Jodie
Since I had nothing to do today I decided to go pay a visit to my mom, being that we don't really see each other that much since I moved out. She thankfully cooked some lunch and we had conversation
"It seems like after I found out I was pregnant that's when all of the symptoms started to actually kick in because I wasn't feeling any of this for the past 4 1/2 months" I told my mom while eating a mouthful of fettuccine alfredo.
"That's because pregnancy symptoms are mostly a psychological thing. It sounds crazy but trust me. I know"
"Well I wish the psychology part would stay out of it because I hate it. I'm always eating now, I'm starting to get lazier..."
"I didn't even know that was possible"
I looked at her some type of way while she laughed
"Anyways.. and Ive been getting extremely irritated. But it's mostly only Kentrell that irritates me"
"What's going on with that? What are y'all gonna do?"
"Honestly ma, I don't know. I'm trying to be mature for the sake of this baby but it's like that's all we discuss. If it's not about the baby then we won't even look in each other's direction and I hate it because we're not working out our issues with each other. And if we don't do that then it's gonna forever be this disconnect between us which I don't want this baby to be around"
"Well guess what? That's exactly what's gonna happen if y'all don't fix the issue. I don't wanna get in the middle of whatever y'all have going on because y'all are grown but I don't want my grandchild being brought into mess"
"Well whenever the conversation of why we broke up manages to come up he always puts the blame on me when it's not my fault. It's not my fault I lost the baby, I didn't even know I was pregnant.. sometimes I wish he would just let that situation go cause it's annoying"
"Well Jordyn you gotta look at it from his point of view too. He's probably looking at what he could've had"
"Well lucky him, he knocked me up again so he should just use that hurt and love on this one instead of resenting me for a mistake I obviously made, let him tell it"
There was a knock on the door followed by the doorbell ringing twice. My mom jumped up and sashayed out of the kitchen while I twirled my fettuccine around on my fork before eating some of it.
"Who is that?" I asked with a mouthful of Alfredo, hearing her talk to somebody. After a while she came back into the kitchen with Kentrell behind her and I froze, looking at her
"Look who's here" she smiled. I chewed the rest of my food and swallowed before pointing at Kentrell
"What is he doing here?"
Kentrell scowled at me before sitting across from me at the table. My mom smiled meanwhile I wanted to choke the life out of her right now
"I invited Kentrell over here today because I need the both of y'all to act like mature adults. If y'all can make up long enough to make a baby then I can't see why y'all can't just get over these petty issues completely"
"I already told you. I been over it. Talk to your friend right there" I crossed my arms while Kentrell shook his head
"I ain bout to start witchu right now."
"Well don't! I really don't even know why you invited him over here"
"Cause this is MY house"
I shrugged "So"
My attention then turned back onto my food yet I could feel kentrell's eyes pierce through me. Somewhat uncomfortable by his gaze I shifted in my seat some and my phone started to vibrate on the table. My heart almost jumped out of my chest when I saw that it was Chris calling. Before I could even reach for my phone kentrel has already glanced down to see and his face looked very displeased
"Fuck is Chris?"
"Why?" I asked while picking up my phone, looking at the call before forwarding it. It's been months since that trip to California and NOW he wants to reach out to me.
"Who is Chris?" My mom asked along with Kentrell and I sighed
"Why y'all in my business"
"Oh you think you grown now huh?" She asked and I laughed
"Momma...."
Kentrell just continued to sit back and mug me. The anger I saw in his face was like none other, however he had no reason to be mad. I never entertained Chris except that one time yet, if I was it's none of his business. I never said anything about him bouncing from girlfriend to girlfriend the moment we broke up until now, and there's no telling who he's entertaining at this point
"You can stop looking at me like that"
His face didn't soften up not one bit. Kentrell's whole demeanor was just..... ugh.
"I hope you'on think this nigga gone be 'round my baby"
"And I hope you don't think your hoes gonna be around it either! The hell?!"
My mom sighed, seeing her little surprise was going downhill
"Don't try to turn shit on me just cause you got caught tryina be sneaky"
"Get caught for what? IM GROWN! I don't have a damn thing to hide and that's what you fail to realize. You expect me to sit around and be lonely while you go fuck 10 or 12 bitches but that's not happening. Same way you moved on so did I. And for your information Chris is a FRIEND I met in California!"
I was no longer hungry. Kentrell had spoiled my appetite and I was over the day. I dropped my fork and scooted my chair back, standing up
"Jordyn..." my mom pleaded, looking my in the eyes. I know she kind of likes Kentrell and wanted us to work things out but I highly doubt that would happen. I still love Kentrell with everything in me but at this point I can't see myself being with him nomore. It's like he became a whole different person after we broke up and that's a person I just didn't like
He continued to glare at me from his side of the table, still apparently in his feelings but I still didn't care. The hell did he think this was?
"I'm sorry momma but I just can't. This.." I motioned my hand over towards Kentrell "this ain't the person I fell in love with. I don't know who this is and honestly, I really don't wanna be around it. I'm trying my best to be mature and allow him around for the sake of this baby but just being around him right now makes me sick to my stomach"
"Don't say that Jordyn.."
"I make you sick to yo stomach? Why cause you mad cause I ain stressin bout yo bipolar ass. One minute you still love me but the next minute you hate me. You looked me in the eyes and said that shit but turned around a few days later and now I gotchu pregnant. Talkin' all this shit bout me but you ain realize yet that YOU the one with the problems. Since you wanna act like you fuckin' perfect"
"I NEVER SAID I WAS PERFECT!" I now started to fuss, slamming my hands down on the table "I know I did a couple of things that's not right and I admit to that, but what I won't tolerate is the fact that you given me your ass to kiss this entire time and treated me like complete shit every since I lost that baby and it's not even that deep nomore. Hell, you wouldn't have known if I never told you and now I wish I did keep it from you!"
"Should've. It's probably a lotta shit you kept from me"
" I'm over this conversation and I'm over you" I grabbed my purse and mugged Kentrell
"See you always tryina walk away from shit and you see why we ain right now"
"It's always me! Apparently you just don't do no wrong do you? That's why I wasn't worth fighting for huh?"
When I asked that, Kentrell started to snicker a little which pissed me off
"And you really think this funny?"
"Yeah cause you trippin over that lil comment for nothin"
"No! That lil comment hurt me and you know it did!... look I'm not about to go back and forth with you over stupid shit. When you ready to be an adult and talk then you can come to me. Until then I don't wantchu anywhere near me"
I then gripped onto my purse while walking out of the house, slamming the door behind me.