Hey guys sorry for this but I have to put a warning here when needed, this chapter will contain STRONG LANGUAGE and will touch on certain subjects that might be sensitive to some, please be advised that I would recommend no persons under the age of 18 to read it, although it won't be Explicit or have any sexual scenes in it but this chapter will have strong language in it as will the rest of the book because these two characters happen to have a very colourful vocabulary 😂 Anyways that'll be all for now 😉 Remember, you have been WARNED!!! Hope you ENJOY 💜
HAPPY READING
KIMMY 😘
(NO DATE ➡ AURORA'S VIEW)
Aurora's POV
5 years ago I met the only man that can make my heart beat erratically, my stomach twist in knots and my breathing stop all at the same time. For the normal female population that would mean they fell in love on first sight but not me though, that only showed me that he was sex on legs, the attraction that was there instantly was due to his obvious charm and good looks and that showed just how dangerous he really is which is the type of man I should stay clear from, his the type that'll use that against a woman, charm his way into her panties and then her mind and lastly her heart and soul until he has everything.
I know I might sound like a bitter woman that was wronged by a man and now makes the rest pay for that one man's mistakes but that's not the case at all. I'm not denying the fact that I have been wronged by an asshole in so many ways then I can actually care to remember but that isn't why I am the way I am. That experience taught me one main thing and that is that love doesn't exist, it's a scam men wants us women to believe in and uses the lust that it actually is, against us to corrupted our brain and hearts.
I know I sound Damaged and in many ways I am, there's no denying that but I am also wiser Because of everything I've been through. And I can confidently say that lust is always mistaken for love and so is attraction mistaken for love at first sight. When I saw him I wanted him in my bed, nothing more but the way he looked at me was the same way HE looked at me in the beginning, like I was the most beautiful woman he saw, like I stole his heart the second he saw me but that's bullshit and Because I know Dante is one of those blind people that's driven by lust, I knew I couldn't go there no matter how much I wanted him to fuck me.
That is the reason why HE was my first and last boyfriend and relationship, I now know that it's a pointless union, why you might ask? Simple, you see there are two different kinds of men, firstly, you get the fuckboy that's only after an orgasm and doesn't care which hole or whose hole he gets off on as long as it's easy or he'll love the chase of the difficult and hard to get woman. Secondly, there's the dangerous Assholes, he'll take your body, mind, heart and soul, he'll take everything. Then he'll use you, abuse you until you literally have nothing left, physically, mentally and emotionally and then he'll toss you aside like you're a bag of rubbish.
And unfortunately Dante as hot and charming as he is, he happens to fall under both categories, his a fuckboy, he loves the chase too and his fucking dangerous, definitely more than Dre could ever dream of being and it'll be like committing suicide if I ever fell for him, he could and would destroy me beyond repair and I cannot and WILL NOT let that happen.
You know the Saying "Behind every crazy woman, is the bastard man that made her so"? Well I'm living prove that the saying is actually true because I wasn't always the crazy, wild, selfish party animal I am now, I was actually more like Mel, outspoken, easy going but yet still sweet and innocent. But that all changed when I met Dre in high school. He was handsome for his age, well built, popular and let's not forget the most wanted boy in school, every girl would kill to be taken by him but not me though, I didn't fall over everytime I saw him, which made him notice me.
He chased after me, much like Dante has the past 5 years. He wouldn't give up either until I agreed to a date, which I did after a few months of his chasing. He made the date romantic, took me on his father's boat, and we had a picnic on the beach. He brought flowers and such and I gave him my innocence that night, I mean he went out of his way for our first date and when our kissing got heated, I ended up giving my virginity to him, on a fucking boat.
But I was young and stupid and I fell for his charm and I thought he meant it when he said that he fell in love with me. I believed him and I allowed him to "show me how much he loves me" for a few months after that night, he was amazing. We would spend every free minute at school together, spend EVERY weekend together, he would shower me with gifts, love letters and Jewelry. I never bothered asking where he got the money to spoil me so because I was young and stupid I was just in Awe everytime he'd popped up with a gift.
He would fuck me every weekend, he got so addicted to fucking me that he would arrange for me to be called out of class just to fuck me in the bathroom. Sometimes during class he would finger me or have me jerk him off, at first he did it privately but then he wouldn't care when or where and I mustn't even try and refuse him then he would yell at me and my punishment would be allowing his gang friends to watch how he fingered me. He would start telling me what I can and cannot wear, I wasn't allowed to wear dresses when we went out, only when I'm in school so it'll be "easy access".
