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Thinking you've found the love of your life; only to realize they hurt you because you belong with someone else entirely. Me too. Things always start great; but can end in so many different ways at the same time. (Cover is just me btw)

The party was quite nice. The school year had just started. But there was too much alcohol, too many problems, and a unfortunate accident that would kill 5 kids, leaving many in grief. Cheating happened, death happened, rape happened, and brought people closer to each other than they've ever been. People mourn every time they see the sunset, people can't bring themselves to get into an Uber. At the end of the day they're just young, and some will stay young forever. The before, during, and after of a tragic night you'd never would want to be trapped in.

She lived her life as if it was normal and everything was okay. But in reality, that was never the case, She was struggling. Her life wasn't as easy as she tried to make it seem. She went to school, pretending to be happy all the time so her friends didn't become suspicious. And then she went home, to watch her 'father' throw his life away as he shot up in his arm. She hated seeing him locking himself in the bathroom only to come out ten minutes later, high out of his mind. He scared her; He did weird things when he was like that. From walking into her room and just staring around and then leaving without saying a word, to yelling at her and throwing whatever was in arms reach at her. She was suffering, but she still tried to make herself look like she was okay. Nobody suspected anything odd going on in her life. Afterall, she was Alexis Deaken, Everyone believed her life was perfect. They evyed her, they believed she had everything. Little did they know that the second she left that school building everyday she was going home to something unimaginable.

Have you ever met someone who alters the course of your life? For good or for bad, they've come in, given and taken, and then- BOOM! Your life was never the same. There's always a change, an altering of reality. When you meet those people, the reality that you've known your whole life is suddenly gone and a new one has taken its place. When those moments happen, there's no going back. You can try to return to the way things were but nothing, and I mean nothing, can take you back to exactly how it was. That's what happened to us. I think that's why we're still trying so desperately to get back to some sort of normalcy. Four years later and we're still on the ground, crawling, in search of the happiness that was lost that June. Summers will never be the same. Midnight walks through my neighborhood will never be the same. Field parties with bonfires and loud music will never be the same. I still don't know why you left and what lead you to the decision you made. What I do know is that we're here. We're alive and we're pushing forward to the future. A future that you're not a part of. But in some ways, I'm glad you're not a part of it. I just wish it wasn't like this. *** TRIGGER WARNING*** SA, abuse, suicide, substance abuse, and mental illness. This is a complete story that is much like life; fast, full of surprises, and not always how we want it to be. This has been a project of mine for over three years. It was self-published on Amazon, but after some issues in publication, I decided to just upload it on here. I hope you fall in love with these characters like I have. The friends in this story are trying to make names for themselves, figure out who they are, who they can trust, how to love, and how to separate themselves from a restrictive community. As in any coming of age story, they will experience growing pains... but will they survive them before its too late? PLEASE READ THE TRIGGER WARNINGS.

-Let's get this straight. From a dead end job to a useless crazy ex boyfriend- my happiness is with my best friend yet the fear of our relationship ending completely scares me and id rather fake it and be in fear than find out and never be happy. It sucks, seeing him everyday and knowing what i feel for him and how deep those feelings go is painful...- But when he comes around everything changes for the best and for the worst. As a whole they are deeply loved and equally as hated by others but the love from one another is undeniable, if only she wasnt so selfish with her choices and words- -Lying, cheating, sneaking, crying- many acts and emotions come from within when there's someone you love unaware of that love.. Possibly growing to love someone else right before your eyes..Its gut wrenching, i know because ive fucked up. Its worse when you're aware of the harm you cause yourself and others but dont care how the outcome turns out to be. Why would it matter how it effects you if youre used to pain and people leaving? it wouldnt. All because you take comfort in your own mind and mental illness, once you realize you have freewill it may become a bad thing if youre careless.- - Gabriella White.

During school Alexis suffers from a fall and loses her memories. Now five long years later after staying in a coma , she is finally out. She starts to question herself about what really happened that day . Would she be able to accept what really happened or would it be too much? Was it all her fault? Every thing gets a bit out of hand as she is stalked by her killer. Started on 14 July , finished on 14 October. Please don't copy , if this looks similar to any stories you have read , it's just a mere coincidence. If you don't have anything nice to say don't say anything. Other than that enjoy.xxx

NOT EDITED PREPARE FOR SPELLING AND GRAMMAR MISTAKES; TRIGGER WARNING: I suck at putting them in the book so if you need one for any reason this is it. Be careful love:) ~~~~~~ Once you become addicted to something it never goes away. And that's what we are addicted. When addicted you'll do anything to get your next fix and for us that involved fighting, murder, and risking our lives just to see the other breathing. and even when your "sober" you'll always be addicted, that will always be your one true craving. That's exactly what happened too. We would set fire to the world around us and never let a flame touch the other because if we did... ... we'd destroy ourselves in the process. Simply I was marked by him And he was marked by me. ~~~~~ THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR GIVING MY BOOK A CHANCE. PLEASE VOTE AND COMMENT. I HOPE YOU ENJOY BABE:

❝𝙏𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙨𝙖𝙮 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙨𝙚 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙜𝙤𝙡𝙙𝙚𝙣 𝙮𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨 𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙄 𝙬𝙞𝙨𝙝 𝙄 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙙𝙞𝙨𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙚𝙖𝙧. 𝙀𝙜𝙤 𝙘𝙧𝙪𝙨𝙝 𝙞𝙨 𝙨𝙤 𝙨𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙚. 𝙂𝙤𝙙 𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝐁𝐑𝐔𝐓𝐀𝐋 𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚.❞ Ask any adult when was their "golden years" and more often than not they'll say their teenage years. From 13 to 18, we're supposed to be carefree, no responsibilities, no stress - just enjoying our "golden years". But ask a teenager in this decade the same exact question and watch as the façade falls. Parents can't pay the bills so you gotta find a way to get money, having to take care of younger or older siblings, watching people you grew up with die in front of you. . . To you this seems like a plot of a movie or series but to many others it's a reality and a harsh one too. However, building friendships and relationships will always help with those problems right? Well a fucking roller coaster of emotions and events awaits you. But the real question remains - can 𝗬𝗢𝗨 handle the responsibilities and life of one or all of these teens or will you crack under the pressure and weight of these 𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐒?

"Life is hard but it can always be better."

A private school girls life turns upside down when a mysterious serial killer begins using her identity, her friends are dying, the police are after her, will she find out the true identity of the killer before it's too late?