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I call this a beautiful journey of my lifeless existence. I don't know what's happening, but I seem to be living my life all over again, in my mind. It feels so real but seems like a dream to me. I'm confused, lost, worried, but I hope to find answers to what truly went wrong.

Thinking you've found the love of your life; only to realize they hurt you because you belong with someone else entirely. Me too. Things always start great; but can end in so many different ways at the same time. (Cover is just me btw)

I don't know any other proper way to express my feelings, and I think this is the best and healthiest way to do it. So here is a diary, an autobiography however you would like to interpret it. It's about me and my life. It's the way I deal with living.

I tried to end my life, i was alone. No one was here with me. I just wanted a friend. This is my diary, my only friend, the only thing that knows me inside and out. And this is my story.

In everyone's life there are ups and downs. For this one girl, there was no exception. Like many others, her life has been filled with good and bad memories, most of them making her the girl she is today, and the woman she will be tomorrow. But behind every person there are weaknesses and cracks, some show and some don't. But when life starts piling up on here, she starts breaking and reaches her hand out for someone. But will the right person stop her falling? Or will they let her slip away? Will life turn out good or bad in the end? Only time can tell.

Have you ever felt so broken that you couldn't pull yourself out of bed and continue to live your life like you used to. A simple task such as tying your shoes already seems like a huge burden on your account. Struggling with yourself because everything around you doesn't matter anymore. That's mainly because she broke my heart. Who knew love could turn a person around. Who knew love would hurt this bad. Who knew love can make you feel numb. A simple word yet it has an enormous impact in everyone's life. Everything happens for a reason, and I'm not blaming it all on her, though there are things you just wish you could take back and redo because of the feeling it gave you. And because of those traumatic event, I turned into a complete opposite of me. Well, that's until I met...her. You'd think that I've learned my lesson but she's different. I'm that cold-hearted until she drop down here on earth and save my miserable, sorry ass. A girl who doesn't know how to give up. A girl who's filled with happiness in a way that if you stare at her, there's this feeling you can't explain and it just lightens your mood. A girl who's friends with everyone because of her pure and innocent soul. A girl that can certainly light up a god d*mn world with her personality. ... And a girl who made me feel again. A girl who made me fall in love again. A girl who made me forget all the things that I've been through because she made my present more than just worth living, and my future to be worth looking forward to. And she made me fall in love with her harder than anyone did. Harder than anybody could. And I wouldn't mind to fall over and over again if at the end of the line, she's there to catch me.

Who am I.......... I'm just a girl looking for someone to hold and never let go. I'm a girl whose been through a lot in the past, I would hate to relive. I just want to be known for the good I've done and not the bad. I just want to be loved by someone who understands me for who I am. I don't want to be judged just because I am a christian and I'm different from others. I want to be known as the girl who helped others with their problems and hard times. Sometimes I wonder who am I? Am I a person people look up to or am I a person people hate. Who am I?

These poems here are like my poem diary. (If that makes sense)

This story is about a young girl trying to live her best life but everybody around her misunderstands her. Perfect doesn't really exist in her world and everyday she tries so hard to make sure she fits it in. All day long she smiles but all night long lonely tears fall from her tired eyes. Depressions creeps around her world every second but no one notices.

I never planned to write this. But life has a way of spilling onto pages when there's no one left to listen. This is not a perfect story-it's messy, full of half-finished thoughts, mistakes, and moments I wish I could forget. It's the laughter, the heartbreak, the silent nights, and the words I never said out loud. Some pages will feel like home. Others might hurt. But this is me-unfiltered, unapologetic, and real. This is My Diary of Life. 2nd Edition: The Things I Couldn't Say Out Loud