I wasn't allowed to speak to anyone other than him, I wasn't even allowed to greet his friends. When he would hang out with them, I had to sit on his lap, quietly. He isolated me from everyone and everything, he made sure that my world revolved around him but it didn't, I was just scared of him. I was young and he was matured and older and I couldn't go to my mom, whom I lived with at the time in Los Angeles. If I told my mom about Dre, she would've informed my dad, who lived in Australia and he of course would've found out that I had a boyfriend and that I'm not Virgin anymore, and he would have surely shit a brick as he use to be very traditional and so damn old school.
So for over a year I stayed in that relationship, even after Dre starting fucking around and then he would come to me and expect me to open my legs even though the sex smell is still strong on him. That's when I started to refuse him more and that's when the beatings started, he would hit me all over my body, but never my face and while I'm a crying mess he would fuck me, while I'm sobbing mind you and do you know what he'll say when he comes down from his high? He would profess his undying love for me and then kiss me and tell me how great it was. Now you see what "love" really is? What it does to people even though it doesn't exist. He took everything from me because he "loved me". He broke me mentally, physically and emotionally because he "loved me".
That's why I don't want Dante's "love" because he is doing and was doing everything Dre did but as a fucking hormonal bitch, I gave into him. Infact I might have even played apart in initiating the process that led to us ending up in his bed with him balls deep inside me. I regret what happened, not because it wasn't amazing because Lord only knows, he was the best I ever had, infact he ruined me for all men, that's for sure. But I do regret it because that made me want to be with him again, and I made damn sure the day I left for college that I would never sleep with a guy more than once, they will always be just a one night stand, nothing more.
But then why did I want to be with Dante again and again, and why did I cry when I left his room? Why did I want to go back and lay in his arms again? Was the sex that good that I couldn't tell the difference between being in love with him and lusting for his cock? Why even after 3 years has gone by do I still dream about him? Why do I still want him to chase after me? Why do I want him to "make love" to me instead of fucking me? Why do I like the attention he use to give me?
Yes, use to because I hurt him and as fucked up as this sounds, I hurt myself the most that day when I walked out with my "real date". That night for some strange fucked up reason I cried silently as we walked to that guy's car, who's name I do not care to remember. And guess what, I told him to screw dinner and take me to his place to fuck me and he happily did and as he fucked me, I cried and not silently I burst out into a sob, like a pathetic bitch.
Why? Because I felt bad for what I did to a friend, sure his no good for me, but I knew he didn't deserve that, why I felt bad when I hate all these fuckboys? I still don't have a reason but that night I cried not only for what I did to break his heart but for what I had said the morning after our amazing night too because it all came crashing down on me but I knew I couldn't risk falling for him, which is why I resorted to breaking his heart with my words and actions, to push him away and maybe even wake him the fuck up.
I knew his feelings he claims to have for me aren't real, and I also knew that he might even believe that they are but that still didn't mean that I had to hurt him so badly, twice! I changed into a bitch and I now understand why Stephano said what he did to me 2 years ago, he was right. I am a pathetic bitch and that deep down I'm a fucked up scarred bitter woman, that takes pleasure in making others around me miserable. How can I disagree when that's all I've ever done to his brother?
I can't help but remember his face that morning when I first started pushing him away. He looked pained, that I had just ripped his heart out. Apart of me thought that maybe he wasn't acting, maybe he does have feelings for me but I knew I couldn't love him even if he really did love me. And that's what I also told him but by the time I said that I don't think he heard me, since he was too shocked by my first statements, since he thought that he had it all figured out, only to have me turn around and slap harsh words at him and deny everything he was saying, brutally.
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START OF FLASHBACK (3 YEARS AGO, MORNING AFTER - 10 SEPTEMBER 2019)
Waking up to a pressure on my bladder, indicating that if I do not stand up immediately, I will piss my pants, which by the way I just realized I'm not wearing, infact I'm not wearing anything and that I'm actually not laying on a damn bed but a human! Slipping out of his arms as slowly and softly as I could so I wouldn't wake him, I stood and saw my dress laying on the floor and immediately put it over my head to cover up my nakedness.
When I turned around to make sure I didn't wake him up, I was shocked to see Dante laying there in his naked glory and then I remembered everything that happened. I immediately smiled at the amazing night we had spend together and just as I was about to go back to the bed, I realized what the fuck I almost did?! Shit, I need to get the fuck out of here now! How can I be so damn stupid! After one fucking night I'm willing to destroy all my defenses and for what?! For a good fuck, that will surely end worse then the previous, fuck no! With that thought I grabbed my heals, bra and panties, and bolted to the door.
