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I've always had a feeling that I would die young. Ever since I started pondering on deaths door I've had this feeling. I could care less about the hell and heaven shenanigans, but death. I want it. The end of my life. I want to be in my suit, in my coffin, in the ground and my soul to be gone. I've been waiting for 16 years, yet no sign of death opening his door no matter how many times I ring his doorbell. Yeah, I enjoy thinking about my end. Especially at moments like this... *** #1 physical #1 cuteguys #1 addiction #2 self-esteem *** Started: 7 November 2022 Finished: 18 April 2024

"Are you okay? You seemed a bit tired before," I told him trying not to sound overdramatic. "Yeah, everything's fine," he answered not really paying attention to me and smiled. Although his smile seemed kind of forced, I didn't think about the way he was acting a lot. I mean, everyone had a bad day sometimes. "Tomorrow he will be better", I told myself. -Hoyoung A VERIVERY fanfiction. TRIGGER WARNING: This story includes descriptions of depression, self-harm and low self-esteem that may not be suitable for some readers! Read at your own risks! Trigger warnings will be mentioned at the beginning of certain chapters. Please remember that the plot of the story is fictional. Some circumstances used in the story don't refer to the ones in real life. I don't own the characters of this story, so personalities may vary from the real ones.

I pulled away and covered my mouth in disgust. I ran my way to the kitchen to go rinse out my mouth. As I ran many girls came up to me saying, "Your lucky you kissed Zak." Or "I wish I was you!" It made me feel uncomfortable and scared, my heart started to race at an unhealthy speed. people were taking pictures. started : march 2022 completed : 1/05/22 trigger warnings !! - homophobia - f slur use (please comment under the sentences i have used them in, i will remove them.) - bullying - internalised homophobia - ed - purging - sh 200 views - 14/04/22 300 views - 22/04/22 400 views - 24/04/22 500 views - 29/04/22 600 views - 6/05/22 700 views - 14/05/22 800 views - idk missed it 900 views - 23-24/05/22 1000 VIEWS YAYY TY - 2/05/22 1100 views - 21/06/22 1200 views - 3/07/22 1400 views - 16/07/22 1800 views (sorry I missed a lot) 30/07/22 1900 views 4/08/22 OMG #1 IN HAPPYDUO? 31/05/22

Falling in love with someone bubbly and happy is so easy you just have to shower them with love and affection and keep them happy but falling for a broken soul is never easy thing, there are broken pieces everywhere, you got to collect them and recreate it carefully, it will never be the same but if you put your efforts you can create something more beautiful, but sadly there are not many volunteers ready to take that risk that's why lot of broken souls fades away without anyone noticing from this beautiful world " I HATE you JUNGKOOK. I HATE you for LOVING me. Warning ⚠️ Mention violence Selfharm Photo credits goes to rightful owners. __________________________________________________________________________________ English is not my first language so there will be lots of grammar mistakes please understand? Hope you enjoy.? Started :- 2020.02.14 End :- 2020.07.08

First part of the Beverage-Series Seoul, South Korea. Inbetween of skyscrapers and millions of people, there are two people who somehow seem to always hit the Rock Bottom of life. Mentally, financially, always down to do whatever it takes to somehow get through the day. Kim Jaehyun, who barely hit the 25-Years-Barrier last year, is one of these two people. With his parents deceased in a car accident two days after his fourteenth birthday, no closer family nearby and no place to go, he hit point zero when he dropped out of highschool to become one of Koreas famous idols. Obviously without any further success. He is talented, of course, but there always seemed to be people who were more talented, more handsome, more easygoing and stress-free. And after one of countless auditions he participated in, he got to a point where he just somehow gave up on his dream. Working in one out of a million convenience stores in Seoul, he started to spend almost all of his income in things, that would finally take away all of his pain... But something in his live started to change, without him realizing it, when he met Choi Jimin, who seemed to go through all and the same problems he knew from his everyday life. ****TRIGGER WARNING**** The story, you're about to read contains stuff like smoking, drug & alcohol abuse, abusive & toxic relationships, depression, selfharm, anxiety and vulgar language. Do or do not read, if you're going through any kinds of these things. It's up to you, but I warned you. Reader discretion is advised.

