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Before I Go

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I am Morgan Feldman, and I struggle with depression and anxiety. My bad days outnumber my good days and my empty days rule my life.

I've created a list. A bucket list, some might call it- because my days are numbered. A list of all the things that I want to accomplish in my senior year of high school, things I want to do before I go... because at the end of the year, Morgan Feldman will be no more.



Warning: This story mentions and/or talks about in-depth: anxiety, depression, bullying, suicidal thoughts, cutting, suicide attempts, eating disorders, and possible other triggers. Reader discretion is advised.

(Total wordcount around 50,000 words. This story has short chapters, with the average chapter length consisting of about 1,023 words.)All Rights Reserved

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Inhale

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