When I got to my room that's just down the hall from his, I threw my shoes across the room in anger, I almost did it again. I nearly put the plan in action that would cause history to repeat itself, just because he was the best lay I had! How fucked up can I be?! Fuck! I need to wash everything from him off of me, I must remember his just like HIM! He'll fuck you up worse than HE did because his much more dangerous, get it together Aurora! He was just good fuck, he was just a good fuck!
I repeated that as I scrubbed myself red, needing to get his intoxicating smell off of me, I just wish there was a way I could wash out my brain so I wouldn't think about last night either because I couldn't stop thinking about the way he kissed me, the way he held me, the way he made love to me, what the fuck am I saying?! I need get myself together, I can't allow him to break down the walls that I've worked so hard to build around my heart, around myself for that matter, I won't allow it, ever!
With that I got out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my body and made my way out of the bathroom towards my suitcase that's in the closet, since we're only staying here for a few weeks I never bothered unpacking, what's the use because as soon as Kiara and Steph returns, we'll be leaving to our own apartments again so I didn't see a point in unpacking. As soon as I was dressed in a simple jeans and tank top I heard my bedroom door burst open, shit I forgot to lock the damn door, and I know exactly who that is!
"Aurora!" I knew it, Dante shouted obviously knowing I'm in the walk-in closet, knowing I have no choice I took a deep breath and made my way out of the closet, I need to make sure he backs of and never bother me again, I need him to believe that I regret what happened, even though that is far from the truth but that thought alone scares the shit out of me. Here goes nothing!
"What the hell do you think you're doing, barging in here like some crazed animal, what do you want?" I asked annoyed or atleast I think I'm succeeding in sounding annoyed.
"What am I doing? What the hell are doing Aurora? When I woke up you were gone and now you're play like I'm annoying you? What the fuck is up with that?" He asked genuinely confused and I almost felt bad for what I'm about to do.
"Well you are annoying me, now tell me what the fuck you're doing here?" I asked rolling my eyes at his taken aback look. I knew what I'm going to say to him, will hurt him and I really didn't want him to hurt but he brought it on himself, why couldn't he just pretend that last night didn't happen, just like I had expected him too.
"What's wrong with you? Did something happen?" He asked genuinely concerned and I felt like shit for what I have to say to him but I'm only doing it to protect myself. Having the strongest urge to wrap my arms around him, I immediately tried to cover it up with an outrageous laugh.
"Nothing" I said through my pretend laughter.
"Then what has gotten into you? Why are you acting like this?" He asked as he started walking closer to me but I immediately lifted my hand to stop him from coming closer and he gave me that same confused look.
"Look Dante, clearly we're not on the same page here, we had a one night stand and I don't understand what the fuck you're doing here questioning me, I'm not you're girl or anything for that matter. We had meaningless Sex Dante, nothing more" I said and I nearly took it back when I saw his face change, his eyes showed hurt, disappointment, disbelieve and anger all mixed in one.
"Bullshit! You know that's not how it went down, for either of us! You're trying to make last night into something dirty, when we both know good and well what we felt, so why are you saying this?" He says the last part softly, almost disbelievingly.
"I'm saying this because it's the truth Dante and you clearly need to hear it! Last night was a drunken mistake, we both know that or atleast I do. It was a fucking mistake that will never happen again, I'll make sure of it!" I said or more like forced the words out of my mouth and for some reason it hurt me to say those things to him, knowing I didn't mean any of it but I couldn't let him know that, this is for the best right? I couldn't risk Falling for him.
"What...?" He whispered sadly, brokenhearted and I had to swallow the lump that formed in my throat at seeing him so hurt, and hearing the cheerful and carefree Dante so broken, all because of me. I'm no good for him and he isn't for me either, so this is for the best for the both of us.
"I know what you're doing," he says and then clears his throat to get the harshness away, I really feel bad for doing this, I really do but I can't get hurt like that ever again.
"You're trying to fight what you felt last night, I know you felt it too and as much as you try to deny your feelings, the more it shows! Quit playing these fucking fucked up games of yours, we finally had an amazing night together and now you want to pass it off as some sleezy meaningless fuck!" He said adamantly and then he walked up to me and I took a stepped back trying to make my painful look into an angry scowl.
"You're fucking delusional! We fucked and now you make as if we're fucking in love or some shit, Dante we are NOT Stephano and Kiara, I will NEVER love you nor will I ever be with you, get that through your fucking head! I was bored, you were here and happen to turn out to be a good fuck, that's it! Nothing more than that, it was a fucking mistake I plan on never repeating again. Now get the fuck out of my room!" I yelled at him angrily but really I was angry at myself for allowing last night to happen, because now I have to hurt him with all this bullshit just to protect myself from getting hurt! Meanwhile I'm hurting him in the process, I'm a total fuck up!
