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{I lost him a while back, but I didn't realise until it was too late. Until he was gone for good.} TW for depression, suicide, and lots of existentialism.

Dan's lost in a world of depression, drugs and self harm, and he's had enough. Well, that's until he meets a blue eyed boy called Phil in the most unexpected way. [COMPLETED] TRIGGER WARNING Highest rankings: #1 IN DANIEL HOWELL #9 IN AMAZINGPHIL #12 IN PHAN #7 IN DAN #1 IN PHANFICTION #335 IN DEPRESSION

"Too good to be good for me, Too bad that that's all I need." //Some chapter will have TW written at the top if I decide they need a trigger warning// [COMPLETED]

sorry doesn't cut it. ⚠ trigger warning: cancer, angst ⚠ COMPLETE | November 2017 Sheera Ayame

a phanfic **warning, contains suicidal thoughts, depression, and anxiety**

please tell mom this is not her fault.

"Hey PJ, how've you been?" "Who's PJ? • Bad grammar and such intended • Trigger Warning: depression, mentions of suicide ### -completed as of 3/1/16-

plantguylester: aye. it's me 'amazingphil' from tumblr. how's it going? read at 7:20 p.m. *lowercase intended* •Trigger Warning• [COMPLETED ON AUGUST 10, 2016]

this is my old writing, it's very bad. please click away to another one shot book, thank you and have a great day! * started: september 1, 2016 completed: april 12, 2017

"Phil Lester is the literal sunshine of my life. If I didn't have him in my life, I may have been dead by now. Every day still sucks, but whenever I'm with Phil, my heart remembers that life is worth living. The only reason my life is worth living is to be next to Phil. To see him smile, to hear him laugh, to listen to his voice, to watch him move...everything. Everything that he does brings the much-needed light into my life." Dan Howell has many struggles within himself, despite his successful YouTube career. The only one who truly helps him is his best mate, Phil Lester. Dan has been madly in love with Phil since the first day they met. However, Dan knows that it is inevitable that Phil will never return the feeling because he is only interested in women. As Dan attempts to battle his own demons, Phil seems to be quite happy and even ends up dating a beautiful girl. Unfortunately, this makes Dan's mental state even worse. What will happen to Dan? Will he ever confess his strong feelings for his best friend? Will he ever overcome the ongoing war in his head?