Chapter 27: Missed Out
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~Levi~
I had gotten word (Y/N) had come back to Trost, injured. Hanji had mentioned that the two suspects from the other night had indeed transformed injuring her in the process. Twisting the knob to the room I slowly open the door into a bright room.
The windows were open letting in a cool breeze causing the curtains to swiftly blow up with the wind. Shutting the door behind me I turn back and slowly approached the side of the bed until I was next to her face. A chair was placed beside her bed, probably because of Hanji I assume. Not only was she in this state but Erwin was deep in a coma missing his right arm after the excursion to get Eren back.
Sitting in the empty chair I lean forward keeping my eyes glued to her resting face. With each day since her return I had stayed by her side, when Erwin would wake up I'd see him but for now, my time was devoted to her. With my right hand, I gently peel away strands of hair that swept onto her face from the slight breeze. I was half tempted to shut the window thinking it'd make her cold.
By doing this I saw her face flinch slightly before letting out a soft sigh. Her eyes shut tighter before they slowly opened. My hand then rested on her forehead gently caressing it, "Mm... where am I?" she asks.
Removing my hand I lean back in the chair. "You're back in Trost," I answer.
She quickly sat up and looked as if she were ready to get out of bed. Shooting forward I push her back down. "Slow down, you've only just woken up," I tell her in a rather commanding tone.
"Where is Eren? Is he okay?" she then questions, it was like taking a knife to my heart. I understood her caring heart to wonder about Eren but it still made me angry.
"He's fine... now shut up and lay back down." I snap.
She gave me an uncomfortable look before doing as told. "Haven't even been awake for a minute and you're already being an ass," she mutters. Rolling my eyes I cross my arms and fold one leg over the other.
"Do you think I would be chipper to find out the woman I love is hurt? Usually, I wouldn't pursue any relationship because of that but god dammit-
She was pouting now and keeping her eyes forward. "Then don't pursue me... if you're so worried one of us will die then don't love me," she mutters.
I let out a 'tch' before looking over to the window. "If only it were that easy... It's not like I can just wish away my feelings... I am only human (Y/N)." I mutter.
"The only reason why it's not easy is because you're making it harder than it needs to be... I told you I only want our relationship strictly to be business..." she snaps back.
I then stood up from the chair, I wanted to call her out, tell her to stop pretending she didn't feel what I felt. Leaning over the bed I prop both hands on either side of her, trapping her. "You and I both know that's not what you really want, you're just acting this way because you're a stupid brat and think this game is fun provoking me like this. Making me chase after you." I stop as I lean in closer merely inches from her lips.
"And I intend to chase you to the bitter end until you can no longer deny your feelings... until you're mine," I mutter. I could see her expression turn to lust the minute my lips were just about to touch hers, but instead I backed away teasing her. I watched her head jolt up as if to kiss me.
"You're an asshole." she sighs, her cheeks were a light shade of red as she crossed her arms flashing a glare at me.
"I may be an asshole, but at least I'm not a liar." I retort.
~(Y/N)~
I kept a cold glare on him as he sat back down. He's just being a tease trying to make me want him more. I didn't want him to chase me, if anything I wanted to tell him where I truly came from, tell him I wasn't staying here and that if we were to pursue any kind of relationship it would only end in tears and pain. But I also wanted to know what made him love me, from all the stories I heard they almost seemed true... him being cold-hearted to a point that seemed impossible. He had lost so much he had become numb to the pain.
But then here he was trying to pursue me, so desperately wanting my affection, like a puppy. Telling me he intended to keep trying even against my wishes. "Why do you love me?" I ask. Sitting up straight I folded my hands in my lap keeping my eyes locked with his.
His stoic expression didn't alter as I asked. No blush appeared, and no unsettling expression contorted his face. He shrugged his shoulders while sticking out his bottom lip slightly, "Is it because of my looks? What?" I persist.
Levi shook his head and leaned forward. "I don't base my feelings off of looks," he answers. I turn my head forward letting out a sigh.
"You hungry?" he then asks.
Quickly I nod my head watching as he stands from the chair once again. I seriously can't wait to leave this place.
~Couple Days Later~
After continuously reminding Levi that I was fine, he finally let me start walking around. He told me to meet him in Erwin's room this morning to talk. Heading down to the room I end up running into Eren and his group of friends. "(Y/N)!" Eren calls as he runs over to me.
He took me into his arms tightly as if he hadn't seen me in years. "We heard what happened." he sighs before pushing me back but keeping a firm grip on my shoulders. I smiled shyly up at him.
"Yeah, but I'm fine now," I tell him.
He smiled and pulled me back into his arms one last time. But the second time it was cut short when we heard someone clearing their throat. Eren released me and moved to the side, there I found Levi glaring at us, his arms too were crossed. Levi then stormed his way over to me, then snatched my wrist, and yanked me forward. "Ow Levi!" I yelp.
He ignored my yelps in pain and continued tugging me along until we reached Erwin's room. Stopping just at the door he turned to me while I yanked my hand out from his grip. "God damn, you don't need to be so fuckin' rough. I just ran into them-
"We've been waiting for twenty minutes you dumb-ass, now get in there," he growls, he looks more tired than usual which was the main reason for his cranky attitude. Flashing a harsh glare at him I turn and open the door. Since he was putting me in a bad mood I tried to shut the door on him, but he caught it beforehand.
"What's wrong with you two?" Pixis asks. I cross my arms and stand at the foot of Erwin's bed.
