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"And do you want to know what happened to my sister. She was dragged from streets on her way back to home. She was drugged and was forcefully taken to God knows where. Not only she was raped brutally, she was beaten up . Hundreds of bruises and burn marks covered her whole body leaving the scars she had. She cried herself to sleep all night after that horrible night. You should have seen her. You know, you made me realise why she never told anyone. Why she never took action against it. To top it all, my sister was kidnapped and murdered. And you know what's heart breaking, she was dumped in a landfill like some trash. I still have nightmares seeing her lifeless body, with dried blood all over her face . Just imagine, an innocent girl with dreams and hopes. She always dreamt about getting a job and taking care of our parents rather than moving out. She had a very beautiful heart and a courageous soul. The way you said she committed suicide, I just wanted to rip you apart. She would never. Thinking all her dreams and wishes were completely shattered by their thirst for pleasure, breaks me. Not just her , hundreds and thousands of women and children are harassed, assaulted, molested and raped . How could people be so selfish and heartless. You know what makes it harder, the convicts are right here, right now....seeing and hearing everything that I am saying. Let them...I don't care. The guilt should eat them up. So, before talking shit about someone you really should know what you are doing. You hurt me, you know... The way you talked about my sister who went through hell, it hurt me."

I'm trying to keep my eyes open while hearing the noises of doctors and the beeps of machines. It's feeling like something is going away from me. I'm trying my best to keep my conscious. But second by second my strength is draining and pain is increasing into my head and whole body. But right now , I don't give damn to my own self. Anything could happen to me. I don't care. But nothing should happen to my child ... he should survive and live his life unlike his mother "who never got anything in her life. First I couldn't get the love from my parents "which i deserved.." then i got the husband "who don't give shit to my existence. My whole life went trying to get the piece of love "which I at least deserved once in my life . But no one dared to give to me and now god is snatching my last happiness as well. Which is my child. When I'd got to know about him. A ray of hope I'd felt in my life. I thought at least now I'll able to get someone whom I could call mine. But seems like god couldn't see me stay happy and now I'm laying on death bed holding my womb pleading to god that he should keep my baby safe. But I guess he can't see me happy and soon I heard doctor's faint voice " who announced baby is no more. We lost the baby. He whispered looking at other doctors being dejected. Tears made their ways from my twitching eyes..' and I felt like to scream and cry bitterly. All the emotions are gushing towards my brain and heart. but being numb on the bed made me so helpless that I can't even cry. After battling I couldn't hold my sanity and fell unconscious.

Hurt, pain, doubt, insecurity, temporary happiness, fear, toxic relationships, anger, anxiety, issues, and chaos. They were the unwelcome passengers on my road trip of life. While being pregnant with my daughter Lea, I was in a really dark place and one day I met some random girl in college name Nicole, she sat next to me on the hallway floor. Her being there was making me tremble from the inside out. But it wasn't her, it was Jesus in her. The way she let Jesus take over her life, made everyone feel the presence of God. I started to sobbed and she hugged me (without knowing me) then I cried even harder. She said, "there's nothing you can do that will make God unlove you." To make the long story short, that day I surrender my life to Jesus and made a friend for life. I decided to make this 39 days bookish of writings because when life hit us hard we need a reminder of hope, joy, faith, love, and worth. The thing that inspires me every time I find myself in great difficulty is the knowledge that God loves me unconditionally, despite all my shortcomings.