This is a place for me to put all the things I wish I said but I just couldn't. These are a way for me to "say" these things without actually saying them to the person I want to. I probably won't ever go back or read any of these because it's like revisiting a bad memory so don't expect much in terms of editing. Also I wouldn't consider this poetry but it is laid out that way. WARNING Talk of depression, suicide, anxiety, and self harm. Don't read if you don't like things like that and may get triggered. I don't mean to cause anyone problems of any sort, but these are the things I feel and can't help. Please keep negativity away as this is a sensitive subject for a lot of people. Thank you. Highest rankings: 99 in sadpoems Highest rankings: 118 in iwannadie

" Will you still look at me as your sun if I told you about the darkness inside of me?" " I'll hold onto you for now and forever" When an 20 year old Jeon YN has an traumatic past and has been diagnosed with depression. Her 2 elder brothers want the best for her. They convenince YN to transfer into another college. There she faces many difficulties will the popular boy named Choi Yeonjun, help her? does he secretly loves her? ⚠️ DISCLAIMER ⚠️ •Self harming •bullying •Sucidel thoughts •Depression ● This story is only for ENTERTAINMENT PURPOSES nothing is related to real life. ● The people in this story are just portrayal of my characters ● Once again it a FANFICTION nothing is meant to be talking seriously. No hate to any idol mentioned ● Read it only of your comfortable Started: ● 15 July 2023 Ended: ● 11 January 2024

For every question WHY You were my BECAUSE Anxiety. Depression. Panic Attacks. A small touch of Haphephobia. After years of abuse and sadness, Charlotte finally puts her past behind her and starts over. She finds a new job, a new group of friends, and Axel; life can't get any better. She can finally breathe. She starts to experience happiness and love, but her past keeps coming back to haunt her, showing up at the worst moments and taking her happiness away. She's thrown back into it face first; the drugs, the gangs, the ex that she promised wouldn't lay a hand on her again... Her new life mixes with her old and her secrets are revealed, promises are broken, and everything becomes too much. ------- "I can't just shut it off." I speak softly, wanting Axel to understand that this is who I am. This is the real Charlotte. "I know. You just...you don't have to be alone anymore, Char." My eyes focus on our entwined fingers as my heart beats wildly in my chest, his words repeating in my head. I stare, feeling the weight of his words sink in slowly. Being alone is all I've ever known. "Let me prove it to you." His words sound like a promise, and I gulp, my eyes finally finding his. I find myself wanting to believe him. Wanting to trust him. So I do. "Okay." ------- #2 in Anxious - 1.10.2025

I was panting, running for dear life. I couldn't take it anymore I had to feel free and running around my block didn't feel like I was free anymore them I got takin out of my thoughts 'Wammm' I ran into someone or something. "oh my god, are you alright?" he asked the had brown eyes and gorgeous eyes I could get lost in everyday. "yah-yah I'm fine,what about you?" I asked him he gave me a smile and said"yea I am, I'm toby, what about you?" Fluff NO SMUT (from what I know of he is still uncomfortable with that) angst Language There will be self harm and if I remember I will put tw(s) but I might forget Also talk about suicide and abuse Started :12/21/2022. 6:57pm Finished:4/11/23. 11:04pm

CRINGE WARNING! First book I ever wrote on here!! -- "Sometimes the person who you are willing to take a bullet for is the person behind the gun." I stood peering over the cold lifeless body that lay before my eyes. I had always thought of death the enemy, but right now, I blessed it upon the person who is now at peace. Sometimes you don't need to be the smartest, or the fastest, but you do need to be wisest. They say the blood runs deeper than water, and I believe it, because even though the people that we love can turn on us and begin to hate us, they are only human, meaning that soon they will begin to see how short life really is and how it is not to be wasted. People who seem perfect and they look like they have no floors'; they are the people who are suffering, like I was. But I found my savior in the most uncommon place. He was able to look through my mask, he saw the cracks, and tried to fix the broken girl that hid away deep inside the girl who only wanted to be seen as 'fine'. I slowly began to find comfort and safety in him, and I did the same to him. We were two broken people becoming whole. Someone once said when you pass, if you can count your true friends on one hand you are beyond lucky, and I even though I did not like the person that lay before me, I know that he once had true friends, including me. I'm a 17 year old girl who has suffered more than any other, beginning to believe that 'Hope' was just another word the people throw around. Until I fell in love with a badboy. Trailer to the side -------------------> Made By @Laura__1 Cover made by @Beautiful_Tragedy8 Copyright 2014