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Phil has been denying his feelings for Dan for 3 years now and he doesn't know if he can hold those feelings back any more. But when Dan gets a girlfriend, that's when Phil finally breaks. But someone wants revenge... A Phan and a little kickthestics fanfiction<3 ~this is my first phanfiction ever btw~

Dan is struggling at University, unhappy and unsure. That is, until he gets a strange assignment from a caring teacher, and ends up meeting someone who will change his life forever. ***Editing as I go, if people want this to be a more polished piece, let me know and I'll put more time into editing. Right now it has more of a rough draft feel, just trying to get the story out there***

When Dan start school in a new place, he and Phil become friends fast. But what happens when things become to much? What happens when the only relief seems to be in harming? What happens when they start catching feelings for one another? But what happens when what Dan's been forced to do his whole life, emerges again, threatening to possibly separate them forever, especially when they need the other the most? *Contains: -fluff, smut -descriptive issues such as: self harm, abuse, suicidal thoughts PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE EASILY TRIGGERED BY THESE THINGS stay safe *hugs*

[COMPLETE] Dan always knew he wasn't straight but he couldn't admit it to himself.. That changes when he goes to a boarding school and gets to know this guy called Phil. Triggers: a lot of fluff (and smut in some chapters), boyxboy - Phan. (also my first fanfic ever<3 please go easy on me, this wasn't edit and I can't read it again without cringing)

I've read a bunch of phan, so why not write one? Dan Howell's life couldn't be any better at the moment. He has met the most beautiful, charming, kind girl he could ever imagine, and she loves him back. Everything is perfect... but not for Phil. Phil Lester has always been in love with Dan since the first moment he first met him, but now Phil's heart is crushed. He has some suspicions of Dan's girlfriend, but Dan just brushes it off, ignoring Phil completely. Unfortunately, Phil's bad feelings may be true... Sexual content, self harm, language, and domestic abuse warning. Also, I'm American, so if I get anything wrong, please tell me. ••• Update: This is very old (not really that old) writing! It's cringy as hell, and I apologize in advance. I have fixed a few errors, so if it seems slightly different than it was before, that's why.

Phil is depressed and has been for a long time, Phil had kept this from Dan for along time by letting his bubbly personality invade his mind to distract him from the dark truth inside. But when one fatal day arrives ,Phil's underling feelings erupt from underneath and he is thrown into a world full of chaos not to mention when Dan brings back a small orphan boy. Will Phil get his Happily ever after or will he be lost in a sea of his own thoughts? ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- This story has themes such as self harm and suicide, if you feel upset about these themes then this book isn't for you, my writing is dark as it helps me to express myself. I do not intend to romanticise or cast these themes the wrong way, I hope you enjoy.

Dan is struggling with his self confidence. Well, let's be honest. Dan has no self confidence and struggles to face the harsh realities of life and the pessimistic thoughts and voices that inhabit and nag his brain constantly. Phil tries to help his friend to realize that he really isn't as much as a monster as he thinks of himself to be. These two friends embark on a journey of love, hate, discovery, and confusion. And will they even still be friends by the end of the journey? Will Dan's turmoil break apart their friendship or turn it into something more? Dan and Phil try to answer to the burning question, How to Help Howell? WARNING: Some of this story may be triggering, so if you're sensitive to depressing topics and/or thoughts, gay slurs, mentions of eating disorders, and self harm, this may not be the story for you, which is perfectly fine. Read at your own risk! In case you didn't know, this is Dan Howell and Phil Lester fanfiction. If you haven't heard of them, then go check out their YouTube channels (AmazingPhil and danisnotonfire) right now. It won't take you long to fall in love with them and once you do, come back and read the story. :)

I have noticed some readers adding this story to "phan" reading lists, so I wanted to just make an update. **THIS IS NOT A PHAN STORY** This was written a few years before Dan and Phil came out as gay. It is a Dan Howell fan fiction, where the main character (that is a girl) falls in love with him. Just wanted to clear that up. I don't want to delete this work because there's so many reads and votes, and as shitty as this story is, I love going back and reading the wonderful comments people have made. ~~~~~ Rachel Alice, Phil Lester's best friend, is coming to visit him for the first time in two years. She'll also be meeting Phil's roommate, Dan, for the first time.

It all started with that kiss, that moment and that passion when Dan became lost and Phil was clueless but both in love. The story of a skinny love that slowly becomes into something more and at the same time something less. *Note* Depression, suicide, self-harm and things like this will be mentioned a few times in this phan fiction and it shouldn't be triggering in any way but if it is, I apologize in advanced! Also, I wrote this a while ago now and my writing, grammar and spelling weren't the best so please excuse that. Enjoy!

join me on a ride of half phan fluff, half phan crack adventure! please note that my writing is much better now than the earlier chapters, so ignore those as I'm much too ashamed to edit them. this work doesn't have a beta, so feel free to point out any mistakes or spelling errors! dan and phil don't belong to me either, obviously. this piece of fanfiction is just a bit of fun and a way for me to improve my writing. I also don't own the cover art. kudos to whoever did that, it's awesome and I love you. bye!