A/n: I do plan to do a lemon/smut sometime soon idk when but I'm working on it
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Walking back to your room yawning, you hit the wall out of tiredness. You catch your balance rubbing your face. When you get to your door after getting lost again, you walk in, shutting the door and throwing yourself on the bed, arms spread out. You get a whiff of how bad you smelled. Damn did I sweat that much? You got up and walked to your shower, I really want to know the fucker that designed this ship, who the fuck adds a shower but not a toilet or anything else.
You turn on the water getting the right temperature, and undress, getting in. The warm water wakes you for a moment but it soon makes you a little drowsy, so to make sure you don't fall asleep you did what's completely normal, sing a small tune that's been replaying in your head:
~I had a way then
Losing it all on my own~
You catch the ear of a certain captain passing your door after his nightly activity.
I had a heart then
But the queen has been overthrown~
And I'm not sleeping now
The dark is too hard to beat
And I'm not keeping up
The strength I need to push me~
You show the lights that stop me turn to stone
You shine them when I'm alone
And so I tell myself that I'll be strong
And dreaming when they're gone
'Cause they're calling, calling, calling me home
Calling, calling, calling home
You show the lights that stop me turn to stone~
You shine them when I'm alone~
Noises, I play within my head
Touch my own skin
And hope they'll still be there~
And I think back to when
My brother and my sister slept
In another place
The only time I feel safe
You show the lights that stop me turn to stone
You shine them when I'm alone
And so I tell myself that I'll be strong
And dreaming when they're gone
'Cause they're calling, calling, calling me home
Calling, calling, calling home
You show the lights that stop me turn to stone
You shine them when I'm alone~
You finish washing your (h/l) (h/c) hair, and turn off the water, wrapping your body with a towel, and walk back into your room.
~Feels like we're on the edge right now
I wish that I could say I'm proud
I'm sorry that I let you down
Let you down~
You sit on the edge on your bed, laying back close your eyes
~All these voices in my head get loud
I wish that I could shut them out
I'm sorry that I let you down
L-l-let you down~
You smile to yourself.
Tapping your foot on the floor in a rythm.
Yeah, I guess I'm a disappointment
Doing everything I can, I don't wanna make you disappointed
It's annoying
I just wanna make you feel like everything I ever did wasn't ever tryna make an issue for you
But, I guess the more you
Thought about everything, you were never even wrong in the first place, right?
Yeah, I'ma just ignore you
Walking towards you, with my head down, lookin' at the ground, I'm embarrassed for you
Paranoia, what did I do wrong this time? That's parents for you
Very loyal?
Shoulda had my back, but you put a knife in it, my hands are full
What else should I carry for you?
I cared for you, but
Feels like we're on the edge right now
I wish that I could say I'm proud
I'm sorry that I let you down
L-l-let you down
All these voices in my head get loud
I wish that I could shut them out
I'm sorry that I let you down
L-l-let you down
"What kinda childhood did some crazy bitch like you have, I'm curious." You lean your head backwards looking at where the voice came from, grinning.
"I killed them all of them, accept my father, he was already dead. My bitch of a mother killed him, so I gave her a taste of her own medicine, oh wait I should say poison." You pop up and push off the bed with your hands, turning on your heel, to face him.
"How old were you when you did it."
"9 years old, that's also when I met Akira he was 12 at the time, with some shitty parents who just ignored him." You chimed.
Kidd's visibly frowned at Akira's name for a moment but quickly forgot about it, "How'd you do it."
"Well when I was younger I use to read alot of books on horror, and we'll naturally they gave me good ideas. But it all snapped when my mother killed my dad all because my dad supported me and my patchy self, and she did not, she thought I was some child, of the devil, pshh that's an insult, I am the devil. Well now at least." Kidd chuckled, "but my mother was very weak so I didn't really have to try, but I really wanted her to suffer, so I cut off her hands and feet, and left her unattended so she could get an infection, and when she did I just cut more off the leg and arms, and let her get another infection and I repeated the process until she died from hunger and the repeated infections."
"Damn." Was all Kidd could say shifting in his chair.
"She deserved every bit of it." You smiled eyeing him up and down. An idea popped in your head, well a mischievous one at that, because you know what that shift in a chair meant. As someone who's tortured people for years body language was something you learned along the way.
You approach Kidd, towel barely hanging on over your breasts. "I think you got a small problem there," you look him in the eyes, "captain~" you purr to drive him crazy.
And it worked. He got up from the chair he was in, and exited your room, "I don't know if you're crazy or just a straight up a bitch you know." You followed to the door watching him leave down the hall, hand on your hip.