"Don't worry about them Pixis, they're always like this." Erwin's sighs, Erwin then glared up at us in disappointment while Pixis snickered softly while looking down. Then there was a knock at the door.
Levi turned to Erwin. "It's Hanji- Come in!" Levi calls. Stepping over to one side of Erwin's bed I watch as Hanji enters, and following behind was Connie. This is about Ragako isn't it?
"This young man here has come to report on behalf of the Survey Corps regarding the current situation," Hanji announces as she and Connie salute Pixis.
"I'm Connie Springer of the 104th Survey Corps." Connie introduces.
"Connie along with me and a few others went to his home village Ragako... about the origins of the titan outbreaks... Well... we've had a reliable amount of information to confirm my hypothesis." Hanji says growing a little more nervous. The houses there were all destroyed... it seemed from some kind of explosion from inside... another thing is, there was no bloodstain." Hanji explains.
Looking to Connie he seemed in a lot of shock... but then again if Hanji was right, his mother was a titan now... but how? Looking forward I look down to the ground puzzled. What was it that did this? Shutting my eyes tightly I tried to remember what I read back home for the assignment. Something ingested? Possible...
"Even now we can't find the people who once lived there, it's like they all vanished. The total number of titans that we killed seemed to correspond with the number of residents in Ragako." Hanji continues.
"So in other words, these titans were once human?" Erwin asks.
Hanji looked down at the floor. "We don't have all the proof yet... but if that's the case then we'd need to better understand their napes," she says.
My head turned at the sound of a chair creaking, there Levi was lunged forward. "So you're saying I've been killing people left and right?" he asks.
Hanji frowned before turning away from Levi. "I said we don't have all the evidence yet," she mutters. Erwin then began to ask about Eren and Historia and the plan, as of now we were to go into hiding at a safe house inside wall Rose.
Then there was a long silence before Pixis stood up. "I'm gonna grab something to drink... I'll be back in a bit," he says as he walks to the door. Hanji and Connie followed behind leaving only the three of us in the room together.
Erwin looked up at me with a soft smile. "And (Y/N), Hanji spoke to me and I'll grant you permission to leave when you're ready," Erwin says.
I was confused, but I still nodded my head. "Wait what?" Levi asks.
Now I desperately needed to talk to Hanji. I then quickly head for the door, reaching for the knob. "Excuse me-
"No, you stay." Levi barks as his hand claps down on my wrist.
"Levi, let her go." Erwin orders. Pulling my hand out of his I go back and reach for the door, slipping out I rush away from the door and after Hanji.
~Levi~
I headed for the window where I saw (Y/N) chasing after Hanji. She's leaving? She's still determined to go? Maybe if I-
"What's the matter with you?" he asks. I flashed a glare his way before I had always respected his decision merely out of trust. But this, this was different.
"What did Hanji tell you? (Y/N) can't leave- we're lacking in people as it is-
Erwin rolled his eyes before leaning back onto the bed. "What's done is done Levi, besides I thought you didn't let personal feelings get you?" he asks. I dart my head the other way while letting out a 'tch'.
"Go back to sleep, old man." I groaned, and with that I went to the door, to chase after her, and tell her not to go. Walking out of the room I shut the door behind me before letting out a sigh. I then lean on the wall beside the door and look up at the ceiling. This girl is such a pain in the ass. I gently comb my fingers through my hair before pushing myself off the wall and begin walking down the hall.
When I reached outside I turned the corner to the hall that led to the courtyard. There I saw Eren and (Y/N) standing face to face... my eyes drifted down slightly finding their hands intertwined. Again?! Does she like Jaeger? She's too old for him- he's just a kid. I came out from the corner ready to confront them when (Y/N) turned to look at me. After a couple of seconds of looking my way, she then released Eren's hands and ran off.
Eren then waved to me innocently, normally I'd just nod my head, but I was too pissed to respond. Walking toward him I place my pointer finger at my lips signaling him to be quiet. I that beyond where they were standing was a dead end, turning the corner I find (Y/N) standing there... hiding. "Eren, go meet up with the others... we're getting out of here," I inform him.
"Yes sir," Eren says before running off.
Walking a little further I lean on my side against the wall. "So when are you leaving?" I ask.
~(Y/N)~
I stood there nervously as Levi leaned against the wall keeping his eyes fixed on me. "Six days.... Maybe earlier depending on the situation." I answer.
Then he came and propped both hands on either side of me like he did in my bedroom. "Where will you go?" he asks.
I gulp nervously at his closeness fearing I wouldn't be able to control myself. "H-home." I stutter. He began leaning in closer, his eyes now fixed on my mouth.
"I'll escort you-
"No! Y-you can't..." I stutter.
Now his lips were inches from mine nearly touching. Letting out a soft sigh I begin to push his chest causing him to move back. "Is this why you won't return my feelings? Because you're leaving?" he asks.
I nod my head quickly which only made him push back in. "I'll come see you- when this is all over," he says, desperation was all I could see in his eyes.
~Levi~
While I was slowly becoming desperate, tears began to build in her eyes while guilt contorted her face. "I-I'm afraid that won't be p-possible." she stutters. I had never felt so desperate before, never acted this way with anyone.
I took hold of her shoulders and bent down slightly. "Why not?" I ask, and just like that she looked up to meet my eyes while her hand brushed away the tears. Sniffling softly she calmed herself down quickly.
"Give it a rest Levi... you knew from the start that I've been wanting to leave. Now let me go," she says in a harsh tone. And like that, she slipped from reach and ran off again, but this time I didn't chase after her. I decided to leave her be for now... try again later when she wasn't so upset. God what's happening to me...
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