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Why did you have to leave me ..

It was October 2023, and my now-ex-fiance had moved out of our trailer for good. I decided to end our relationship and thought I had emotionally moved on from them. I was wrong-dead wrong. What followed them moving out was something I could not have ever thought to experience. I began to experience extreme mood swings, controlling behavior, self-esteem issues, and a new-found addiction to alcohol. This was just the tip of the iceberg, as I was constantly flirting with suicide on a daily basis. I could not begin to even tell you about how I went through an emo phase, a "man hoe" phase, and multiple other phases as well due to my deteriorating mental health. I began to document my everyday life after our split through two separate journals over a twelve-month span. This is the true tale of how a breakup brought me to the realization that I was an abuser and that I became the same monster that I swore not to become as a kid. This is how trauma ruined my life, and how it will ruin yours too.

QUICK BURNING TYPE OF STORY!! "i love everything about you" "nobody understands me like you do"

This piece of writing is mostly for myself. I want this to act as my journal. I've always tried to see life from others' perspective. I think it's time to see it from mine. This can act as a rough draft of my life. If you're very nosy and want to know how someone else lives the real life, feel free to read it. It's raw, it's unfinished, it's my outlet.

For six and a half years, I'd been Orion's ol' lady. So I thought. When I went to tell him that I was, against all odds, pregnant, he informed me that I had been part of his cover for his undercover work. He didn't want me or our baby. Fine. He wasn't the only one with a secret life.

Willow and Decker Masen were married two days before Willow discovered he'd courted her and married her strictly to fulfill the stipulations in his father's will. Then, he sent her to live away from him, promising her a divorce in three years with a big payout. She doesn't want his money. Then Decker comes back for his wife. Before he even knows there's a tiny reason to come back. Now he has to see if he can put the broken pieces of her heart back together.

When my accounts were going down due to the Tuition fee for my kids university I had to think of something so I created a website site but when people started to write stories on us there's a saying you protect your own and deal with the rumors.

"Alone With You" ⚠WARNING⚠ • I started this when I was 12/13 so beware of grammar, spelling, etc. • Takes a weird turn somewhere in the story, so watch out • Self-harm • Abuse

It was a case of mistaken identity. Without stopping to see who was answering the door to the apartment he knocked on, Dutch blurted out the invitation to dinner. But instead of asking out the girl he had a crush on, he'd asked out her roommate, Penelope. Dutch decided one dinner date with Pen would be fine and that would be the end of things. Except...he fell in love with Pen on that date and eventually asked her to marry him. Life was perfect. Until Penelope overhead Dutch telling his former crush that asking Penelope out had been a mistake.

This is a story. A true story. A story about what it's like to lose yourself because of someone else's words, or actions. A story about what it's like to be squeezed until every drop of self worth leaks from your body. A story about how someone else's influence can make you feel like you don't love yourself anymore. This is my story.