"If you believe any of that bullshit that just came out your damn mouth, than you are the fucking delusional one here! You know as well as I do, that last night meant more than what you are trying to make it out to be! But if that's how you want to play it, then fine! But know this," he says and then he moved so fast I didn't have time to respond because he moved up close to me bended so we were face to face, ONLY inches apart as he looked me dead in the eyes.
"You can't fight what you feel for me forever and the day you realise that you are as in love with me as I am with you, I'll be there waiting because you're worth it, even if you believe otherwise" he said and then turned around and made his way back to the door. I gulped watching him walk away, I don't know why but I felt hurt.
I knew I wasn't in love with him, I mean I couldn't be, I will never fall in love with anyone, especially not Dante Because he has the power to hurt me worse than ever before and I don't mean physically Because his too good for that, but he can destroy me mentally and emotionally. But now hearing him say that his in love with me, took me by complete surprise and I stood there frozen, speechless, I didn't have a smart comeback for that because I never expected him to say that. But just before he opened the door, he turned his head in my direction and spoke again.
"Oh and Aurora, you might be able to fool everyone including yourself, but you do not fool me! I felt what you really feel for me last night and as much as what you just said hurt me... Your actions of last night speaks louder! So pretend all you want but can't fool me!" He says and I could hear the pain in his voice and without waiting for me to respond, he opened the door and walked out, slamming the door behind him.
I stood there for a few minutes staring at the closed door and when I finally jumped out of my frozen state, I felt how wet my face was, and when I lifted my hand to my cheek, I felt how the tears was still rolling down, on their own accord. I knew then and there that I needed to get the fuck out of there because he was starting to break through my walls and I couldn't allow that.
I will not fall in love with him, ever! I knew my walls was starting to crumble and that would lead to love, which would lead to me getting destroyed. And that can't happen! With that thought, I wiped my tears and turned on my heels and made my way to the closet, I'm getting the fuck out of here!
END OF FLASHBACK
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That day when I left the Estate I went to the apartment and locked myself in my room and actually cried for the way I spoke to him and the things I said to him. I mean just because I didn't love him, didn't mean that I hated him either, and that he deserved the way I treated him or lied to him because I didn't mean anything I said, I only said it to get him to stop and stay away from me but I never meant for it to hurt him the way that it did, not to mention the treatment I gave him afterwards either.
After that day I stayed away from the Estate and everyone in it for a few weeks, doing my best to avoid Dante but when Kiara started getting suspicious as to why I don't want to come around, and started texting and calling me a lot, I started visiting again, just like before, only this time I made a point in ignoring Dante, sometimes harshly but that only happened when he got persistent, which he did of course so he left me with little to no choice, which of course didn't sit well with Stephano and the rest of the Mafia gang but they won't understand why I am the way that I am and they might never understand either as I tried keeping my past experiences to myself.
If I'm being honest the only reason I said those things to Dante and refused all his sweet romantic dinner dates, send back all his expensive and extravagant gifts, was because I was afraid, infact I still am. The connection I felt that night with him, I know it wasn't love but I was afraid it might turn into that, and the chemistry that's between us before and after that night, scares me because I know in my heart that it wouldn't take me long to fall in love with him, I mean I refuse to believe that I already do, like he said I do. I vowed to myself that I would NEVER give myself or my heart to another man because all they do is hurt you, not only physically but mentally and emotionally as well, and I know exactly how that can fuck you up in ways you can't even imagine.
I will never allow Dante or any other man to ever come that close to me ever again because I know Dante has always been a fuckboy, I met him as that, not to mention the fact that his the only one that made me feel that strong connection and how easy it was for him to charm his way in, which makes him dangerous as hell! And compare to what my lowlife of an ex did to me, I know it'll be childsplay to what Dante could and possibly WOULD do to me. He scares me because his the only man that had gotten so close to breaking down my walls and his the only man that I hurt myself by hurting him and THAT SCARES THE SHIT OUT OF ME!!!
Hey guys, so now that you've read from both Dante and Aurora, I hope you all understand both sides as I thought it would be best to clear that up before anyone starts bashing the book or either one of the characters, that's why I thought this would be the best way to start off this new chapter in The Romano Series. I hope you enjoyed the chapter and that you're looking forward to some dialogue and actual scenes from all the other characters we all love because up next is the twins' birthday party, which means y'all be hearing a little from Steph and his lovely wife Kiara again 👏 It won't be in their POV but there will be dialogue with them in it, for now atleast 😉 Anyways please do send me your thoughts and theories, you know how much I love reading those. Next update will be out on Wednesday 😉 Please don't forget to comment and vote.💜
THANKS FOR READING
KIMMY 😘