Ngegama I am Zanele Mbhele all the way from KZN . Judging the place i'm from you can tell I am Zulu . I live in the rurals with my Aunt , Uncle and their two girls . I dont know my parents , i heard that my dad abandoned me when I was 5 years and my mom died while giving birth to me . that's what I knew by then . I had a miserable life from the day I was born . things changed when I got kidnapped and forced to prostitution . crazy thing is I was sold by the people I live with . this is how it started . by Miss N Mgidi . let's gather here , get yourself some popcorns . This is going to be a longer journey . hope you guys will enjoy , please share this to your friends . like and comment

ALREADY PUBLISHEDAMAZON****Life is very hard, each day we struggle to make it and we wonder where is God? God gave us common sense for a reason, but through struggles and trials we become wiser. In my time as a christian and experiencing life, I have found some simple principals that can forever change anyone's life. Little do we know that the smallest things can change our lives for good. The Bible is full of a wealth of knowledge, combine that with experience and you have life changing words. Whether you are worrying too much, or stressed practice a change in your life and get results! This is the complete free guide all that I ask is you encourage somebody else!

Woman.. You are a mystery They still can't see. Being outcasted and ignored for years Your struggles fell on deaf ears. You bleed the blood like warrioress Still, you are sweet and fearless. There is none that you can't heal In front of no one that you should kneel. Remember that you are a conqueror Nothing can make you feel inferior. Having the wisdom of infinity Just name your own destiny. With an immeasurable soul You can be a creator of your own tale. Be the one you want to be Not the one you should be. With a glimmer in your eyes Woman..just marvel at your life. With an infinite love in your heart Sourire for what you have been from the start. (*few of the dialogues that I have used in the story are adapted from Google.*)

When you're little you're surrounded by people that you're supposed to trust and feel safe with. The people God gave you are supposed to protect and nourish you, they're supposed to encourage positive growth, teach you right from wrong. So where along the lines, does an urge so sinister come into the mix? How are you taught to handle dealing with these types of situations, that most people don't have to face in their lifetime? How can anyone then stand by, defending these acts created against an innocent child? Feeling ostracized by every family member or person they have ever had to tell their truth to, some just to defend the monster? How can you then justify this? Love is love right? No matter the cost, right? How about falling in love with someone so manipulative, so deceitful, so evil and cruel, a cold hard liar. Claiming they are a child of God yet disguised as the Devil himself wreaking havoc, trauma and so much hurt and pain on innocent beings? It's time to face the judgement that lies ahead of all the evil they've committed. Here we dive into..... The Monsters Amongst Us.

This is a series of short stories, poems and thoughts I've written over the years, compiled into this collection. Most of these were written years ago. Some I've written as early as this year (2025). The purpose of this volume is to feel. Feel everything as though you are the main character experiencing each emotion expressed through my writing. These are written through my perspective as a woman, but please let this resonate with you regardless of your identity. Please vote, comment, like and share. Thank you! - nhiamare

Squeal to His Curvy Chick I placed my head in my hands, I felt like crap, my mind went to the razors and how that pain would make me feel better but I can't do that to Chris and I made a promise to Andrea but are they really worth it?. I got up from the bed and went onto the balcony, we were on the second floor. I contemplated suicide so many times I've lost count. It must be amazing to feel nothing, to be numb. I know they'll miss me but after a while I'll be nothing but a faint memory, Andrea will move on being a mother, Alex will find someone great to love and have a few children and Chris will find someone better, right?. I stared at the sky, the sun was blazing and the sky was clear. I felt the morning breeze hit my skin sending a shiver down my spine. Why did it have to me is a question I used to ask every day until Andrea came into my life and now I just feel like giving up, I took a deep breath and gripped onto the railing.

A lubricious collection of titillating fantasies driven by everyday possibilities. LIFE... How uneventfully redundant. Cook. Clean. Work. School. Rear children. Help others. Repeat. But what if life didn't have to be a bland and off-key elevator song on replay? What if every activity you deemed "regular" was spiced up with massive helpings of unbelievable pleasure? What if that doctor you dreaded seeing, or that business meeting you hated sitting through at work were actually opportunities for you to live out your wildest fantasies? What if? In this opus of pleasure, you'll discover a plethora of scenarios described in juicy detail that people can only dream about. Hedonism is the theme, and erogenous skies are the limit. You'll never look at your mailman the same after this...