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You are strong, you are not afraid of anything. For a girl, you often think like a guy. But what if one day, you open your eyes and can't see anything?, what if you'll get blind but you didn't saw what you wanted to see for all the years? You're searching for a certain person who makes you happy but can't do it because you're afraid that when you open your eyes, it will be the last? and your saving it, for that last moment before getting blind.

"the stars are shining bright again" he said as he looked at the night sky. "of course they are, that's their job, to shine in the dark" she answered smiling. "it's beautiful isn't it" she continued looking at the man who is using her lap as his pillow. He looked deeply into her eyes. "yes, very beautiful" he answered and they both smiled. Holding her hand, he believes that there's nothing more important than her. He wasted a lot of time already flirting with all the girls that he can get. But with her, everything is different. She's different. And he wanted her. A relationship with her. She, on the other hand is a cheerful woman. A girl full of smiles and charms. But she didn't know. She took everything as a joke. Because for her, that's what she is. A joke. It's a joke that she's alive, it's funny that she's alive. Being the tomboy that she decided to be, she shut all the people out. Specially all of the people who wanted to shit on her. She always gets revenge by not doing anything but just smile. That's how he fell in love. But, what can happen? They're best friends. They've been together since they could remember. They can't just ruin what they have by taking the step and label what they are. He won't hurt her. But she don't want to be away from him. What will happen if they discover about being lonely? What will happen if they go back in time but destiny will just repeat itself? What if they both meet another person and they will feel complete? What if, he moved on and by that time she wanted to try it with him? What if, she has another man and he wanted to fix their relationship? But, what sort of relationship? Friendship is all that they have. She wanted to be loved, true love. He wants her attention. He wanted to try. But she won't take the risk.

One, little two, little three, little droplets of blood on the floor and every scar on her wrist and thighs counts the nights that she cried and tried to gave up, but ended up living. She's sorry. Everyone doesn't know what's happening. People come and go. He came to her life and she never felt complete like before. But time passes by and all she could hear is her heart breaking every time it beats. The louder, the more painful. He left. The love that she's been burying deeply in her heart overflowed and all that she can do is cry. No one would dare to talk to her, she looks like a shit. No one will ever make friends with her, she's scary. The sadness in her eyes. Who can see those? She's empty, she has nothing but sadness and hatred. But somehow, she always smile. Can you tell her she's broken? Can you listen to her thoughts? She will never break your heart. Can you love her broken soul? Her love is unconditional. If you were her, would you do the same thing? Would you be the same? "because I'm not afraid of dying anymore"