"Both are compliments captain~" you do it one more time, and successfully make him uncomfortable, he picked up his speed down the hall and disappeared around the corner.
You laugh and head back in your room. Putting clothes on, and finally plop on the soft bed, and You instantly fall asleep.
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Everybody was getting ready to dock because the ship needed supplies so Kidd and the others went to steal a bunch of supplies from the nearest village.
Meanwhile you had a dial playing some of soul king's songs while you were tidying up the ship. You were sweeping at the moment, well Trying to. You couldn't help but dance to soul king's music, it was easy to dance to.
When one of the songs finished you pulled out another shell, but didn't know what song it was because you didn't have it labeled. So you pressed the apex of the shell, the first thing you hear was a beautiful voice, you listen for a minute then the chorus came and you couldn't help but bop your head, and dance down the hall of the ship.
You analyze each lyric, memorizing each word, you wanted to know where you got this shell from and who recorded it.
When the song finished you go through the lyrics in your head. You run back to your room after setting the broom back in the kitchen, And get out your guitar. After listening to the song again this time analyzing the instrumental parts, instead of the lyrics. When you get them both down, you play half the song:
~I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me
I still feel your touch in my dreams
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why
Without you it's hard to survive~
~'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last
Need you by my side~
~'Cause every time we touch, I feel the static
And every time we kiss I reach for the sky
Can't you hear my heart beat so I can't let you go
Want you in my life~
~'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly
'Cause every time we touch, touch, touch, touch, touch, touch, touch, touch, touch~
You hear something hit your door and stop. Then you hear someone whisper outside your door, "great job idiot!"
You sat down the guitar on your bed and walk quietly to your door, swinging it open frowning getting a little pissed. Almost the entire crew sat at your door crouched, more and likely listening to you play the guitar. It was strangely irritating, well more than what it'd usually be. A thought came to mind and all you could think was , 'please don't be what I think it is'
"What the hell are you guys doing, you know it's extremely rude to spy on someone." You snap at them. They all got a little scared, and you slammed the door. You walk back over to your bed and plop down.
When you were sure they were all away from your door, you slowly crack it open making sure they were actually all gone, you sigh in relief. You open the door and walk to the bathroom.
The stain every girl hated, shit! You run back to your room, being glad you didn't pass anyone, until you turn the corner to your room, running into basically a wall and fall back. "Damn it" you curse under your breath.
"What's the hurry" Kidd stood staring down at you.
"You writing a book?" You bark at him making him frown.
"Where did all this attitude come from." He was a little pissed at your new sense of 'respect' towards him.
"What attitude?" You stand up, shoving past him running to your room, slamming the door.
Walking to your dresser you grab some new clothes, and walk to your shower.
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You toss yourself on your bed, huffing, and closing your eyes. You hear a knock on your door, and get up with a agitated growl. You open the door, "what!?" Killer stood at the door. "Oh hey killer, you need something."
"No, Kidd just wanted me to check in on you, he said you were acting a little pissy." He crossed his arms.
"Oh that, uhhhhh.....Well about that... Well how should I put it... Girl problems." You sweat-drop scratching your chin.
He tilted his head like he was confused, "girl problems?"
You face palm, groaning, "this is going to be a long day. Look girls get an attitude adjustment every month for about a week, that's all I'm gonna say."
"If you could clarify I could help you, I don't have to tell Kidd, I can tell him the attitude part but the rest would be kept safe with me." He sounded genuine. So you agreed, telling him to sit in the chair, at the corner, and sat on your bed. Explaining to him menstruation, and how it causes a females emotions to spike all over the place. You told him the little joke about how it's the body's payback for no baby.
"Oh ok, so this happens every month?" he sweat-dropped.
"Yes, and personally I don't really care if you tell Kidd but I don't think he'll understand at all or care." You laughed along with killer chuckling.
"You're right, it's not worth it to tell him. Well thank you for explaining, is there anything I can get you before I leave?" He walked to the door turning to you.
"Can you sneak me something sweet from the kitchen?" You gave him puppy eyes.
He Chuckled, "of course." He shut the door and you hear him walk away. You rest your eyes until he came back with the sweet.
"I hope you don't mind (f/s)." He hands you the sweet.
"No, it's actually my favorite." You took the sweet, thanking him, "I'll be out after I take a nap."
He nodded and exited your room. You eat the (f/s) and yawn, resting your head on your pillow. Soon falling asleep.
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A/n: I Know I add a lot of songs, sorry I just like to because it expresses reader-chan so much better than I can but the songs in this chapter are:
Lights- Ellie Goulding
Cascada- Every Time we touch
And NF- let you down
Thank you for your time✨🤝