are you acting like you care all of a sudden? You only care cuz Morgan told you and she was there when it happened" I said.
He clenched his jaw; he didn't say anything just walked out shutting the door. I sat against the refrigerator taking everything in. God, this was a rough day. I ran back upstairs barging in my room. "Morgan, why'd you tell him? I asked you not to say anything" I complained
"Well, somebody had to know," she said innocently. I wanted to hurt her but I couldn't even be mad. I laid my back on the bed burnt out.
Was Ricky wrong for having sex in his own home even though he knows they live with them?
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