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Honne; Tatemae
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  • Parts 37
Complete, First published Mar 07, 2022
"No! Stop!"

I could see her fading silhouette. She keeps on walking away just like the way I dreamt of her every night.

'No! Please don't walk away. I need to see your face. I need to know your name. I need to find you.'

But I know that it wasn't enough. If there's anything that she's good at, it is into dodging people away. 

"Please!?" I almost beg. "I need to see you. Just stop." 

I keep on running and chasing after her. But like in every dreams, she kept on slowly fading away. And I could feel the same emptiness within whenever I've dreamt of this.

It starts with her fading hands. Like a human form that's painfully breaking into tiny crystallized pieces that's scattered into thin air, she's dissolving in an incredibly fast-paced. 

"No. Please don't!" 

I could feel the tears that's running down on my cheeks as I try to grab her fading hand. 

"No! No!" 

As if there's a heavy rock on my chest, my breath starts to heave. I could feel the hollow emptiness within and the contradictory feeling of being crushed beneath.
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