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The Fake Smile He Wears

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Reads 44,498
Votes 918
Parts 23
Time 5h 12m

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No Ships! 

i do be cringing at this very hard but I'll keep it up for y'all. note that the quality is very questionable and like most people i've reflected on the cringiness <3
 
The Ancients saw many of their children and grandchildren suffering alone, no one noticing the other's pain. The fake mask, the 'happy' countries wore. The secrets they all hid. The Ancients couldn't let this just happen, they came up with a plan. America was the unfortunate victim and test subject. 

America is the happy, joyful, always smiling, and loud country, but what if everything they know about him is a lie? A mask no one could see through. The mask no one tried to look through. There was a lot they didn't know about him. A lot he hid from them. A lot he kept inside his cracking heart. Secrets will be spilled, and skeletons will come out of the closet. Feelings kept inside for so long, will come out. The sides of America they never knew of will come out today. The mask will come off today. The mask that's been worn for so long. Will he be saved? What happened to America? Who is America really? How many lies have been told? How many hearts will be broken? Did they ever know America at all? How many friendships will be built, and how many destroyed? How long has America deceived them all? How will they see America now? Will America come out of this better or worse? Was doing all of this right? Only time will tell.

WARNING⚠️⚠️⚠️: Mentions of suicide, eating disorders, self harm, other mental disorders, and depression. If you are suffering from any of these things please get help. I know someone out there cares for you, if you can't find someone who cares for you, I do, so please get help. Don't ever do any of this stuff. If you don't like this stuff or if it bothers you please don't read it, if not continue, you have been warned. Some stuff may be really inaccurate and I don't mean to offend anyone. 

Best rank Alfred Jones #1
Cover picture isn't mine, please don't sUe mEAll Rights Reserved

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